Wednesday, April 30, 2008

belated.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CELESTE!

i love you you funny person :D

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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DIONE!

stay cute and pretty yeah! :D

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sorry i couldn't finish blogging yesterday ^^"

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i know. i know it's hurting you a lot, and i'm sorry. really, i am.

but please, just let me be.

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i didn't want to do this today. but this emotion just came over me so overwhelmingly, and i really really can't help it.

i never knew i'd come to need them so much.

when Fann, Amelia and i went out of the band room to self prac, i chose that particular area for a reason. that's where the seniors had helped me out with Last Ride of the Pony Express.

when i walked back there from the band room, i stopped by the tap place, where the sec fours had made us line up to get splashed during FUNdamentals last year.

and that's where i found the spare water bomb and splashed Lynn with it.

i looked over the field and the track, cos that's where we had that MAJOR water fight during band camp. it's when we were chasing Beatrice and Wen Hui around, and we accidentally hit Beatrice's forehead with the pail.

that area outside that dance studio's where we would pump and have our long talks, that spiral staircase was where the sec 4s (sec 3s then) managed to cheat the juniors into sitting in front of them, when they really wanted to fire water guns at us.

honestly, i thought i'd be okay with it. i thought i'd be able to handle it. i thought i'd be able to hang on, to not cry, to be able to say "goodbye, i wish you all the best in everything you do."

and i thought wrong.

i've got a lump in my throat, and it refuses to budge. i felt it all the way through dinner, and i'm still feeling it.

i never liked saying goodbye.

i wish i could be a spoilt brat. i wish i could whine and cry and kick and scream until you guys give in and stay on just to keep me quiet.

but i'm not going to be selfish.

so... tomorrow's going to be goodbye.

and thank you.

and maybe tomorrow, i won't cry.

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and i've lost all mood and appetite for everything.

王羚柔 - 当我们同在一起

如果云是天空的呼吸
风是我慌张的叹息
回忆是爱的延续
只因为你和我已经不在一起

当我们同在一起
在一起在一起

空气里有午后的暖意
我听着沙沙收音机
突然间下起了雨
雨让我好想好想你想抱着你

当我们同在一起
在一起在一起在一起
在一起其快乐无比

你是我曾经的甜蜜
我是你爱情的过去
那一段美好的记忆
我们都不能够忘记

因为我很爱很爱你
所以能微笑着离去
虽然我不会再见你
幸福是我们曾经在一起

你是我曾经的甜蜜
我是你爱情的过去
那一段美好的记忆
我们都不能够忘记

因为我很爱很爱你
所以能微笑着离去
虽然我不会再见你
幸福是我们曾经在一起

空气里有午后的暖意
我听着沙沙收音机
唱什么听不清晰
因为我傻傻的笑着想起了你

当我们同在一起
在一起在一起
在一起在一起

later, toony

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8:25 PM

Monday, April 28, 2008

happy happy birthday to me.

ah, 29th April's here again.

waay loads of people have birthdays on 29th April.

but i still think May 16th's the coolest day :D

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Lynn asked me if i was looking forward to Thursday.

and i have a really long list of reasons why i'm not.

firstly, i never wanted to perform at the Istana. maybe it's just that unconfident kid in me, but i really don't think i should play in front of the president.

secondly, we're seriously seriously not prepared for it. well maybe we are, but we're not exactly playing well enough are we...

thirdly, it's my first and last actual performance with the sec 4s. am i supposed to look forward to that?

but maybe, on a more selfish level, it's cos Mr Yap's not our conductor.

i never dreamt that my first concert with SC Band wouldn't be under him. i never thought that my last would be under someone else.

and maybe... maybe i don't want to perform under anyone except him.

