tired. really tired.

yesterday, lost 45 mins of sleep so i could get to school at 7. then last night stayed up till 12 making teachers' day presents and cleaning up. today, left school at 3. tired sia.

oh wells, can't say today was a total waste of time, cos it wasn't. seriously, i only just realised that Charmaine is such a cute, funny little girl ^^

grow taller little girl! :D

saw Sheryl Cheng, Marissa AND Camilla today! YAY! :D

was concentrating on watching Lynn dance during ACES day today, cos her class closest to me, heh ^^

was quite fun lah, but still very tiring, and i was super distracted when i realised that Sylvia and Amilyn can see me very clearly. haiz.

after that, it was a total waste of time until the concert. heh, concert was rather cool actually. teachers were so funny, and congrats to the flutes for pulling off a good performance ^^

Hwa Chong guys dancing actually quite not bad. but DEBBIE IS SO SO PRO!

i think i'm a blessed little girl. i like SC. i'm an odd little girl. first i like SC, then i hate SC, then i love SC. hmm. oh wells ^^

saw Jaclyn Tay and Charmaine after the concert. they haven't changed! talked talked talked with them and Tina until 3 pm before going home. wanted to go out for lunch with them, but no money ><

by the way, thanks Jaclyn, for that drink ^^ and thanks Charmaine for being SO CUTE and so funny ^^

now quite tired. 6 hours of sleep... and about 7 hours in school... haiz...

...

i still miss SC Band.

:(

乱世浮生 这是你给的活着的评语
轻蔑的笑说尽了你的神气

风吹过来 吹起了你白色的衣领
也吹走了我的悲观的相信

经过了谁和谁相遇
又谁和谁的分离
最后把自己交给了命运命运
像失控的马戏
小丑开始哭泣
大象猴子跑进城里

因为有你因为有你
变换整个场景
那忧郁好像可有可无的道具
因为有你 紧抓着你
像坐上纸飞机漂浮吧
飞过混乱世界的逻辑

没有原因 为什么一定要有原因
有人到了七十岁还问原因
乱世浮生 这是你笑着说的唇语
就算一秒也要快乐的决心

因为有你因为有你
变换整个场景
那忧郁好像可有可无的道具
因为有你 紧抓着你
像坐上纸飞机漂浮吧
飞过混乱世界的逻辑

经过了谁和谁相遇
又谁和谁的分离
最后把自己交给了命运命运
像失控的马戏
小丑开始哭泣
大象猴子跑进城里

因为有你因为有你
变换整个场景
那忧郁好像可有可无的道具
因为有你 紧抓着你
像坐上纸飞机漂浮吧
飞过混乱世界的逻辑

漂浮吧飞过混乱世界
昨天的烦恼就丢在上个世纪

...

昨天的烦恼就丢在上个世纪

how i wish i could do that.

later, toony

without your mask, where will you hide?

...

these few days have led me to understand myself better. i've only just realised that i am very very ruthless when someone gets on my wrong side.

so please, don't get on my wrong side.

also, i've realised that although i still trust people a lot, my faith in them is easily broken.

and now, i know i'm very confused.

...

somehow you've got everybody fooled.

...

ha. celebrated Peiwen's birthday with something very *ahem* special.

BETTER BE HONOURED ARH! I LOST 45 MINS OF SLEEP COS OF YOUR CARD KAY!

and arh, Peiwen, you are SERIOUSLY too quiet liao. our section is meant to be noisy, so MAKE MORE NOISE!

...

i'm loving my section more and more each day ^^ Sheryl Cheng is so funny kay! supposed to be a surprise and she said happy birthday to Peiwen. SO CUTE LAH :D

saw Marissa too! she was waving to my face and i didn't even notice. heh. a bit *ahem* ;)

sad case, could have had clarinets reunion, but i didn't see Camilla :(

...

Honours Day was a total waste of time.

Celestine's right. we will be heard. someday. and we'll be so loud you'd be hitting yourself over and over again for having been so deaf you couldn't hear us.

...

just what we all need. more lies about a world that never was and never will be.

...

i miss SC Band... :(

i wanna play with SC Band again...

Evanescence - Everybody's Fool

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

...

hmm.

