oh. my. gosh.

why would i care about the Indus Valley civillisation?

...

Valentine's Day is round the corner...

hmm...

Praise the Lord.

My room's not wet.

Praise the Lord.

I feel loved.

haiz... my brain's been so foggy lately... i need more sleep... but it deosn't seem to help... wonder if i'm ill...

oh no... can't study properly... been increasingly difficult to concentrate... super lethargic lately... and my hyper-ness seems to have disappeared... oh no...

haiz... school's really draining me now... just can't sleep early enough... and i'm constantly tired...

and guess what... i got 62 for my art... yucks... a C right? ah wells... don't really care le...

life's being evil... totally moody... and i don't know why... maybe cos' i don't have a reason to be happy... but then... why was i so cheerful at the start of the year? i don't really know anymore...

haiz... on the brighter side... i've just realised how many brotherly figures there are in my life... they're all blessings... ah... Risheng... Yilin... Wei Zong... Riqian... ah... love them all... yay... praise the Lord!

and Yu Han's such a nice mortal... yay... my pencil case is full of her replies... my angel arh... give me some treats leh... yay...

okay... that woke my up a bit...

haiz... going to practise piano le...

band tomorrow!

later, toony

oh no...

they know i'm not that happy now...

oh well... i'm tempermental...

why?

for those people who don't know, i cried in school today.

why?

i was stressed out. i know that someone hates me. and i'm being ignored by some retard.

(sorry to that 'retard'. i'm seriously crappy right now.)

but the thing is...

not all my friends from SC came over to comfort me...

it was people from outside who came over...

i was so touched...

i love my mortal so much...

i love Joanna too.

i love Linda.

i love Julia.

i love Esther.

i love Priscilla.

i love Wen Hui.

i love Isabel.

i love Jacqueline.

oh yeah.

i especially love Dione.

and now...

i love Yilin too...

nice to talk to...

someone mature enough to handle it...

*hugs all those people*

oh... if i missed out anyone, i'm really sorry.

don't hate me...

and i'm glad i got that out of my system...

i better stop being so pessimistic...

haiz...

someone's gonna hate me soon...

i'll wait for that...

later, toony

i'm freaking useless.

that's all that i am.

i'm supposed to be helping my mortals.

but they both ran into something bad...

and i couldn't help either of them.

i'm so useless.

if he's my friend.

why am i avoiding him like that?

that's so freaking retarded.

even Tricia told me to get my hyper-activeness back.

Joanna told me not to be depressed.

my mortal's the one taking care of me.

that's freaking WRONG.

WTH is the problem with me?

why is it that i want to cry so much, but i don't?

am i acting strong for anyone?

that's so pathetic.

what's wrong with me?

i'm just weird.

not the joking kind of weird i am in school.

just WEIRD.

don't tell me not to.

i hate myself.

i hate myself.

i hate myself.

i HATE myself.

crap.

...

i'm such a retard.

got a treat from Yiping Lao Shi today... supposed to meet at 12.30 outside Swensens...

okay... mum and i took 960 to Causeway Point... reached at 12... mum went to the dentist's... went to library and found books on Mozart... but cannot borrow... lame right? i mean, the book is damn thick lah... you expect me to photocopy the whole thing? that's really lame...

anyways... i walked back to Causeway Point... rushed back to Swensens... still no one... 12.30 le leh... so never mind... walk around a bit more... should have spent more time in Mini Toons... went back at 12.40... still nobody... haiz... just wait lor... then Yiping Lao Shi came... then went in... the Mr. Liew came... yay... but Yinting still wasn't there...

looked at all the ice-cream... spotted Yinting... finally... went out and erm... herded her in... oops...

had our food lah... and talked and talked and talked... then Mrs. Liew asked if Yinting's sis had a boyfriend... no... then i mentioned my sis's case... then i said that none of the boys were smiling in the camp picture... then she asked if i had any preference in the boys...

uh-oh.

oh my gosh... those youths talk too much le... oi! you read that?! *hides under the table*

haiz... then anyway... Mrs. Liew settled the bill... then we left lah...

met my parents at the food court... then went to Popular and listened to my favourite cartoon creator talk... and draw... asked him to draw a panda... yay... then i won the drawing... YAY!!! he's mean lah... asked me to zao ju with the cheng yu i provided... wah... *faints and dies*... but i got my panda...

haiz... parents have been arguing a lot lately... over my dad's assistant...

if you wanna know the truth... i don't really feel upset or anything... i'm supposed to... but somehow i think it'll be alright... and... i don't really seem to care... that is a problem, right?

haiz... i'm slacking again... still have art to do... and music... and my History homework... then on Monday... have my tests... sigh...

i'm gonna die.

later, toony

oh my gosh... haven't updated for so long le... got confronted by my angel cos' of that... uh-oh...

should i blog about orientation? that's a lot leh...

school was quite tiring at first... go home, finish homework, daydream, then sleep le... gonna be worse when CCA starts...

anyways... at the orientation... i was in FEDEX!!! "We live to deliver." haha... fastest team man! we won the tug-of-war... wheeeeeee...

there was the running and signing thing... that was the Fedex game... yay... we won... then the other group had to do forfeit... butt writing... wrote "I love Fedex!" plus smiley face... haha... then there was the balloon stepping game... played against charcoal... damn sad that they won... my fault lah... should have kept running... oh wells...

anyways... there was the water bomb dropping from above game... was a tie... tie-breaker... splash water on the prefect... but our prefect arh... go and run away... so we lost... and Fishy and I got wet instead... P is so mean...

then there was the crawl across a soapy tarp with an egg balanced on a spoon in your mouth game... our group won... =)... no eggs broken... yay...

walk across the bench... we all cheered loudly... got extra sticker... =)... poison ball... we lost... cos' those idiots inside cheated... all of them cheated... bleah... i was the last one from my group... tired...

then arh... there was the throw mentos into the retarded bucket thing... we lost lah... our hands were green... bullied our prefect... haha...

there was the waterbomb in-between our faces game... Joanne and Fishy squeezed the water bomb too hard... exploded... and Nicole and Tessa dropped theirs... so we lost...

the pass the cheezel with the poky stick thing... we lost i think... but it was fun lah... haha...

was drained when i got back home... fell asleep with my hair wet... got scolded... haiz...

and Ms Kuah is so funny... war stories with the 'poof' thing in JC... haha... damn funny... she's mean to pandas... saw pandas on TV and said," sick." so mean right???!!! then when i banged my head against the wall... she said i'm stupid like a panda... then asked if i had a bruise this morning... so nice... from SC basketball... and Girl Guides... she's upset that Julia's gonna be in Guides... she said," you're joining Guides?" Julia nods. then," Oh no." haha... super gangster person... maybe Alyssa knows her... Joy Kuah? your senior? yay...

our school's education system's changing... i don't really like the new system... but if it's forced arh... then no choice lah... but i really don't see the point... it's kinda crappy too...

Jacqueline's in my class leh... haha... i'm super weird in class... haha... and Yu Han already knows i'm her angel... terrible... oh no...

okay... i shall make this post super long... make up for ignoring my blog for so long...

~wheeeeeeeeeee... can't wait for saltshaker... i want to go for both services... haiz...

eh... this long enough?

don't care lah...

slacking... need to practise my piano le...

oops.

later, toony