SO BORING!!!

HELP!!!

:(

wow.

is this stress i'm feeling?

is that the reason for my sudden lack of appetite?

so this is stress? i've never felt anything like this before.

i'm only in sec 1, and if this is how i handle stress, imagine what it'll be like in sec 4, or when i'm taking my A levels.

is it just the stress? there has to be something more to it.

is it because of all the mockery that occurs at home?

i don't understand. seriously, i don't understand all this.

wave after wave of anger. layers of disappointment and bitter hurt. what is all this?

all this confusion, covering me, blinding my heart, moulding a different girl. what is all this?

stress?

no.

i think it's all the hurt, the anger, the tears, the bitter disappointment, the failed hope, it's haunting me.

i'm going crazy.

...

6 more days...

maybe it'll be better after 6 more days.

keep on.

...

4 hour long piano lesson + sleeping at 2.30 am + waking at 9.30 am + sleeping for three hours + long TV show = no studying today.

oh wells.

i'll make it through some how.

...

emo-ing again?

nah.

i think it's just the emptiness.

潘玮柏 - 路太弯

我在这里
计算终点的距离
下一站
有没有更期待的结局

眼闭上眼
看不看得见过去
看不看得见原来那个你
和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我 能习惯
一个人的安全感

路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼
看不看得见过去
看不看得见原来那个你
和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯
一个人的安全感

路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是
就换得希望
呼吸太乱
世界太宽
缘分毕竟太短

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯
一个人的安全感

路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

NICE SONG!

anyone who has the album can lend me?

later, toony

whee, so fun...

school passed relatively quickly today.

realised that i left my wallet at home... haiz. so after school, ran-walked home to get it, and conveniently leave all my rubbish at home as well. after that, rushed back to school to help arrange tables and chairs.

Norway... it sounds fun... but three ambassodors, not representing school can. represent SINGAPORE leh. very scared liao.

still, it's a life-changing experience, i want to go ><

...

Mr Sim very nice... thanks :)

DON'T GET BULLIED BY MS SIE KAY!

and i think Janie very cute, Ms Sie touched her hand, wipe with wet tissue. really should have went toilet to wash with soap lol.

...

kap adventure...

yes, now you can see for yourself how very close i am to my senior LOL.

and Tanya, Sylvia and Amilyn... bump into so many people... haiz.

my impression of Hwa Chong people going from bad to worse. all idiot shits sia.

oh wells ^^

...

kap, okay lah. first failed study group. more doodling done than actual studying. oh wells ^^ it wasn't meant to be a study group anyway, just to get a treat from SmYLe.

heex, THANKS FOR THE TIM TAMS! AND THE MILKSHAKE! keep reading the book, it'll pay off some day lol ^^

anyway, Yu Ying, enjoy the toy, won't ever get bored now ^^

HAPPY MEAL!

...

i'm holding you to your promise. you better be there. or i'll kill you.

:)

...

我不会哭 我不会哭 我不会哭 我不会哭

我不会哭

...

good to have friends.

good to have God.

thanks(:

...

it's not that i'm putting in effort, it's that you don't see my effort.

it's not that i don't want it, it's that you don't see how much i want it.

don't put me down like that... makes home so... cold.

and it makes me cry

...

五月天 - 知足

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂
不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手
其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来
风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷
而祝福而感动

终于你身影
消失在人海尽头
才发现 笑着哭
最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天
都品尝着寂寞

当一阵风吹来
风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷
而祝福而感动

终于你身影
消失在人海尽头
才发现 笑着哭
最痛

当一阵风吹来
风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷
而祝福而感动

终于你身影
消失在人海尽头
才发现 笑着哭
最痛
wo...

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手
其实才是拥有

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

足够我天天都品尝着寂寞...

later, toony

LOL!!!

everyone hiding under the tables wanting to scare Ms Sie, and then she just walked in and stared at us.

she's right, exam period everyone goes NUTS! WHOO!

...

老师's last lesson with us today. saddening. another nice teacher gone...

haiz. 老师 always buys us paper for compositions, even though we have our own. and he uses his own money too.

he allows us to bully him, and he taught us all sort of techniques to remember stuff. he knows us by our faces and not by our seating arrangement (a feat even Paul couldn't manage)

he bought us Time Out when we won the AOS thing, and he gave us Ferrero Rocher as a farewell present.

再见, 老师! 别忘了你的熊猫!

T_T

...

haiz. one year have to say goodbye to teachers 5 times. then some more ALL nice teachers. first Ms Tan, then Ms Quah, then Paul, then 老师, and then 老师 (why can't *ahem**siehawai**ahem* go too???)and somemore have to say bye to sec 4s. saddening T_T

thanks for all the memories, people.

forever love(':

...

MUSIC QUIZ REALLY IS FUN!

the sousaphone is a modified tuba. it's modified so that it is easier for marching bands to play the tuba. yep.

i love my music :D

...

REST!

光良 - 约定

说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验
我们的约定

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得 我们的约定
一辈子 幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得 我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的
我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得 我们的约定
一辈子 幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得 我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子 幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风 我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的
我更爱你了

haiz...

later, toony

hmm.

a lot of things i want to say...

i'm learning how to control my emotions.

yep.