Life was beautiful then. I remember the time i knew what happiness was. Let the memory live again.

later, toony

i'm serious.

i don't know what to do anymore.

i don't want to have to choose.

i don't want to continue being in the dark.

i don't want to have to doubt everything everyone else says.

i want to know.

i have to know.

...

my piano, my clarinet.

please bring me to a world without all this.

...

i love you guys.

please, can someone please tell me the truth?

...

i'm not too young.

...

thanks Lynn. thanks for trying so hard to bond the section.

that's rare for a section leader.

...

i wanna put a smiley somewhere.

and it seems so difficult now.

...

forgive me if i cry.

it feels... good. being able to unburden and load stuff onto others. it feels good.

...

it feels good. knowing you're safe in the sanctuary of music. knowing you can't possibly do anything else but play. knowing that, for once, you are safe from a mental assault. it feels good.

it feels good. being able to completely give up on hopeless things. it feels good.

thank You, Lord.

...

it's terrible. really terrible. to look at you and realise that i really don't know you.

still. please come back.

...

what do you do when someone you really trusted did something really bad. what would you do?

...

woke up at 6.45 yesterday. new record people! left the house at 7.10, got to school at 7.20 SHARP. very punctual, that's what i am ^^

oh yes. thank you Cheryl Ho, for the mouthpiece cover! really helpful ^^

heh, i think i'm starting to cheer up slightly. i've got my clarinet with me for one whole month, the new Chinese teacher likes pandas too! seriously, not many teachers know how to appreciate them kay. pfft.

i need sugar, people! no. i need my allowance! really NEED my allowance!

okay, never mind, shan't freak out. i will make it through this week ALIVE!

but seriously lah, i'm unbelievably tired kay ><

yesterday arh. don't know who, see HWA CHONG guy so excited huh. go say so loudly," I SAW HWA CHONG GUYS when they were THREE just behind the wall huh. okay lor, interested then i'd have forced you to go for Hwa Chong Band concert.

haiz. fell asleep in front of the computer just now. i'm serious kay, i've been so tired lately ><

...

seriously, why on earth would anyone come up with such a thing...

and why on earth would she lie to us...

OH MY HEAD IS THREATENING TO SPLIT KAY!

...

i love Mary Poppins ^^


Bette Midler - Wind Beneath My Wings

Oh, oh, oh, oh -
It must have been cold there in my shadow
To never have sunlight on your face
You were content to let me shine, thats your way
You always walked a step behind

So I was the one with all the glory
While you were the one with all the strain
A beautiful face without a name for so long
A beautiful smile to hide the pain

Did you ever know that you're my hero
And everything I would like to be
I can fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings

It might have appeared to go unnoticed
But Ive got it all here in my heart
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it
I would be nothing without you

Did you ever know that you're my hero
You're everything I wish I could be
I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings

Did I ever tell you you're my hero
You're everything, everything I wish I could be
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings
Cause you are the wind beneath my wings

Oh, the wind beneath my wings
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings
Fly, fly, fly away you let me fly so high
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky
So high I almost touch the sky
Thank you, thank you,
Thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.
thank you(:
later, toony

don't bother trying to make yourself sound good. it's just making you go lower and lower.

you think i haven't forgiven you before? everytime, everytime Ms Sie scolded Isabel for something, you think i didn't see that unbothered look on your face? everytime she asked you about something that went wrong, didn't you push the blame onto Isabel?

when you push yourself in charge during group work, do you ever care about the others' feelings? do you even bother to think about how we feel? do you ever take responsibility for whatever goes wrong?

open your eyes. there are more people in 1SY than just you and yourself.

and if you're truly repentant, i wouldn't have to tell you anything. you'd just shut up and think for yourself. and why do you want to change? to please me? then don't bother changing, cos you don't wish to be a better person. and i'm not going to bother anymore.

...

okay, not going to waste any more studying time...

firstly, congrats to Shawn for winning Campus Superstar! not as if you'll ever read this, but THANK YOU FOR SHOWING SINGAPORE THAT AGE IS NOT A FACTOR IN TALENT!

went to Priscilla's house today. ha, forgot her birthday, so sorry ^^" but her cake quite nice leh! heex. the piece very small liao lor! i would have taken the whole thing if i wasn't so paiseh!

went high man. AVENTURA is better than Linkin Park songs. it's a BAND song after all! and clarinets have a lovely section solo! TWICE! :D

PLAY COPACABANA LOADS AND LOADS! YOU CAN PLAY LIKE, REALLY REALLY WELL!

heex, was bullying Elizabeth like siao. seriously man, i AM the life of the group kay!

and can you believe it? i saw Mr Teo at Bukit Gombak MRT station. seriously. what kind of thing is this lah? first time i go Bukit Gombak i see him. grr.

but the long journey was helpful. got 45 mins of quality studying! whoo! and i think i might be able to do well enough for this ^^

sad case, a lot of food there, no money at all. GRR!

