NEW BLOGGER'S FORMAT IS IRRITATING ME TO BITTTSSSSS.

irritating >:(

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adventure camp...

was a total blast(:

Shannon and Dee are the best man!

much much much MUCH love :D

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icebreakers. and we didn't get to break ice.

but we made two new friends.

Shannon and Dee :D


and i became officially known as Nancy Cheng LOL.


totally okay mans. totally okay.

we did water activities there, kayaking and dragon boating.

i was in the non-giving birth group for dragon boating lol.

water activities were really rather fun (mainly cos we were splashing each other with seawater and failing to splash the instructors)


totally conked out that night, so, unlike many many MANY others, i slept really really well.


day two was hot. like hot.

should have put on sunblock haiz...

now i'm sunburnt :(

oh wells, cooking maggi mee was rather fun :D

and delicious :D

and i'm glad that Dee got well, cos no one else would bully Shannon with us ;)

rock wall was not bad, just that i started freaking out the moment i felt the rope lifting me higher and higher.

but i made it :)

the general stations were for building teamwork, and i think it succeeded :D

the high elements, we only did the challenge pole. that's where you climb up this super super super high pole and then jump to catch the bar.

i stayed up there hesitating for a super super long time, until Jacq Chua and Jac Fong promised to shut the PTA down for me if i jumped.

and the best part? i caught that pole.

tsk wasted so much time :/

abseiling wasn't too bad. I WANNA DO THE ZIPLINE :(

odd. i wasn't freaked out by abseiling in P5, but i was kinda freaked out while standing up there. odd.

instructor Mark's from SJI! can you believe it!

and instructor Sky is so funny.

and of course, it's difficult to forget Shannon pole dancing LOL.

"... and all was bright and gay!"

"like me!"

campfire... was fun stuff.

zzz keep forgetting the lines :/

WE LOVE YOU INSTRUCTORS.

debrief was sad stuff.

Shannon and Dee, thank you for breaking the rules so that you could talk to us more :)

a lot of stuff... i really really want to say.

but words could never express the deep gratitude and love 2SY has for you guys.

you guys wanted us to leave happy.

the smile was for you guys.

remember it :)

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what happens if you really want to cry, but you really really can't?

later, toony

played Pirates yesterday.

one of my favourite pieces. it's the first piece i played under Mr Yap. it's one of the only pieces i played under him.

i really would like to play Parade of the Bumbling Wooden Soldiers again.

those most beautiful memories :)

it's time to move on.

i shall be fuelled by my love for band, that desperate desire to bring the spirit of SC Band back, that deep reliance on music.

it's another chapter of my life closed. those times shall take that precious corner in my heart.

my happiest happiest memories.

i'll miss those times no doubt. but i'm ready to embrace the future.

and i'll do as much as i can to help others embrace it too.

thank you Mr Yap. SC Band loves and misses you loads and loads.

hope you're happy now.

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I SAW THESE ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL PANDA SHIRTS AT PULL AND BEAR TODAY.

but i couldn't buy it.

it's like $23.90!

someone buy it for me please...

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最珍贵的角落 IS A VERY NICE ALBUM!!!

all Chinese christians reading this i STRONGLY encourage you to buy it if you don't already have it.

IT'S SO NICE!!!

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oh my gosh Ceremonial's horrible.

which genius suggested we play it -.-

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retail therapy really works!

i really want those shoes from Topshop...

if only it wasn't so darn ex.

:(

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God's the best.

and by His great love i shall stop crying and i shall smile.

because He gave me a lovely smile.

thank You Father :)



赞美之泉 - 哀哭变为跳舞



耶和华，我的神啊，
我定意尊崇你；
你医治我，提拔我，
使我为有福的。


一宿虽有哭泣，早晨必欢呼，
因为耶和华的恩典乃是一生之久。


你已将我的哀哭变为跳舞，
脱去麻衣，披上喜乐。
我的灵不住声地歌颂赞美，
我的心永远称谢。



耶和华，我的神啊，

我定意尊崇你；

你医治我，提拔我，

使我为有福的。


一宿虽有哭泣，早晨必欢呼，

因为耶和华的恩典乃是一生之久。


你已将我的哀哭变为跳舞，

脱去麻衣，披上喜乐。

我的灵不住声地歌颂赞美，

我的心永远称谢。



people, if you can't appreciate this song it's your problem.



you don't know what you're missing out on.