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sectionals today.

awesome, i got there at 2.30 and just waited for someone from the section to come until 3. then Georgina came, and we waited till 3.30 for someone else to come, when Fionna and Jamie came. then the sec threes started coming in slowly, and went for lunch, so by the time we decided to start practising, it was 4.

sectionals with Qingyi in charge... interesting sectionals, really.

ran through the pieces, and when we finished playing them, Fionna, Jamie, Lynn and i stayed back with the intention of practising, but we just ended up talking.

my birthday's going to be busy this year :(

had fun talking about random stuff with the juniors and Lynn.

walked back with Lynn after she locked up the band room and all, and i think what she said does make sense.

i wonder how different SC Band will be when my batch leaves.

SC Band was so much more than a CCA. SC Band was a family. everyone was welcomed, and everyone felt welcomed.

but she's so much colder now...

i do miss the old SC Band. she didn't get a Gold for SYF, but that's not quite important anymore.

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i'm suddenly quite tired.

but i'm not about to get into trouble anymore.

yeah.

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when i heard this i was just stunned.

play so fast for what!! ><"

Clarinet Polka


they don't have an alto or a bass though...

later, toony

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7:54 PM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

and i'm back to square one.

i have decided to work much much harder this term.

even though it's already ending -.-

no more procrastination. i have to do well this term.

i'm not going to disappoint anyone anymore.

yeah.

JIAYOU! :D

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so it's the B40 that's turning Sophie blue.

i have to take care of Sophie AND the mouthpiece...

ziplock bags! :D

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i predict a crazy week ahead. we'll definitely be waay busy with band pracs and sectionals and maybe self prac until Thursday.

it's only my second performance with SC Band, apart from sec one orientation, so i really hope i don't screw up Thursday's performance.

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i am a voice that's waiting to be heard.

feels like i'm back where i began.

you don't deserve the way i'm treating you, i'm sorry.

it's personal.

later, toony

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10:34 PM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

last one.

today's the last Saturday band prac with sec 4s.

it came way too early.

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many thanks to Lynn for the breakfast treat today ^^

the teh tarik really was quite nice.

it really felt like a bunch of little kids waiting for mum to give them breakfast.

but what i want to say... i'm going to save it for later.

sad to say, Alyssa's right. Pirates just isn't the same anymore.

Qing, Alyssa and i were talking about Mr Yap's stack of four chairs and him bouncing around.

i remember Fann saying she wanted to be like Kelly and sit on Mr Yap's chair.

i remember his stand, which had all sorts of spastic messages on it.

i especially enjoyed the band prac where he asked us to say different stuff for attendance-taking, and i responded with pandas rule :D

i enjoyed all my band pracs with him, and i enjoyed those with Ms Leong too.

just wish i had understood that it couldn't possibly last. i just wish i had understood that.

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stayed in school till 6.30 arranging files yesterday. maybe i was rushing, which would explain why the third clarinet score was in the bass clarinet file. heh.

it's the first time i was alone in the band room, just sitting there with scores scattered all around me, air-con switched off.

i kinda enjoyed it.

sitting in the band room, not playing and all... there seems to be some residue spark right there.

but Alyssa's right. there's no feel anymore.

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Madrigalum.

i fell in love with the piece when i heard the seniors play it.

lovely song really.



i survived PTD, and i survived the shock of my report book.

but really, i expected more Bs.

later, toony

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4:03 PM

Monday, April 21, 2008

woken.

kay, firstly, sorry for the lack of updates, i've been really lazy to update lately ^^"

many thanks to Mellie, Priscilla, Emily Pang and Julia Fung for coming to visit me on Friday! :D

and many thanks to Celeste for being so nice and concerned about me :D

love you guys loads!

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this weekend really was quite a wake up call.

thank God for it.

i have to stop blaming others for my own mistakes.

have to stop going down this slippery slide.

and i remember now. i remember how i absolutely can't afford to disappoint them anymore, remember how much they really love me.
but truly, i've realised just what a failure i can be, how disappointing a child i am, how i just can't seem to do anything right.
PTD's like three days after her birthday. how on earth is she going to handle that report card...?
i'm so so so sorry.
Dear Lord, i need help to go back, and i need strength.
please Lord, i need help. and i'm so sorry i've been such a disappointing daughter.

later, toony

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7:11 PM

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Reverso.