...

i forgot to thank some people.

thank you Felicia Phua, for being such a good friend in P2 and P3. heard you became head prefect, congrats man. and CLARINETS RULE DON'T THEY!

thank you Jing Heng, for being such a nice male friend ^^ heex, keep being kind to girls arh! if you ever read this, that is. :D

thank you Lip Leon, for allowing me to bully you like siao in P2 ^^"

thank you Nicholas, for being such a funny partner! heex. young, little children back then. rocks ^^

...

it's time to let go. let go.

later, toony

oh yeah, sure. i totally believe every inch of it.

...

hypocrisy. total hypocrisy. don't pretend anymore, please.

don't see where the problem lies. very well. tell me when you do.

and by the way... the book Yu Han gave me for my birthday... can i have it back? i need to get seniors to write in it before they graduate.

please. don't write anything.

you sound too much like him for me to trust you.

...

thank you Fann for queuing up to buy yoghurt while i ate my lunch! and allowing me to share too. and thanks for studying with me. and skipping mee pok to sit with me in the amphi. :D

i should get you a brownie too ^^

thank you Celestine for calming me down when i got so upset. heex, you're a great level rep!

thank you Yilin, for your many many weird and lame jokes, and helping to solve problems with me, and for listening so much! by the way, Fann and i need free tuition from you again (Science test on Monday ^^)

thank you Isabel, for always listening to me, and offering such wise advice! i feel super comfortable talking to you :D

thank you Linda, for always being so funny! cheers people up loads you know! :D

thank you Mel, for being so bimbo with me! you're so nice and so adorable, cheers me up loads! :D

thank you Dione for being your good little adorable self. i really love you little girl! :D

thank you Stephanie, for switching seats with me and being such a lovely partner! :D

THANK YOU, 1SY, FOR THE GREAT MEMORIES.
even though not all of them were so great.

thank you Lynn, Georgina, Pan E, Peiwen and Cheryl Ho, for staying back with me during the one-week break to practice! thanks for helping me play through Last Ride of the Pony Express!

thank you Qingyi and Sylvia, for giving me such a warm welcome to band!

thank you Alyssa, Marissa, Sheryl Cheng, for making the many band practices so enjoyable!

thank you Kelly and Camilla, for being such lovely majors ^^

thank you Ms Ng, Ms Leong and Mr Yap, for being such GREAT instructors! you guys rock man! :D

thank you Hui Shan, for being so funny and caring so much about the cell group! keep it up! :D

thank you Xin Min, for being such a good teacher! and thanks for being so patient with our unbearable class! :D

thank you Faye, for 'taking care' of me when i first joined Hakka. :D

thank you Yin Ting, for playing with me when we went to the Science Centre! damn fun kay!

thank you Jacqueline, for being such a great artist and so nice to me in Hakka!

thank you Clement, for having been my best male friend. thank you for making me feel good when you got 74 for your theory exam! LOL. joking joking ^^

thank you Zhan Hong, for the keep smiling message! i will keep smiling! stay positive too yeah! :D

thank you Brandon, for arguing with me so Sunday School life is less dull ^^

thank you Risheng, for being so weirdo and funny! :D

thank you Riqian, for talking to me about stuff i generally don't tell others ^^

thank you Rixin, for being such a lovely older sister! AND BAND IS REALLY FUN FUN FUN!

thank you Hui Min, for loving pandas so much! and for being so fun and funny!

thank you Yi Cong, for being THE weird orange guy! you super weird and funny person! :D of course, i can't say you're orange anymore... due to the lack of hair... ^^

thank you Si Xiu, for beng so kind to me when i first joined! i wish i had done backup singing during church camp... but then still very paiseh ^^"

THANK YOU PEOPLE! OF COURSE, I HAVE A LOT MORE I WANT TO SAY, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PHRASE IT ANYMORE.