SIMPLE PLAN'S LATEST ALBUM IS SUPER SUPER NICE.

for those of you who won't get affected by the ultra sad songs, i do suggest you go and buy the album now.

they're really really REALLY good.

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i smile.

cos i know i can't cry.

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I NEED RETAIL THERAPY!!!!!

someone please go out with me...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!

you're one of the lucky people whom i wish happy birthday to on my blog :D

but it's not like you're going to read it anyway -.-

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it looks so bleak now.

it hurts. it really hurts.

do i have a strong treshold of pain?

cos i have absolutely no idea.
screw those irritating mosquitos.
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after i ran today, my stomach hurt like MAD.

is it cos i didn't have breakfast?

and after running i just felt so super sick.

haiz i'm unfit :(

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there's only hate, there's only tears. there's only pain, there is no love here.

maybe that's why everything feels so wrong now.

Simple Plan - No Love

Staring out into the world across the street
You hate the way your life turned out to be
He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say
You're always gonna be afraid

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Oh, so what will you do?

There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal
But they're never gonna go away

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Oh, so what will you do?

There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

So what will you do?

You're falling
You're screaming
You're stuck in the same old nightmare

He's lying
You're crying
There's nothing left to salvage

Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here

Woaooh
Kick the door

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Oh, so what will you do?

There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Tell me what will you do?

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here

later, toony

it's nice to know... i'm not the only one who misses it so much.

it's nice to know... i'm not the only one going through it.

it's nice to know... i'm not the only one who still wants that spirit back.

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SYF last year was magical.

heck care that silver. the music was wonderful to me.

guarding the instruments with Fann was something special too lol.

i remember doing that "security guard thing", walking in opposite directions in front of the instruments.

the bus back was great. really great. it was the first time i've ever seen seniors making so much noise despite the obvious disappointment.

it was the first time i've ever seen any CCA so bonded.

Sports Day was just a repitition of that. they started singing/yelling out SYF pieces at the top of their voices.

things after that went so smooth. we had lovely conductors, lovely seniors, whatever the rest of the school felt about our silver just didn't help in destroying that faith and that... passion?

i never loved music when i was a kid. music was just... for fun. just a bunch of notes on paper. i strived to do well because i just liked doing well.

it was band that changed that mentality.

music became my refuge. when i played, everything else just faded away. tears, pain, stress, whatever... i just forgot it.

SC Band, thank you for all you've done for me.

but you're changing now.

and i miss the old SC Band. i miss her very much.

but there's no way... no way to get her back.

later, toony

oh mans...

life's so stressful now.

emotional overspill.

times when becoming better was an enjoyable process is now over.

we're entering times when we have to become good, whether we like it or not.

but adults always, ALWAYS forget one thing.

the more they ask a teenager to do something, the less that teenager will want to do it.

so what's the point? what's the point of topping the whole nation when you didn't enjoy it?

it's not the destination that matters, it's the journey that counts.

so if we hate the journey, the destination would just be pure hypocrisy. hate and anger fused together beneath it's superficial beauty. tears, sacrifices, heartbreaks.

what's the point?

it's not worth it. and i think that's something Ms Heng understood and appreciated.

五月天 - 抓狂

我要飞而你却像
埋葬梦想的高墙
我要跳而你却像
地心引力那么强

很不爽我很不爽
不要让我更不爽
快抓狂我快抓狂
不要搞不清状况

我要飞而你却像
埋葬梦想的高墙
我要跳而你却像
地心引力那么强

是你让大气圈缺氧
是你把天堂弄脏
是你把地球变成
我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)

是火药装满心脏
是血管装满岩浆
呼吸也不能呼吸
呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂

恨是火愤怒是钢
我是沸腾的胆量
为什么要生存在
天使坠落的地方

很不爽我很不爽
不要让我更不爽
快抓狂我快抓狂
不要搞不清状况

是你让大气圈缺氧
是你把天堂弄脏
是你把地球变成
我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)

是火药装满心脏
是血管装满岩浆
呼吸也不能呼吸
呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂

是你让大气圈缺氧
是你把天堂弄脏
是你把地球变成
我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)

是火药装满心脏
是血管装满岩浆
呼吸也不能呼吸
呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂

要怎样不然你想要怎样
要怎样我们现在就明讲
谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降
谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
抓狂

later, toony

there's nothing left for me.

nothing.

so unused to free afternoons.

they're for catching up on stuff apart from school stuff, eg chores, piano etc.

and yucks why's that darn proposal due so quickly!!