...

people say i'm emo, seems quite wrong, people say i'm happy, isn't quite right either.

that's really odd man.

oh wells. i am odd after all ^^

...

they say time flies when you're having fun, and time flies when i'm studying. so what does that mean?

but seriously, studying at Mcdonalds with bandmates so amusing is really fun ^^

but it's not as good when you have IJ people screaming at the back, and some guys in their ugly uniforms making so much noise.

but still, study groups such as those can be rather interesting, particularly if you do something that captures attention.

...

from now on, when i go Mcdonalds, i will order a happy meal.

I WANT THE BOX!

and the balloon as well ><

never give me those... :(

but i got a toy car! :D

...

CAMILLA ROCKS MAN.

her poem almost made me cry...

the grief... was expressed so clearly through the poem...

haiz. Camilla's so cool... *starry eyed*

HAVE FUN IN ENGLAND!

...

Lit and English results...

okay ba.

but it seems as if my results are dropping.

why?

...

can i go back?

my life's literally falling apart.

i need Him.

everything's so meaningless now.

depression?

i'm suddenly thinking of the phrase," Father, into Your hands i commit my spirit."

in the end, that's all there is, isn't it?

i don't like this life.

no, they don't understand.

this isn't about giving me what i want.

it's about giving me what i need.

and they just don't know what i need.

...

felt Him there with me.

in the opposite corner of the class, i just felt His presence.

when everything was quiet, i felt Him beside me.

it was a source of comfort.

and suddenly, it was peaceful.

...

don't stop me from doing what i want to do.

can you just accept my religion?

why can't i praise God at home?

why can't i leave my MSN nick the way it is?

why are you noisy about all that?

FINE, MY FOCUS ISN'T ON HIM ANYMORE, IT'S ON MY STUDIES, HAPPY?

...

Jacqueline Chua, go gay if you have to, just not with me.

:D

...

split personality.

someone, force me to go see a counsellor, quick.

i'm going nuts.

...

am i emo?

am i happy?

am i...

周杰伦 - 世界末日

想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头 承认自己会怕黑
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪
你却连 同情都不给

想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰 会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累 睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是

想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰 会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累 睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是
另一种美

hyper-ventilation does not calm you down.

and the emotions flowed out in a way i've never dreamt it would.

why?

later, toony

五月天!!!

okay, i've finally found my favourite band.

五月天!!!

TOTAL LOVE TOTAL LOVE TOTAL LOVE!

...

kay, i REALLY dislike Ms Sie.

waste lesson time on don't know what rubbish. haven't even finished marking my mock paper. PFFT.

okay, on the BRIGHT side,

i've got really cool funny friends who let me steal food

i love all my lovely friends ^^

TOTAL LOVE PEEPS :D

oh yes.

WHO STOLE MY VERY NICE PURPLE ZIG MARKER?

AND I KNOW WHY I'M SO TIRED!

i'm stressed :D

...

er.

I'M WEIRD! :D

kay, shan't freak anyone out.

but...

PANDAS RULE!

just admit it man ^^

五月天 - 年轻就要对味

你就像麻辣锅
有了你很快活
一天不吃就难过
你就像黄金甲
穿着你很暖和
不怕有人欺负我

眼神可以交流
心跳可以沟通
有钱可以借你用
一点点的倔强
一点点的幽默
对味就是有你有我

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的幸福更浓
不说 你也能够懂

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的快乐感动
对味 是我的朋友

你就像方便面
只要热水一冲
友情马上香又浓
水煮麻辣笑话
红烧热情感动
我说:年轻就要对味
不要理由

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的幸福更浓
不说你也能够懂

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的快乐更多
对味是我的朋友

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的幸福更浓
不说你也能够懂

有你 陪我一起疯
天天放烟火 分分都感动
对味的人 对味的快乐更多
对味是我的朋友

哦~~

五月天!!!

later, toony

MY COMPUTER'S REVIVED!

OH HAPPY DAYS!

AND IT'S SO FAST!

YAY-NESS!

sorry to those who thought i was on hiatus. no matter how stressed, a hiatus will NEVER come ^^

...

wedding on Saturday. while she was getting married, i was having my 4 hour long piano lesson. SO COOL RIGHT!

but i don't regret lah. piano lesson was rather fun. watched Jay Chou play the piano (which was REALLY freaky) and ate instant wan ton made by MY PIANO TEACHER! APPLAUSE PLEASE!

also, i managed to get the whole story of Secret without even watching it. it's like, so tragic can T_T SOUNDS NICE LAH, DON'T SAY UNTIL IT SOUNDS SO UN-NICE AND LAME.

piano lesson so fun sia, especially when everyone's asking you about the clarinet :D

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wedding dinner, food really not bad. shall upload photos some other time.

had jellyfish, bird's nest, ostrich meat, clam, AND... *drumroll*
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GLUTINOUS RICE BALL!

HAHAHA! :D

...

FINALLY finished note-making for History, applause please!

WHOO i've officially became a no-life mugger!

I'M SO STRESSED OUT AND I'M HERE BLOGGING!

YAY ME! :D

...

shall go MUG Geog later. WHEE SO EXCITING...

...

everyone leave me alone...

:(

还是会孤单...

i don't like this.

...