...

thanking people has put a smile on my face...

active gratitude is really needed huh ^^

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!


S.H.E 飞轮海 - 谢谢你的温柔

s.h.e:谢谢你如此温柔
s.h.e:捧着爱情静静等候
s.h.e:我的双手
s.h.e:其实同样在颤抖

s.h.e:但我能给你什么
s.h.e:我只是一个他遗忘的我
s.h.e:心被一扫而空

s.h.e:我会把你种在我心中
s.h.e:也许某天会终于
s.h.e:再次长出一个梦

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:明明是想靠近
飞轮海:却孤单到黎明

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:那爱情的绮丽
飞轮海:总是在孤单里
飞轮海:再把我的最好的爱给你

s.h.e:谢谢你如此温柔
s.h.e:点着笑容的灯火
s.h.e:只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬

s.h.e:还没决定往哪走
s.h.e:才所以不能答应你陪我
s.h.e:怕你会变成我

s.h.e:我会把你种在我心中
s.h.e:也许某天会终于
s.h.e:再次长出一个梦

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:明明是想靠近
飞轮海:却孤单到黎明

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:那爱情的绮丽
飞轮海:总是在孤单里
飞轮海:再把我的最好的爱给你

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:明明是想靠近
飞轮海:却孤单到黎明

飞轮海:不知道不明了不想要
飞轮海:为什么我的心
飞轮海:那爱情的绮丽
飞轮海:总是在孤单里
飞轮海:再把我的最好的爱给你

s.h.e:谢谢你如此温柔
s.h.e:点着笑容的灯火
s.h.e:只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬

s.h.e:还没决定往哪走
s.h.e:才所以不能答应你陪我
s.h.e:怕你会变成我

...

and i love you guys. thanks for everything(:

later, toony

for that moment, i belonged.

hah, i'm still in sec 1 and i'm already dreading graduation. it must be the songs we sang during music today.

well, being in SC for 7 years... it's really going to be a HUGE part of me, particularly since i really started living then. SC really molded me. and i don't want to leave. not at all.

SERIOUSLY, WE BETTER CONTINUE HAVING CCA AFTER END-OF-YEARS OKAY!

...

i've remembered why i don't like The Simpsons. it's really boring ><

if you had 24 hours left to live, what would you do?

...

i don't know. maybe this is why she didn't become prefect.

maybe it's time you opened your eyes and looked at how people feel when you make yourself 'their boss'.

we are equals. please, we're not toy subjects, thanks. and stop treating Stephanie and Zi Kun like that. they are important parts of the skit, okay. and don't take them for granted like that either.

i simply HATE it when people overlook the feelings of backstagers.

...

i seriously don't know what's wrong with me.

not anymore.

...

Michael Bolton - Go The Distance

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

...

the strength of a hero is measured by his heart.

later, toony

THANK YOU WINDSURFING!

i feel so much better after windsurfing! i feel so healthy now ^^ i love love love the view! you can see the city from East Coast! :D

the waves were so strong! balancing was difficult, so of coure, i fell! but the first few times i fell, i was laughing :D totally cool man!

the wind was real strong too, but that as cool. ha, i think i did pretty well. I WANNA GO PLAY AGAIN! and i wanna try WAKEBOARDING too! :D

and i wanna inline-skate, and ice skate, and go skiing on snow! skiing is really really cool. LITERALLY! cos it's really cold with all the snow, then you're zooming down... AWESOME MAN!

ha, i totally L-O-V-E health week! and it'd be perfect if CCA wasn't cancelled. can you believe that CCA is ending at the end of this term? I HATE THIS MAN! we just joined main band can ><

...

and i thought i had gotten rid of my virus. and there's another one hidden in my computer. ARGH! how on earth did i get that one? I SERIOUSLY NEED MY MSN!

to everyone who got the virus from me... i'm really sorry! i didn't mean it alright! :( i'm gonna cry soon lah... I TOTALLY HATE THESE VIRUSES!

...

TOTAL sian-ness... i hate this hate this hate this hate this... :(

clarinet, band music, seniors, level-mates, please take me away. some place where all i can think about is band music, and where problems are completely non-existant.

please please please, Monday, COME SOONER WON'T YOU!

...

tired SHIT.