Reverso ice-cream is good.

only i'm like totally broke now lah :(

cos a lot of people owe me money.

and i owe Alyssa money.

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sectionals weren't bad today, I USED THE BLACK CLARINET! :D

okay lah, i wasn't used to it so i didn't sound as nice as i wish i could.

Sophia's nice man, we're going to play so well for Rainbow Connection, like the part where the bass and the alto have the melody.

didn't get to play on Sophie today. she's such a dear :)

i better name the pandas ASAP lah, i don't want to keep calling them Panda and Other Panda -.-

went out for Island Creamery with Alyssa and Lynn again.

it was a talking thing again, but Reverso ice-cream really does wonders for my mood.

sinfully awesome. yeah mans :)

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whoots if i had passed my Geog file i would have gotten that A1.

ha. ha. ha.

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i officially conclude that i'm S-C-R-E-W-E-D for Science.

there goes triple science.

i'm so dead.

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i have got to buck up.

or i'll just be pushed down.

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Mighty To Save



later, toony

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7:55 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

i'm sorry.

i realised i've been crying quite a good deal lately.

sorry guys, i'm not a very good actress.

i'm really sorry that i'm being such a brat, complaining about all sorts of stuffs, when my life's really awesome and fantastic

sorry that i'm so unbelievably weak and insecure

i'm really sorry that i've been slacking so much and been so unwilling to do all the super important stuff i have to do.

all in all, i'm really sorry for being such a horrible person.

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i'd like to have Island Creamery Reverso, Haagen Dazs Belgian Chocolate and Gelare dark chocolate ice-cream.

i'm developing an intense appreciation for rain.

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maybe it's my winter now. where i need to curl up and hibernate.

it's been a year now. this time last year, scars had just been inflicted, nowhere near healing ye



maybe that's why.



maybe it's my screwed up grades. maybe it's the disappointment i have in myself, knowing that i should always have worked harder.

maybe it's cos school's growing intensely stressful, and i smartly signed up for Teacher's Day committee.

and maybe because i really can't seem to tell anyone about anything anymore.

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it gets bleaker with each day.

i'll just be waiting now.

just waiting.

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PE today was fun though.

thanks Pan-E, thanks Cheryl Ho :)

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how i wish i was allowed to keep emo fringes.

they get on my nerves sometimes, but i still think they're cool.

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yeah, expected.

i screwed up Science.

yay.

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my God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save.

later, toony

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8:49 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008

here we go again.

the same thing happens week after week.

once again, i'm freaking out cos of the common test i have tomorrow.

this time, it's worse, cos i know i can't screw this up, i just can't.

it's not a good thing, from 5 As to most probably 6 Bs.

if i think it's bad now, i should just wait till PTD.

awesome.

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9:05 PM


it's not fair.

it's not fair.

don't you think that it's enough that i couldn't perform in the last concert Mr Yap had with us?

don't you think it's enough that i couldn't perform in that concert with the sec 4s of '07?

just one short, sweet, simple concert with them.

please.

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Sophie dear...

i'm sorry.

sorry that you got stuck with a horrible player like me.

you deserve so much more.

sorry dear.

:(

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Julia's mum is seriously funny

that was the best joke i've EVER heard.

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really wished it would rain today.

rain is really really refreshing sometimes.

feels like it washes away all burdens, and while you're walking through it, everything seems to fade away.

next time the rain falls in torrents, i'll forget about my umbrella, forget that i'm getting drenched, forget that my books will get wet.

and next time i get to do that, maybe i'll just forget.

and i really really wish i will.

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i would really like to have Mariah Carey's latest album.

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great, i just remembered my Chinese, History, Lang Arts and Geog grades.

and there's hardly any doubt whatsoever that i'm going to screw up Science too.

here's to hoping Math PT didn't just kill me.