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ah Valentine's Day. it's finally here. and it's finally O-V-E-R.

no more Valentine's Day comm. less stress, less responsibility, more free time.

but it's been a meaningful while :)

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ah i've been getting up so early lately! (6.15!!!)

i need more sleep.

zzz

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REALLY NICE SONG!!

Hayden Panettiere - I Still Believe


oh mans i want to watch the movie!!

but have to discuss OM tonight.

haiz...

later, toony

Beautiful
That's how mercy saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Mercy looked past all my faults

Justice of God saw what I had done
But mercy saw me through the Son
Not what I was, but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me

Not what I was, but what I could be
That's how Jesus saw me

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beautiful song(:

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YES Valentine's Day is almost over. after that, i shall have other things to stress/ freak out over.

but at least the biggest most major thing will be over.

maybe next time i'll handle stress better. *nods*

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OM!!

hmm...

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crying really is good for you.

don't be afraid to let it all out.

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seriously, what's wrong with me nowadays.

haiz...

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oh man. what am i doing online.

later, toony

at least let me say goodbye.

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WTH I WANNA GO FOR THAT SSO PERFORMANCE ON FRIDAY!!!

but i have piano lesson...

oh man... i've never wanted to go for a concert so badly...

:(

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yes people, i think i'm dangerously close to insanity.

help... please?

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wth you really expect me to do it on my own?

omgosh...
what one earth was it that made me cry... was it stress or did i miss him too too much. how odd...
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later, toony

think happy my dear.

think happy (:

OH MANS THANK GOD!!!

that's like a HUGE burden gone!

THANK YOU!!! :D

shall keep studying at one side. and focus on *GRR* homework.

totally screwed that we have a huge pile of homework during CNY!!! like, WTH!!!!

and sian lah Valentines... i think we're running exceptionally low on time.

time to stop depending on the sec 4s.

help.

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CNY is for gaining weight.

but i lost :D

and it's quite a quick drop from last week can! :D

how i envy those people who worry more about gaining weight than losing it.

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Malaysia was... quite unfriendly for shopping.

but i still got a very nice blouse ^^

the food was not bad... only i couldn't eat any of it -.-

never mind, i'm almost healed. when i am, i'll go feast on a Hershey sundae pie x)

so sian missed reunion dinner >:(

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i have spending power!

and i got S$ in Malaysia!

many MANY thanks :D

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going to work my brain out now.

shall go work on Science and Math and whatever homework i have today.

and Art D: tomorrow

so i have the rest of the week till Thursday to fret about Valentines.

and i need to practise my clarinet.

and my piano.

whee...

but never mind!

i'll survive :)

五月天 - 温柔(还你自由版)

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷该怎么渡过

天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由

我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你自由
我给你自由

我给你全部全部全部全部自由

这是我的温柔
这是我的温柔
还你你的自由
还你你的自由

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由

later, toony

i won't be here tomorrow.

don't miss me too much, i'll be back soon :D

I WANNA JOIN THE SINGAPORE YOUTH ORCHESTRA.

it's like so cool!

but i'm such a horrible player...

:(

Simple Plan - Perfect

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'll never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight

And nothing's alright

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

later, toony

blown away.

ever had that feeling that you just wish and wish that a miracle could happen and you could go back in time and just freeze it there?

i wanna go back to the very first time i played with the main band. we were learning how to play pirates, and we were under Mr Yap's baton

it just really doesn't feel the same anymore. and i really miss those times.

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i don't like it when people focus more on the award winning, the medals and looking good.

i don't like it when people just wish for everything materialistic.

i don't want to achieve something big if it means having to abandon everything important to me just so that i can achieve it.

i don't want to feel this unbearable emptiness behind that shiny gold award.

and even though i wished for it really really badly last year... i'd rather do without it if i have to sacrifice what we're sacrificing.

but it's all too late now isn't it?

later, toony