Phil Collins - Look Through My Eyes

There are things in life you'll learn and
In time you'll see
Cause out there somewhere
It's all waiting
If you keep believing

So don't run, don't hide
It will be all right
You'll see, trust me
I'll be there watching over you
Just take a look through my eyes

There's a better place somewhere out there
Just take a look through my eyes
Everything changes
You'll be amazed what you'll find
If you look through my eyes

There will be times on this journey
All you'll see is darkness
Out there somewhere daylight finds you
If you keep believing

So don't run, don't hide
It will be all right
You'll see, trust me
I'll be there watching over you

Just take a look through my eyes
There's a better place somewhere out there
Just take a look through my eyes
Everything changes
You'll be amazed what you'll find
If you look through my eyes

All the things that you can change
There's a meaning in everything
And you will find all you need
There's so much to understand

Just take a look through my eyes
There's a better place somewhere out there
Just take a look through my eyes
Everything changes
You'll be amazed what you'll find
If you look through my eyes

Take a look through my eyes

later, toony

okay, i just have a sudden desire to post Maybe here.

okay, it's the first poem i've written with so much thought. emo, yeah, maybe. no big deal.

and i finally remembered. i was thinking about I Am Wen Hui A Rock. i was thinking about how numb it was, and i wanted to write a happy poem. so i thought of rainbows. then i thought of Over The Rainbow, which appears to be a happy song, but is actually quite sad. so i was hoping i could write it like the song, masking the sadness behind blue birds and rainbows. and i got...

Maybe

Over a big beautiful rainbow
I am flying
On silent silver wings (Ms Sie wanted alliteration)
Far over the rainbow
Maybe

I have stumbled, I have fallen (Ha, i made a grammatical error here ><)
I have stood up yet again
I shall take another step
If I fall, I shall fly
Maybe

Bury obstacles
Rid my path of them (and another one over here)
Or maim me (i didn't like how it was the first time)
If I never walked, I'd never fall (it would be much better if MS SIE didn't INSIST on this format.)
Maybe

Grow, my wings, grow (this stanza wouldn't exist if it weren't for MS SIE)
Shield me from the path
Save me from falling
Keep me flying
Maybe

If I can't walk
I shall fly
Maybe.

emo? or not? i'll leave you to decide my current state of mind. and i have another poem in my head now. darn. i've became so poem-ish since Mr Ng went through poem analysis with us last time ><

...

difficult to say if i still love you as a friend. something tells me to stay away from you. yet when you stayed away from me, i felt bad. i hate this.

if a so-called 'break-up' is necessary, please make it a mutual thing. i'd feel better that way.

...

still coughing and my nose is still blocked. let's hope the fever doesn't come. i have to surf the wind tomorrow (windsurfing ^^)

maybe, i don't want an MC after all. especially not in SC. we cannot pon any day of school

ponning. okay, SORRY ISABEL AND LIWEN!

later, toony

working on the music analysis today reminded me of the joke which was told on 080807.

"where can Mickey Mouse be found in a body?"

"in this knee (Disney)!"

total diao-ness. even i felt the cold. and i'm the sort who laughs at such coldness.

...

okay, firstly, thanks to Fann's fan friend, we managed to find and download AVENTURA! total cool-ness. Aventura is the best man. i totally adore the clarinet section solo at about 1.15 mins, and the flute an eupho duet. totally rocks.

anyway, listening to all the Disney songs today, realised they're all rather inspiring. songs like Go The Distance, Like Other Girls. how i wish everything would go as smoothly as a fairytale, where everyone lives happily ever after.

well, life is better than a fairytale. i have God in my life, the people in fairytales don't. yup. life is better than a fairytale.

...

THANK YOU LORD. :D

Aventura.

later, toony

it seemed like a perfect day.

i woke up punctually, did my devos (which ensures that i won't fall asleep halfway through praying), had a REALLY good breakfast which flew all the way from Japan.

i practised on my new clarinet (okay, it's 12, not really that new, but... yeah) and i actually remembered all the exercises.

i had a good lunch, and plenty of slack time.

i baked the best vanilla cupcakes i've ever baked, and even had frosting to go with it, though that didn't turn out well.

i've realised i don't appear to be a terrible person to others, and that i have REALLY funny friends.

but what killed me, was realising that while my day went great, a friend of mine was going through the mental torment i went through in April.
i don't know how to help you. in fact, i can't help you. you have to go through this yourself. i can only provide a shoulder and a warm embrace if you ever need it. be strong, girl.