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argh i better not think of such things.

it'll just make me really really scared.



later, toony

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4:56 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

if only.

i like Lifestyle even more now, especially with the new cooking column and the reflect column.

last week's reflect column was on pain, and i think it was well written.

this week's was quite good too.

your mind wanders at funerals.

you look around at the people who show up and wonder what sort of crowd you would attract at your own funeral.

you start thinking about what sort of venue your loved ones would choose in your absence, what the food and music will be like and the kinds of things they would say about you.

but most of all you ask yourself: should my life end suddenly tomorrow, would i have been happy with the way i lived?

frankly, i have no idea right now.

but i know i'd be thankful that God allowed me to meet all the awesome people in my life.

SC Band, the awesome clarinet section, the small but significant recruits '07, the great 2SY '08, the very VERY lively cell group, and the old people from HMC.

but if only.

if only.

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don't worry.

i'll still smile.

but for now, please understand if i'm suddenly very withdrawn.

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i'm sorry.

and i hope it's not too late.

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PL MGS band concert wasn't too bad, i really liked the alumni band. the ladies at the drumset were awfully good.

and i do like the encore. so unbelievably lame.

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later, toony

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11:59 AM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

rainy days.

rained again today.

but today was different.

i was alone today.

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Sophie, please don't start rusting, i'll cry.

seriously.

i'm so damn sorry i didn't take good care of you...

you're a beautiful clarinet.

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Fionna, Jamie, let's gang again soon kays!

it's so super fun lah ^^

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i really really want to go for the May 9th concert.

please...

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i have no idea why, although i woke up later than usual, i was so super early today.

don't bother asking me.

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rainy days.



later, toony

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2:28 PM

Friday, April 11, 2008

zzz

i officially pronounce myself brain dead.

but i'm not sleepy.

zzz.

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it's a good thing Teacher said i could reach her place by 8, cos i was still on the stupid bus at 7.45.

okay, to be fair, the bus isn't stupid, very nice and long, roomy, so i didn't have to squeeze.

i think i'm growing claustrophobic.

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i feel.

weird.

maybe i'm just tired.

maybe.

just maybe.

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the bus was freezing.

strangely enough, i could feel myself turning cold too.

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strange how my memory works.

i love you Alyssa :)

later, toony

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10:27 PM


once again.

jiayou jiayou.

today's going to be another tiring day, as Fridays have always been.

my week hasn't been particularly productive, especially since i WASTED my ONLY free afternoon cos i didn't bring my keys, and the band room wasn't open. zzz.

i've been staying up to do Lang Arts notes lately. and even though i'm nowhere near done with Umbrella Man, i guess it's a start.

i'm currently wishing i didn't have piano lesson later. i was super tired after recess today, so much so that for the first time this year, i fell asleep in Math.

i'm ashamed.

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Joyce is so cute :D

she reminds me of Pei Wen!

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Michael Bolton - Lean On Me

Sometimes in our lives, we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But, if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long, till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride, if I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill, those of your needs
That you won't let show

You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem, that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long, till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem, that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load, you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load
If you just call me...call me

If you need a friend....call me
If you need a friend....if you ever need a friend
Call me....call me....

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long, till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

nice song :D

later, toony

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3:47 PM

Thursday, April 10, 2008

...

no, CCH, i do not intend to e-mail you on how you can improve on how you teach.

like no way am i going to reveal any way to contact me man.

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i feel so unlucky.

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MANY MANY THANKS TO AMELIA FOR THE LOVELY CARROT CAKE!

it had frosting! :D

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sectionals were rather fun.

Ms Leong rocks man!! she's like so super funny and so super nice lahh :D

and if any junior even dares to think she's bitchy, y'all better change that mindset like now, cos she's really really the best.

the alto clarinet's shiny now! so awesome lah!! :D

but the cloth is very dirty now. like. very.

tsk.

Sophia's ready to SHINE yo!

she should be part of SY :D

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anyone who needs explanation on that statement, drop me a message or an IM, i'll reply yeah! ^^

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went to island creamery with Alyssa and Lynn after sectionals.