五月天 - 离开地球表面

丢掉手表 丢外套
丢掉背包 再丢唠叨
丢掉电视 丢电脑
丢掉大脑 再丢烦恼

冲啥大 冲啥小
冲啥都有人唱反调
恨得多 爱得少
只想越跳越疯 越跳越高
把地球甩掉

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要
委屈自己一秒

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉
只要越跳 越高

丢掉手表 丢外套
丢掉背包 再丢唠叨
丢掉电视 丢电脑
丢掉大脑 再丢烦恼

野心大 胆子小
跳舞还要靠别人教
恨得多 爱得少
只想越跳越疯 越跳越高
把地球甩掉

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要
委屈自己一秒

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉
只要 越跳 越高

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉
只要越跳 越高
come on!

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要
委屈自己一秒

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉
只要越跳 越高

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉
只要越跳 越高

come on!
jump!
jump!
jump!
jump!
jump!
jump!
jump!

WHOO! :D

later, toony

haiz, still remember every single little mistake i make.

why am i like that... ><

...

so odd. not mugging during recess doesn't make me feel right anymore.

lalala. yes i'm one of those odd freaks who uses mealtimes to mug.

but now, mugging is more comfortable! get to mug in air-con room can!

Mr Teo's right. all the rooms in the school should be air-conditioned, just like the geog room.

rats, stay in 1SY for as long as you like :D

...

WE GOT THIRD FOR ART OF SPEECH COMPETITION!

ha, the teacher said we weren't well-prepared, and WE GOT THIRD. HA. HA. HA.

and in the end, the whole of 1SY IS performing after all. waste our time lor. PFFT.

...

I WANNA GO KAP TO STUDY!!!

can anyone accompany me there? or go Coffeebean also can, Island Creamery also can, i just wanna go somewhere where i can eat and drink while studying...

haiz. EOYs are coming like. really soon.

THANK YOU FANN, FOR HELPING ME BUY A NOTEBOOK.

i can't wait for EOYs to be over. then we can go out and play :D

then after that, i can focus on MUSIC! YAY :D

...

my math still sucks T_T

and i'm so emo all of a sudden.

best part? i don't even know why.

T_T

...

oh yes.

WE FOUND MR NG'S SEC 4 PICTURE!!!

so funny. and very noob-ish. LOL.

NICE SONG!

赞美之泉 - 奇妙的爱

奇妙的爱,何等长阔高深
我主耶稣肯为我钉在十字架上
何等恩典,何等尊贵君王
我的主,我的神,我愿颂赞你圣名
我愿称颂你圣名到永远

因你受的刑罚,使我得享平安
因你受得鞭伤,使我得着医治
因你的慈爱,使我有全新生命
因你复活,使我有永恒盼望

奇妙的爱,何等长阔高深
我主耶稣肯为我钉在十字架上
何等恩典,何等尊贵君王
我的主,我的神,我愿颂赞你圣名
我愿称颂你圣名到永远

因你受的刑罚,使我得享平安
因你受得鞭伤,使我得着医治
因你的慈爱,使我有全新生命
因你复活,使我有永恒盼望

奇妙的爱,何等长阔高深
我主耶稣肯为我钉在十字架上
何等恩典,何等尊贵君王
我的主,我的神,我愿颂赞你圣名
我愿称颂你圣名到永远

奇妙的爱,何等长阔高深
我主耶稣肯为我钉在十字架上
何等恩典,何等尊贵君王
我的主,我的神,我愿颂赞你圣名
我愿称颂你圣名到永远

奇妙的爱,何等长阔高深
我主耶稣肯为我钉在十字架上
何等恩典,何等尊贵君王
我的主,我的神,我愿颂赞你圣名
我愿称颂你圣名到永远

anyone wants, come ask me for it cos i can't upload this... so yeah.

later, toony

so it wasn't just a coincidence that i was put into Fedex.

使命必达!

jiayou jiayou jiayou!

...

really, my devo was right.

outside, amid all the darkness, when you flick on the switch of praise, the light of joy will light up and will show the whole world His glory.

so true. thanks Father(:

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slept in English today. recharge for Math, seeing as we weren't doing much anyway.

truth be told, i don't know what's wrong with me. i don't know why i'm suddenly so lethargic.

but what's changed? i'm no longer attending Saltshaker, and band prac has been cancelled.

if you can help convince my parents to let me go to Saltshaker Service again, i assure you i will be a really really good student.

使命必达!

...

thanks a lot :)

how on earth did you know pandas could lift my spirits so high?

PANDAS! the total love :D
please stop being so nice to me. i can't give anything back ><
thanks. really, thanks a lot.

...

WHY BAND ROOM AIR-CON NOT WORKING???!!!

total sian-ness.

but still, thanks Lynn, for helping me open band room ^^

and sorry for having to trouble you so much ><

studying in geog room not bad. everyone would rather stay in class and study than go canteen and eat.

and of course, no one really studies in the end :D WHEE.

Percy Pigs rock man. i wanna go Marks & Spencers and buy T_T

and 老师's memory is SCARY. from university until now still can remember the value of pi to so many digits. SCARY.

and just realised that Yilin's even worse. 32, WTH. so scary. *shudder*

okay actually, the worst is 22 514. that weird freaky genius guy who's going to be featured on Arts Central.

...

okay, forget it, i can't find a good song.