...

and thank you Lord, for blessing me with this day. for not tempting me beyond what i can handle. and now, please please, help her the way you helped me. she deserves it more than me.

you don't need the answers to all of life's questions. just know that He loves you. hang on.

Casting Crowns - Love Them Like Jesus

The love of her life is drifting away
They’re losing the fight for another day
The life that she’s known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child’s broken heart

You’re holding her hand, you’re straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She’s desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She’s looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don’t need the answers to all of life’s questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to grey
As the little one slips away

You’re holding their hand, you’re straining for words
You’re trying to make sense of it all
They’re desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They’re looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don’t need the answers to all of life’s questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don’t need the answers to all of life’s questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

later, toony

TIRED SHIT.

and DAMN i forgot to bring my music file home again. GRR.

...

had a GREAT deal of fun yesterday in band. Parade of the Wooden Bumbling Soldiers, To A Wild Rose, The Saints Go Marching Around The World (i managed to do a bit of the Far East part :D), Surprise Symphony, Selections From Mary Poppins (SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY VERY NICE!!!) AVENTURA, In All Its Glory.

Parade of the Wooden Bumbling Soldiers. Mr Yap said it sounds waaaay better than when we started out. heex ^^

for To A Wild Rose, i'm still running short of breath all the time, but i think i can keep it up lah ^^The Saints Go Marching Around The World... i'm getting better at that one :D but still need more practise.

new pieces yesterday, Surprise Symphony. it's very simple, but as Mr Yap said, the simpler it is, the more difficult it is to make it impressive. Surprise Symphony... haven't listened to it for a long time. brings back memories of primary school choir.

Mary Poppins... it's seriously very nice! couldn't keep up with it all the way, but still could manage. i like the supercalifragilisticexpialidocious part! it's so fun, so bouncy... i really like it ^^

AVENTURA! it's the best piece (in my opinion) we played yesterday. it sounds really really good, and i could play it through ^^ really like it :D

then In All Its Glory... a lot of running notes, and i went out to see Ms Leong at the beginning, so i couldn't keep up well... wanted to borrow Aventura and In All Its Glory home, but was rushing already... so i just borrowed my instrument. but still, this piece is really really pretty too. :D

James Swearingen writes really really nice pieces. MY GOSH MAN! it's really beautiful... :)

we got pumped yesterday ><><

also, we got new instruments. okay, mine isn't NEW. it's a very old clarinet... but it's the second most expensive one, and it actually is very pretty apart from the very gross mouth piece WHICH DOESN'T HAVE A COVER and the RAFFIA STRING strap >< ah well, i think it's a waay better clarinet than my previous one. shall try it out later ^^

Majestia is a very nice piece too. and Blue Ridge Saga was written by James Swearingen too ^^

In All Its Glory

SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY SCHOOL LIFE IS STARTING TO PICK UP :D

later, toony

okay. that was fast.

okay, the meme Dione gave me! :D

1. (The person who tagged you is...)
Dione (look above)
2. (Your relationship with him/her is...)
Sisters in Christ and classmates for 3 years! we rule man ^^
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her.)
cute, adorable, pretty, smart, random.
4. (The most memorable thing he/she has done for you.)
hmm.
5. (The most memorable words he/she has said to you.)
hmm.
6. (If he/she becomes your lover, you will...)
erm. what sort of a sick question is this.
7. (If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be...)
...
8. (If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...)
REALLY feel like dying.
9. (If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...)
let's hope that doesn't happen.
10. (The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is...)
moo.
11. (Your overall impression of him/her is...)
she's just a cute little girl ^^
12. (How you think people around you will feel about you.)
erm. i'd have to say... that i'm really MAD about PANDAS. :D
13. (The characteristic you love about yourself is...)
i have been saved:D
14. (On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is...)
quite a good deal to name here. but i'll try not to hate myself ^^
15. (The most ideal person you want to be is...)
i don't want to imagine a life without me falling in love with pandas and a life out of band.
16. (For people that care and like you, say something to them...)
I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!
17. (Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you - TRY NOT TO PEEP AT THE QUESTION BELOW BEFORE WRITING DOWN THE NAMES.)