Reverso is so good lah! all chocolatey and stuff :D

but the rain was heavy. really heavy.

so we just sat there and talked about all sorts of random stuff while having ice-cream.

sent Alyssa up the bus with the umbrella as it was still raining, then ran back to get Lynn.

it was a super light drizzle when Lynn and i started walking over to the bus stop, but it got really heavy after a while and the stupid girl refused to take the umbrella :/

so even though i got the umbrella in the end, i was quite wet lah :D

i wanna walk in the heavy heavy rain again. it's rather refreshing.

yeah man.

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quiet time during recess was really quite productive. i should do it more often.

Genesis 1: 27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

i'm so so sinful.

and i've tarnished His image quite badly.

and yet He still loves me.

no, i'm not worthy. but because He thinks i am, so i am.

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heh, i think Lynn's right, i'll fall sick before she does.

but that's great eh! :D

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anyways, back to making Umbrella Man notes.

i realised that i'm super slow in making Lang Arts notes lah. i still have Mid-Autumn, The Move, The Hitchhiker and The Way Up To Heaven, and i'm nowhere near to finishing Umbrella Man.

:(

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attaching files through e-mails is so slow.

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赞美之泉 - 只因你

我把我的过去与祢交换
我把我的痛苦与祢诉说
我把我的忧伤全然抛去

我把我的过去与祢交换
我把我的痛苦与祢诉说
我把我的忧伤全然抛去

我把我的重担完全卸下

只因祢,祢的复活使我有盼望
只因祢的十架使我得医治
只因祢,祢的复活使我得自由
因祢的完全,使我成圣洁,只因祢

我把我的过去与祢交换
我把我的痛苦与祢诉说
我把我的忧伤全然抛去

我把我的过去与祢交换
我把我的痛苦与祢诉说
我把我的忧伤全然抛去

我把我的重担完全卸下

只因祢,祢的救赎使我得看见
看见祢作为奇妙可畏
只因祢,祢的双手使我得释放
因祢的信实,使我有明天,只因祢

只因祢,祢的救赎使我得看见
看见祢作为奇妙可畏
只因祢,祢的双手使我得释放
因祢的信实,使我有明天,只因祢

只因祢 只因祢 只因祢 只因祢

WHOOTS I FINISHED UMBRELLA MAN.

but that's only character analysis and significance of title, going into detail about the story itself will take forever.

zzz... WEEKENDS.

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PL MGS Band concert.

O.O

later, toony

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7:44 PM

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

zzzzzzzzz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBIE! :D

i waited outside the house for 2 hours today.

and i actually managed to fall asleep while waiting.

and i had dreams.
bravo.

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today wasn't particularly productive.

i just made my The Way Up To Heaven pages a whole lot messier with all sorts of scribblings.

i think i should make notes.

yeah i should.

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that staircase used to mean something.

i used to look at it and smile.

but as i sat there today, i realised i felt nothing. no sadness, no joy, nothing.

yeah. i'm that indifferent now.

because i've got something far better in my present.

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i think it's my insecurities speaking.

but i don't wish to go through the pain of realising that you may just like them more than us.
and i don't wish to go through the pain of realising you like them all better than me.
call me selfish. cos yeah, i know i am.

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i hope this explains why i have such an obsession with stuffed toys, and why i always talk to them and all.
cos i've got no one else to talk to yo.
later, toony

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8:40 PM

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

lalala.

after so many months.

and so many brain cells killed through worry.

I GOT THE RUNNING NOTES AT THE END OF IN ALL ITS GLORY!!!

BOO YAH!

but i still need to work with the alto a bit more. the C# didn't seem quite right after band prac.

haiz.

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In All Its Glory.

if only i could play it well when Mr Yap was around.

the piece means so much to me... yet i know it should mean so much more.

2007 was a rough year, but at least school wasn't that bad. at least band pracs were something to look forward to.

2008... is going to be tougher. so much tougher.

if only...

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oh my gosh I HATE CCH.

shit lah, like embarrassing me right? SAY SO LAH.