><

I LOVE PIANO!

later, toony

i thought it was right.

really, anger is so scary.

and so am i.

...

since when did apologising seem wrong...

doesn't seem like me? meaning i can't apologise?

it didn't seem real, i know.

blame it on my pride.

but maybe, for your own good, stay away from me.

for everyone's own good, actually.

stay away from me.

...

maybe i just don't want to open up to you anymore.

maybe i don't want to be me around you anymore.

maybe you and i have became so unfamiliar to each other we can't be ourselves anymore.

maybe this is how we'll be from now on. strangers.

...

i'm not perfect enough.

sorry.

i never wanted to hurt anyone... it was totally on impulse...

i never wanted anyone else to be upset.

i just wanted to be one of those mistakes where i'm the only one still carrying the burden.

don't worry. it's my fault. really, that's all.

a fake smile...

comes so easy.

numb.

so. unbearably. numb.

...

sorry.

for now, i can't be pissed with anyone.

shouldn't be so angry. it isn't good for health.

so i shall continue tolerating and forgiving, and making myself less... ruthless.

WHOO! :D

...

was tiring. really really tiring

but so exhilarating.

it was really cool, being able to yell and scream like that. heart stopping, and really nerve-wrecking when i realised the door was upside-down. and even worse, when the bullies came out at the wrong time. *shudder*


but i think we did really good. much better than what was expected of us. great job guys(:

good thing is that we managed to carry out the scary part of it all. thank God for helping us through all that chaos. phew.

and apparently, i was so tired i had to get 11 hours of sleep. heh ^^"

...

saw NUS symphony orchestra outside the National Library today. really didn't want to leave. i guess... that really is how much i miss band. felt so much like crying when my parents and my sis turned to leave. i miss band. really really miss band :(

i want to learn a third instrument... i think learning instruments is so fun :D

people really should learn to love music. it's so peaceful, so calming... it's something like acting. you get to be someone you're not, saying something you'd never say. just in a different way. which is totally cool :)

...

i wanna keep smiling.

:D?

maybe not.

:(

nah.

:)

maybe.

:\

yeah, that's more like it.

五月天 - 咸鱼

我是一只咸鱼
不想承认 也不能否认
不要同情我笨
又夸我天真 还梦想著翻身

咸鱼就算翻身
还是只咸鱼 输得也诚恳
至少到最后我还有咸鱼
不腐烂的自尊

我没有任何天分
我却有梦的天真
我是傻 不是蠢
我将会证明
用我的一生

我如果有梦
有没有错
错过才会更加明白
明白坚持是什黱?

我如果有梦
梦要够疯
够疯才能变成英雄
总会有一篇我的传说

我不好也不坏
不特别出众 我只是敢不同
我的人生就是
一错再错 错完了再从头

也许放弃掉一些
活得更轻松 我却不再是我
我不愿一生晒太阳吹风
咸鱼也要有梦

我没有任何天分
我却有梦的天真
我是傻 不是蠢
我将会证明
用我的一生

我如果有梦
有没有错
错过才会更加明白
明白坚持是什黱?

我如果有梦
梦要够疯
够疯才能变成英雄
总会有一篇我的传说

我如果有梦
有没有错
错过才会更加明白
明白坚持是什黱?

我如果有梦
梦要够疯
够疯才能变成英雄
总会有一篇我的传说
有一天有我的天空

作我的英雄
在我的天空
我知道你懂
知道你会懂

我不好也不坏不特别出众我只是敢不同

WHEE.

later, toony

i'm PISSED.

and i'm CONFUSED.

and i'm SAD and EMO.

and i'm NERVOUS.

and most of all, I'M GOING CRAZY.

but strangely at peace(:

...

i really hope we do well tomorrow. we've been preparing for this since March. if it all comes down tomorrow...

com'on 1SY peeps! we can do this! :D

...

8 hours of sleep still isn't enough.

i'm really becoming a panda... :(

and i'm already totally not doing school work kay.

mental stress taking a toll on physical health.

SIAN SIAN SIAN.

i want to rest...

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

...

the door's finally finished... thank God everything's ready. phew ><

thanks to everyone who stayed back today, if anyone gets scolded, tell your parents it's my fault lah. didn't do this earlier. hope you guys don't get into trouble ><

...

i hate it when people want to be the leader but is unwilling to take responsibility for their group. that's what the leader is supposed to do, after all.

and yes, i can bitch about people in public. not as if she actually cares if i do or not.

...

maybe after all this, i can finally rest.

i really need some music in my life.

...

TIRED TIRED TIRED.

total sian-ness.

i can't take this way of life anymore.

i can't seem to focus on anything now.

there's so much coming onto me so quickly. everything's building up so quickly. there's so much to be done, so much to be said, so much to be learnt, and so very very very little time left.

there's so much i'm neglecting. i'll tell you the whole absolute truth, i miss my music. i really miss it.

why do i keep screwing up everything? why is it that when i put in effort for something, i can only stand at one side and watch it all fall down?

and when i choose to stay at one side for fear of destroying it, i get scolded for not caring. do you really think i don't care? do you really think i can't be bothered? do you think that i don't take pride in this? what sort of a person do you think i am? you think i care more about my lunch than about this? i don't understand you, okay, that's done. but now, i know perfectly well, that it's far better me not understanding you. cos if i do, i know that things will only get uglier.

i'm trying. really trying not to be too hard on myself. really trying not to hate the person God created. it's not as easy. i'm trying, i'm really really trying.