蔡昮佑 - Can You Hear Me

狂奔的速度在冲
没有谁能叫住我
所有旧的伤口
已不再疼痛

虽然手脚不能动
眼神里却全是嘶吼
i don't know i don't know
just get out my way yeah

can u hear me
听见了没
can you hear me don't wanna get like this
please set me free yeah

是否会有种冲动
都别管自己逃走
被捆绑的自由
不能再忍受

光听着脉搏跳动
就懂我多想要挣脱
just get out of my way yeah

can u hear me
听见了没
can you hear me don't wanna get like this
please set me free yeah

can u hear me
听见了没
can you hear me don't wanna get like this
please set me free yeah

can you hear me
don't wanna get like this
please set me free

later, toony

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7:37 PM

Monday, April 07, 2008

new friends.

MANY MANY THANKS TO JAMIE FOR THE DEAR LITTLE PANDA WHOM I HAVE YET TO NAME.

:D

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i think i'm going to screw up math tomorrow.

:(

later, toony

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8:57 PM

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Sophie dear :)



MY ICE-CREAM! MY DARN GOOD ICE-CREAM! :D

this is not a paid advertisement (though i do wish it was).

anyway, point is, it has my name on it :D

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sectionals yesterday was awesome.

I GOT MY B40 AND A MASTERS LIGATURE!!!!!

so now just the mouthpiece part of my clarinet costs $180.

(i did that in my head, give me credit for that yeah?)



Sophie's getting ready to astound.

all that she needs now is for me to astound with her.

yeah man :)

later, toony

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12:28 PM

Saturday, April 05, 2008

i feel it.

i feel myself moving on more and more.

i'm now moving towards a new life.
one without you.
i don't know if it's a good thing, really.

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sometimes i wish no one would read my blog.

sometimes there are really some stuff which i just can't bring myself to say.

but now as i think about it...

there's no time like the present yeah?

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i wonder.

what would happen to the clarinet section '08 once the many handovers come and go?

would we still be as close as we are now?

will we still chat and chat and chat when we bump into each other somewhere out there?

the bond we share now, will time dilute it?

will you guys still remember it once you're gone?

will you guys still remember me?
cos i seriously love this section, but i'm just afraid no one shares my sentiments.










:)

later, toony

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6:14 PM

Friday, April 04, 2008

sport's day

SO PROUD OF 2SY '08.

WE RULED YO!

and congrats to Debbie for being the best sports girl in our level for the SECOND YEAR RUNNING.

many thanks to Yu Han for winning 400m!

and and and our relay girls, Joanna, Wen Hui, Gen and Debbie! :D

SY OH-EM-GEE!

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OOH OOH OOH BAND RELAY!

BAND *clap clap, clap clap* BAND *clap clap, clap clap* B-A-N-D BAND

:D

we got third ^^

...

i have loads of pictures

but the computer isn't cooperating, so i can't put a thing in -.-

T_T

...

i have a long long list of lovable people.

and i do wonder...

what will happen when we go our separate ways...
i'll be alone again.
i hope nothing happens to this damn strong bond we share.

CELESTE, FANN, AMELIA.

i love you guys :)

...

so tired.

can i not go for lesson later?

zzz

...

going to be the last event.

the next event after today would be handover already.

will i cry?

i have to wonder...

...

nice song!!



later, toony

Panda loves !
4:20 PM

Thursday, April 03, 2008

spirit of the class.

spirit of the class today.

so sure, we didn't get top three, but i think we did quite well :)

ooh yes, did i mention that i felt the spirit again today?

i love you 2SY '08 :D

...

today wasn't a good day.

History was boring, Science was screwed, we had to write a compo that's 25% of our CA grade for HMT, spelling bee during Lang Arts (THANK GOD I DIDN'T SCREW THAT UP :D), ALMOST had a short test during geog and that congruency and similarity test during math.

and some people just seem to enjoy pissing me off.

your lack of consideration is getting on my nerves.

didn't bring anything for break, wasted part of my recess looking for sec ones and used the rest for class cheer. rushed to be a pau before spirit of the class cos my stomach was starting to kill me.

tsk lack of food has majorly bad effects on my mood.

...

spirit of the class did cheer me up though.

which is why i say i love 2SY :)

who cares if we weren't top three, our spirit's thriving yo!