...

i'm tired. really tired.

dear Lord, please make me rest.

...

hang in there girl! after these two months, everything will be okay again! then you can happily enjoy your holidays!

...

all that mugging during the school hols was quite cool. i could answer history questions without a textbook ^^

haiz... no more rats to cook for me T_T

R.I.P little rats... :(

poor little thing. thank goodness 老师 is a kind person and decided to set the little rat free.

having minced meat in your nose isn't very nice. it's really gross, actually.

extracting the DNA of a kiwi fruit is so fun.

acting can be really tiring. but i think i'm born to act. cos i do it rather well

thanks Debbie, for lending me your devo book. the September 3 entry was a totally random flip. so cool ^^

...

so odd. i want to be myself, and yet i seriously hate myself. contradictions.

whoo.

Oliver James - The Ride Of Your Life

Wishing on a shooting star
But dreams alone won't get you far
Can't deny your feelings anymore
The world is waiting right outside your door
What are you waiting for

Come on here's your chance
Dont let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Your dreams arrive on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life
The ride of your life

In your heart you know what you must do
You only got yourself to answer to
Don't let fear of falling hold you down
Your spirit's flying high above the clouds
You go right there

Come on here's your chance
Dont let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Your dreams arive on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life

Your on your way no looking back
And there's no future living in the past
Your free at last
Yeah yeah yeah
Your free at last

Come on here's your chance
Dont let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Your dreams arive on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life
The ride of your life

Come on come on
Get ready
Yeah yeah yeah

Your dreams arrvie on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life

later, toony

after many many weeks, i have FINALLY updated my music playlist!

and also, i've got a new quiz. those who love me, take it won't you? it'd be doing me some kindness ^^

and yeah, it's really difficult.

you have been warned.

...

i think i might be able to be a politician. i seem to have many MANY points against society.

over the past week, i have realised that i have became so extraordinarily hardworking. i'm mugging a MONTH ahead of year-ends? that isn't me.

what on earth has society molded kids these days into? studying machines?

i do NOT see why kids have to change who they are just to do well in school. i do NOT see why kids have to change their lifestyles just so that STUDYING can be top priority. i do NOT see how beneficial this will be to our mental health.

furthermore, i do not believe that stress from parents, teachers, or even the PRINCIPAL for that matter, is beneficial towards making a student study.

why make a student study when he/she isn't working to do himself/herself proud? why make a student study when it's for mummy? what's the point? in the end, we're living as us, not mum, not dad, not Mr Sim and definitely not Mrs Low. why are we working so hard to meet their standards when it's our life.

personally, i believe that we should be working to meet our expectations. this way, we truly know we are working to make ourselves proud, not mum, not dad. this way, life would be far better.

please. just stop stressing us out.

...

i REFUSE to conform to the expectations of an ideal Singaporean.

i know, i definitely am not one. i make waves. i don't want to start a cake shop, i don't want to be a teacher, i want to save pandas. i'm not practical. i know that. i don't intend to conform to society. i blatantly refuse to just stay at home and be a good wife.

why must society require me to do stuff i dislike so i can be considered 'successful'?

"success is 1% inspiration, 99% perspiration."

what is success? what do you intend to be successful in? i don't see how you should apply this to me. my defition of success is not being able to be the top scorer in the level.

being successful in life, that does not require you to be a millionaire. i believe that if i have been a good child of God, helped many many people, counselled even more and saved a life, my life would be successful. that's what i want to succeed in, being a good person.

...

okay, that's enough of critising society.

so tired nowadays. tired of school (and it's only the second day of school!), tired of AOS, tired of studying, tired of all the stress.

and i must be really physically tired too. realised that i mistook my I for IV yesterday while doing theory. fell asleep drawing the last note. realised that the whole progression thingy sounded awful. haiz.

walked to school in REALLY heavy rain today. was relatively apprehensive about the rain, cos i've never seen it so heavy before. but when i stepped out into it, i realised that it was really fun.

the rain comes down, pouring really hard on you. rather refreshing. seems to be washing away past sins, past mistakes. washing away all those burdens... and for the first time in a long while you worry only about finding a shelter fast enough. no more worries about how the future is, how your parents will react, no more burdens.

then you realise that it is actually really cool. running in the rain with shoes which shouldn't get wet, having water splash down your socks, water ruining those worksheets you've spent hours on, water seeping through your bag, hair getting wet, shirt getting more and more obscene by the second...

and you realise that the childhood you spent acting like an adult is finally coming back to you again. Hallelujah :)

...

Chin up - Jesus is your Friend who has rescued you from death!

因为我很爱很爱你,所以能微笑着离去...

王力宏 - 落叶归根

举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走


日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾


命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔～


远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间

几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走

日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾

命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔～

远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间

几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

但愿陪你找回
所遗失的永恒
当我开口你却沈默
只剩一场梦

我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

anyone who has this song, please send me ><

...

SNAP OUT OF THIS GIRL. don't lose another friend. don't lose this friend.

later, toony

i have a suicidal computer.

and i am sick of having to constantly revive it.

I WANT A MACBOOK PRO.

...

okay, let's not be childish ^^

but seriously lah, i really want a MacBook Pro.

getting quite sick of having the internet hang on me.

sian-ness.

...

bored person alert.

i want to bake stuff... but i haven't got any ingredients.

should go buy a nice chocolate bar... then i can bake cookies.

which i can bring to school for break and recess on Monday!

...

wow. the holidays are over already.

what have i accomplished during this holidays...

well, i've finished revising History and Geography and i'll do Math tomorrow.

...

oh wow... somehow, after all that time i spent getting that accomplished, i just feel that i haven't done anything at all.

haven't went out during this holidays, haven't swam, haven't ran.

haven't attempted to look for old friends, apart from the cell group gathering.

and i haven't became any closer to God.

i don't want to become a no life mugger.

seriously. why on earth am i studying so much now?

why is it that i've suddenly became so focused on studies that i haven't gotten anything actually important done?

I WANT TO PROTEST AGAINST THE EDUCATION SYSTEM.

...

seriously...

i miss Saltshaker...

i miss band practice...

and i miss going to church.

:(

...

oh, what great things can be accomplished by a small gentle gesture :)

stay strong, dear friend. God Himself will help you through this. He'll show you the light.

You're not alone my dear :)

Delirious - Deeper

I want to go deeper
But I don't know how to swim
I want to be meeker
But have you seen this old earth?
I want to fly higher
But these arms won't take me there
I want to be, I want to be

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly, to You
Do You feel the same
When all You see is
Blame in me?

And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You
And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You

I want to go deeper
But is it just a stupid whim?
I want to be weaker
Be a help to the strong
I want to run faster
But this old leg won't carry me
I want to be, I want to be

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly, to You
Do You feel the same
When all You see is
Blame in me?

And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You
And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You

And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You
And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could follow
It's time to walk the path
Where many seem to fall
Hold me in Your arms
Just like any father would

How long do we have to wait?
How long, we're going all way

And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You
And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fall
More in love with You

we're going all the way! :D

later, toony

i don't know...

why on earth is it that even though i have a sister at home, i'm constantly looking out to others for some love?

i know she loves me... like, i know she loves me a lot... but why on earth is she leaving me alone so much... why does she just leave me hanging like that...

yes... i'll admit... i'm quite hurt by it all... it's so unfair... how come others can have such nice siblings... and i can't... how come they can love each other so openly and i can't... it's not fair...

maybe this feeling is a good thing... means that i really do love her after all... but i really can't help but feel really really upset about all that she's doing...

...

had a nightmare last night. i dreamed that ******* was my new Geog teacher.

eh, note, it's not that'll i'll miss Mr Teo okay. if i can get a better teacher, i know i wouldn't have to be studying geog right now.

it's that... in my dream... even just being in the same room as him made me so scared... i was really afraid of what he was going to do...

i'll admit, i'm tramautised. like, really tramautised by him.

thank goodness it's only a dream...

it's only a dream.

...

i think i've found the perfect way to study.

step 1: walk into your room and lock the door.

step 2: put a CD into the walkman and turn on the speakers.

step 3: play the music.

step 4: STUDY.

...

i think it's working rather well for me.

...

you don't understand how much i need to talk to you right now.

Zoe Girl - Give Me One Reason

Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go



I've tried so hard to change your mind
I always thought that you'd understand the reasons why
Why I don't want to do the things that I used to do
Now that my heart and my soul belong to God and God alone

Still every night's a fight to make it through
I can't deny I'm still in love with you
But how can you expect me to
Walk with Him and give myself to you

Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go

Boy, I still long for your embrace
But what I've found in God,
oh, it could never ever be replaced
Still I pray for the chance
As you slip through my hands you'll come around

But your heart's so far away from the words I'm trying to say
Wish I could hold you both and still be true
There's only one thing left for me to do
Baby, I love you
But I can't stay with you unless you love Him too

Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go

I've found the path that I've gotta take
No turning back, back to the old ways
Got a chance to take
Sacrifice to make
Whatever it takes I won't turn away

Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go

Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don't understand this feeling
How can I show
That He is the reason I have to let you go

anyone who has this song, please send me, thanks.

later, toony

don't know what's wrong.

i need to know how i can type out smiley faces when i don't really feel like smiling.

and i don't know why i don't feel like smiling.

...



...

the stress is starting to mount.

as in. really starting to mount.

...

i really want that distinction...

there isn't enough time...

...

i really miss band prac :(

周杰伦 - 世界末日

想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头 承认自己会怕黑
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪
你却连 同情都不给

想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰 会不会让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰 会不会让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违

累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

我不想爱了

麻痹了没?

later, toony

ha, i'm so cool, Art of Speech rehearsal at 9, i wake up at 9.05. ha. ha. ha.

was so hungry kay. and thirsty. i didn't even drink milo! :(

totally forgot all my lines kay. see? i'm too tired ;)

AND THANKS DIONE FOR THE CANDY! lovely little girl *pats pats pats*

came up with a crap excuse for being unable to scream.