...

i predict that i will screw up Geog CA.

and i officially screwed up Lang Arts.

so basically.

i'm screwed.

awesome.

...

congrats CO :D

i think you guys deserved it ^^

...

i wasn't feeling good today.

sorry guys...

...

i have the same register number as Lynn.

how random.

...

i stared at my desktop wallpaper just now.

and i smiled.

whether or not you care, know or whatever

i love you guys(:

王力宏 - 爱的鼓励

太阳会出现
只要给一次机会
心情一飞冲天
带你的烦恼away

每一次在谷底跌倒
来一点高潮

baby想给你爱的鼓励
在你需要的时候加油打气
baby想给你爱的鼓励
雨后还能有彩虹别放弃

太阳出现了
感谢你给我机会
心情哼出来是一首歌
让你听的好甜美

每一次在谷底跌倒
来一点高潮

baby想给你爱的鼓励
在你需要的时候加油打气
baby想给你爱的鼓励
雨后还能有彩虹别放弃

每一次在谷底跌倒
来一点高潮

baby想给你爱的鼓励
在你需要的时候加油打气
baby想给你爱的鼓励
雨后还能有彩虹别放弃

baby想给你爱的鼓励
在你需要的时候加油打气
baby想给你爱的鼓励
雨后还能有彩虹别放弃

later, toony

Panda loves !
5:04 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

swimming and prata

swim relay.

i'm so damn sorry i helped you guys screw up the relay :(

but many thanks to Debbie and Liting for taking part in all three.

and Priscilla and Amanda for doing two.

and Jacq Chua for swimming so well! :D

2SY OH-EM-GEE!

lol, i love you guys :D

...

went for prata with Alyssa, Shu Xin, Lynn, Eunice and Claire after the relay.

nice and warm corner there, many thanks to Lynn.

certain jokes were cool, like the pink longan :D

and walking home was refreshing! and much faster than what i thought it would be.

should walk back home from CCAB more often ;)

...

on a side note.

AMELIA, FANN, I LOVE YOU TWO :D

thanks for being so retarded with me all the time :)

...

science test today drained whatever brain energy i had.

and it was so helpful in making me feel horrible for the rest of the day.

and made me pig out so badly during recess.

haiz............................................

...

i hope i didn't screw Science test up too badly.

cos i think i'll really cry lah...

was cramming like mad last night.

zzz...

i wish i had Jamie's fever.

then i wouldn't go to school tomorrow.

so brain dead!!

and i have so many appointments in just one one-hour long recess.

-.-

...

if you feel lost and on your own and far from home you're never alone, you know

Kenny Loggins - Your Heart Will Lead You Home

Sunny days and starry nights
Lazy afternoons
You count the castles in the clouds
And hum little tunes

But somehow right before your eyes
The sun fades away
Everything is different
And everything has changed

If you feel lost and on your own
And far from home
You're never alone, you know

Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there with love to share
And your heart will lead you home

Funny how a photograph
Can take you back in time
To places and embraces
That you thought you left behind

They're trying to remind you
That you're not the only one
That no one is an island
When all has said and done

If you feel lost and on your own
And far from home
You're never alone, you know

Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there with love to share
And your heart will lead you home

There'll come a day when you're losing your way
And you won't know where you belong
They say that home is where your heart is
So follow your heart know that you can't go wrong

If you feel lost and on your own
And far from home
You're never alone, you know

Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there with love to share
And your heart will lead you home

If you feel lost and on your own
And far from home
You're never alone, you know

Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there with love to share
And your heart will lead you home



2SY

i love you(:

later, toony

Panda loves !
9:11 PM
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SHE'S a real person, but she shall just be known as toonyweeny here(:
she loves Sophie(her B flat clarinet) and Sophia(the alto clarinet).
she loves Percy(her piano) just as much too(: she really hopes you remember May 16 as it is an important day to her.
she loves SC and SC Band, and really hopes that things will go back to normal.
she's still waiting and hoping, but don't treat her like a fool(:
she is really really sincere, having been in it for four years.
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