"老师,我的人生太幸福了,不可以尖叫"

his blood pressure MUST be starting to skyrocket :D

...

haiz. i'm so odd.

i wanted it, yet now i'm getting so distracted by it.

aww man ><

...

watching too much American Dragon ;)

I OWE PEOPLE SO MUCH MONEY!!! :(

$5 clarinet fund, $23.40 to Wen Hui for the jacket, still need to get a tank top...

aww...

F.I.R - 我最爱的人

什么让人傍徨 让人慌张 我不怕
因为有你的爱在我的心中荡漾
新的行装 放在手上 放逐他
我靠在你身旁 将眼泪都释放

也曾跌跌撞撞 也曾受伤
你的温暖是一扇窗
像天空都降下了希望

I fall in love 我最爱的人 在这个黎明时分
你给的吻 它洗清所有的泪痕 我的灵魂
I fall in love 我最爱的人 一辈子不要转身
你的认真 它抚平所有的伤痕
Cause I really fall in love

什么让人傍徨 让人慌张 我不怕
因为有你的爱在我的心中荡漾
新的行装 放在手上 放逐他
我靠在你身旁 将眼泪都释放

也曾跌跌撞撞 也曾受伤
你的温暖是一扇窗
像天空都降下了希望

I fall in love 我最爱的人 在这个黎明时分
你给的吻 它洗清所有的泪痕 我的灵魂
I fall in love 我最爱的人 一辈子不要转身
你的认真 它抚平所有的伤痕
Cause I really fall in love

I fall in love 我最爱的人 在这个黎明时分
你给的吻 它洗清所有的泪痕 我的灵魂
I fall in love 我最爱的人 一辈子不要转身
你的认真 它抚平所有的伤痕
Cause I really fall in love

later, toony

okay lah, i'm feeling quite odd right now.

faith so strong... okay, i'm rather scared.

you better not do anything that'd make me feel the faith was placed wrongly.

then again, you wouldn't.

aww... something's really wrong with me.

...

studying is so boring.

and i'm so mood-swingy.

so bored. i need chocolate bars!

then i can make cookies!

BORED NUTSO PERSON HERE.

and how about Math PT... sian.

totally random post here. just too bored.

and why everyone going on hiatus... makes me feel so slacker-ish.

oh wells. at least i finished all my work.

someone devise a method of studying for me, PLEASE!

...

literally stumbled across this song in my playlist. it's randomisation kay!

讚美之泉 - 秋雨之福

主耶和华,我愿常住在你的殿中
日日歌颂赞美你,瞻仰你的荣美
主耶和华,我必靠着你力量得福
我虽经过流泪谷,你使它为泉源之地
盖满秋雨之福

求你垂听我的祷告
我的日头,我的盾牌
我要单单倚靠仰望你
我的神啊,我的王啊

求你赐下恩典荣耀
我的避难所,我的山寨
我要单单倚靠仰望你
我的神啊,我所倚靠的

主耶和华,我必靠着你力量得福
我虽经过流泪谷,你使它为泉源之地
盖满秋雨之福

求你垂听我的祷告
我的日头,我的盾牌
我要单单倚靠仰望你
我的神啊,我的王啊

求你赐下恩典荣耀
我的避难所,我的山寨
我要单单倚靠仰望你
我的神啊,我所倚靠的

sad, i can't upload this, so if you want to listen to this song, tell me and i'll send you ^^

...

i don't deserve all that...

later, toony

...

i don't want to cry anymore.

i'm still hoping.

please. do something. anything. convince me that you really cared.

please.

...

aw man. the penknife looks welcoming again.

and my hands haven't shaken this badly for ages.
it's the April period all over again.

...

i hope i did something right.

jiayou, dear friend, jiayou!

persevere!

...

我不想当笨蛋...

Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right
It just ain’t right

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I’m longing for love and the logical
But he’s only happy hysterical
I’m searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
Waiting so long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

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my eyes are really tired.

you and i. we both need to focus. major exams coming really soon.

later, toony

THEORY THEORY THEORY.

EOYs EOYs EOYs.

AW MAN!

8 more lessons to Theory exam!

and i can't do any of the questions well!

I NEED A TUTOR!

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this is a voluntary thing, or i shall FORCE you to tutor me. no pay issued.

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okay. please, and thank you?

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THANKS YI LIN!!! :D

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kindergarten report book age 3-4

"she has an inclination towards music"

heex. guess i was made for such things ^^

阿沁 - 大暴走

月球 它绕着地球
也围绕着你我
拼凑 一个永远灿烂的宇宙
钓手 等着你上钩
安静着不开口
等候 一个满载而归的结果

我走在向阳的斜坡
只需要吉他陪着我

大暴走 没尽头
就算整个世界都要阻挡我
抬起头 看天空多辽阔
就算跌倒也不要堕落

大暴走 向前走
光的速度需要勇气去掌握
有你陪着我就已足够
大暴走

累累累累了就换手
换kak color来暴走

苹果 能保存多久
只要我一张口
享受 就只剩一瞬间的感动
看我 拿青春装阔
扶不超的蝌蚪
谁懂 变成王子要忍耐多久

我走在向阳的斜坡(朋友啊打造心中的大梦)
建构一个新的王国

大暴走 没尽头
就算整个世界都要阻挡我
抬起头 看天空多辽阔
就算跌倒也不堕落

大暴走 向前走
光的速度需要勇氧去掌握
有你陪着我就已足够
大暴走

就已足够就已足够大暴走大暴走

大暴暴暴暴暴暴走
你拦拦拦拦不住我
大暴暴暴暴暴暴走
你拦拦拦拦拦拦不住我

大暴走 没尽头
就算整个世界都要阻挡我
抬起头 看天空多辽阔
就算跌倒也不堕落

大暴走 向前走
光的速度需要勇氧去掌握
有你陪着我就已足够
就已足够
大暴走
大暴走

JIAYOU!

later, toony

seriously, my fingers are killing me.

shouldn't have attempted the chocolate fondant. burnt my fingers, and they're still stinging right now. ><

it hurts.

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totally failed this attempt at an unknown recipe. haiz... and now i can't even type properly. ARGH.

endure.

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i wanna play the piano. i wanna play my clarinet. i want to clean up the kitchen.

the three little pigs.

huffing and puffing at my fingers instead of a house.

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OW OW OW OW OW.

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Yellowcard - Gifts and Curses

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before?
I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go,
would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

i love this song.

the love it conveys is so strong...

if only...

later, toony

i SERIOUSLY don't believe this.

the holidays haven't even STARTED and i'm already BORED.

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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haiz. sad fact of life. guess this week will just be studying. making music. baking. BORING BORING BORING! I WANT HOLIDAY BAND PRAC!!!!

sian lah. just finished making my holiday shedule and i just realised that i'll be spending my time revising mostly. and i barely spend 4 hours on studying.

6-8 hours is just humanly IMPOSSIBLE! I WANT TO GO OUT MAN!!! STUDY ALSO CAN PLAY ALSO CAN I TELL YOU I'LL GO CRAZY BEING COOPED UP AT HOME!!!

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as you can tell, I'M ALREADY CRAZY!!!

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boredom. really drives people nuts.

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i think the marble cake should come out okay. just hope i remove it in time.

my first shot at a marble cake people! was quite panicky at first cos i was afraid that the pattern wouldn't come out, but now i think that it should be okay. :D

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I JUST REALISED SOMETHING!

MY INTERNET DOESN'T HATE ME ANYMORE! :D

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baking seems to have gotten rid of my unbearable emo-ness.

:D

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~random thoughts~

i'm living in the present, looking forward to the future.

forgive me if i've lost a friend and appear to not care.

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I TOTALLY LOVE MY CELL GROUP! :D

阿沁 - 圣堂之门

这是一个让人沉沦的纪元
灰色谎言冷漠了整个世界
收拾心情我向下一站旅行
为了你找寻能重生的寓言

天使断了翅膀微笑着
美丽的牺牲
带着伤痕背负着人们
穿越圣堂之门
看到你那空洞的眼神
还想逃开害怕承认
你转身

天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我才开始慢慢的学会平衡
爱的过程伤透了我的灵魂
你就这样离开让我很心疼

这是一个让人沉沦的纪元
灰色谎言冷漠了整个世界
收拾心情我向下一站旅行
为了你找寻能重生的寓言

天使断了翅膀微笑着
美丽的牺牲
带着伤痕背负着人们
穿越圣堂之门
看到你那空洞的眼神
还想逃开害怕承认
你转身

天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我才开始慢慢的学会平衡
爱的过程伤透了我的灵魂
你就这样离开让我很心疼

天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我才开始慢慢的学会平衡
爱的过程伤透了我的灵魂
你就这样离开让我很心疼

天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我学会平衡
永远不再心疼

for the first time in a long while, a totally random song.

oh yeah ^^

later, toony

suddenly.

i feel lonely.

feels odd.

i feel happy that i've met them. and i feel guilty about what i had to do to achieve that.

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i guess getting so close was a mistake. all the same, i still love them very very much. happy to finally meet MAJORITY of the group(:

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watched Ratatouille today. quite liked the movie, very cute, very funny. especially when we were watching the rats kidnap the health inspector ^^

think there was a really good moral behind it. and i think the producers were brilliant to have thought of it.

oh, the popcorn tub was HUGE! and the drinks were really really big too! WOW. for once, we couldn't finish all the popcorn! :D

cheesy lava is real good too. totally ADORED it kay! :D

heex, the neoprints were all act cute ones. hah, it has long since became a way of life ^^

rushed over for cell group gathering. really happy to meet everyone again...

to tell the truth, i was really quite nervous as i went. i was actually quite afraid that i wouldn't fit in as well as i used to. afraid that there wouldn't be much to talk about. afraid that i would be sitting in a lonely corner while everyone talked with everyone else.

uncalled for(:

it's rare. in class, in band, it's rare to see everyone communicating with each other as part of a whole group, not as part of a clique. it's really rare to feel that you belong even though you've been missing for months.

thanks for all that(:

seriously, i'd much rather be playing badminton with them.

and i really hope i can go for church camp this year...

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don't worry, i'm not in trouble.

and trouble is the norm now, don't worry so much ^^

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Forever Love
感谢你给我眼睛，但我没定睛在你
感谢你给我耳朵，但我没有聆听你
觉得世上很少爱，只因我还不明白
真正的爱，就是你为我摆上

Forever Love, 主你爱我
在十架上受苦，想的却是我
Forever Love, 主你永远爱我
来教导我，要一生为你活

later, toony