1. Celestine
2. Fann
3. Yilin
4. Qingyi
5. Cheryl Ho (time to revive your dead blog)
6. Pan E
7. Yu Ying
8. Isabel
9. Amber
10. Marissa

(Who is no. 6 (Pan E) having a relationship with?)
erm. her clarinet... ?
(Is no. 9 (Amber) a male or female?)
Female. who wants to be a guy...
(If no. 7 (Yu Ying) and 10 (Marissa) are together, will it be a good thing?)
oh no. DEFINITELY NOT.
(How about no. 8 (Isabel) and 5 (Cheryl Ho) ?)
well, they don't know each other, and it STILL wouldn't be a good thing.
(What is no. 2 (Fann) studying about?)
how to destroy beautiful pictures of me. hmph.
(When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 (Yilin) ?)
two days ago.
(What kind of music band does no. 8 (Isabel) like?)
Japanese. without a doubt.
(Does no. 1 (Celestine) have any siblings?)
yes. her brother whose a bigger loser than her.
(Will you woo no. 3 (Yilin) ?)
erm. WTH.
(How about no. 7 (Yu Ying) ?)
er please. i'm not les ><
(Is no. 4 (Qingyi) single?)
much to her dismay, yes.
(What's the surname of no. 5 (Cheryl Ho) ?)
seems rather obvious to me, as i put there Cheryl HO
(What's the name of no. 10 (Marissa) ?)
Marissa.
(What's the hobby of no. 4 (Qingyi) ?)
thinking about HWA CHONG
(Do no. 5 (Cheryl Ho) and 9 (Amber) get along well?)
i doubt they know each other.
(Where is no. 2 (Fann) studying at?)
SC
(Say something casual about no. 1 (Celestine) )
tuba level rep.
(Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8 (Isabel) ?)
as i said, I'M NOT LES.
(Where does no. 9 (Amber) live?)
i shall be VERY specific. somewhere in Singapore.
(What color does no. 4 (Qingyi) like?)
yellow i think. but i know FOR SURE she LOVES Hwa Chong
(Are no. 5 (Cheryl Ho) and 1 (Celestine) best friends?)
No.
(Does no. 7 (Yu Ying) like no. 2 (Fann) ?)
I don't think they know each other.
(How did you get to know no. 2 (Fann) ?)
school. both of us came in in P4
(Does no. 1 (Celestine) have any pets?)
yeah. the pig on her blog.
(Is no. 7 (Yu Ying) the sexiest person in the world?)
sad to say, i have yet to meet her, so i can't tell ><

whee! done! :D

had the party for Sylvia today. was quite upset that i had to clean up my table cos FANN LIM messed it up during recess and didn't clean up for me. PFFT.

rushed out to Taka after collecting some money. SOMEONE OWES ME ONE DOLLAR. bought the present for Sylvia, then went to buy cake. rushed back to school... and sat down waiting for Amilyn to bring Sylvia down. THANKS AMILYN! WE OWE YOU!

had to walk past the spice rooms to catch Amilyn's attention. quite amusing, actually ^^ then we ate the pizza, and the cake. when we sang the birthday song, the whole canteen was staring at us lah. but that's okay :D

gave presents, presented the BIG card, ate cake out of KLEENEX tissue, smeared chocolate on Sylvia's face, FORCED Chermaine to have lunch... was so fun can ^^

went to band room for a short while. played with the rest of the sec 1s there and had quite a good deal of fun ^^ practised changing from A to B (on my clarinet) for a short while before going to Sylvia's house.

walked through this condo and fought for the swing with Amelia. haven't played with swings for a while. felt great being able to fly, though my legs did ache after that ><

went to her house... played with Char Siew Bao. that hamster is SO CUTE! we played table soccer for a while. Fann is quite a loser with it, but with me, we still managed to win ^^

I SERIOUSLY CAN WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS. first time in my LIFE. i don't want the sec 4s to leave so soon. I DON'T WANT, YOU GET ME.

Whitney Houston - One Moment In Time

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown

I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free,

I will be,
I will be free

later, toony

*P.S. i found my missing piano sheet. now i'm going to revive the melody in me :D

seriously, i am NEVER going to ask blogger to remember me on the computer. ever. again.

dumb thing ><

...

we finally joined main band. was really cool playing as part of SC Band. but SC Band is really small ><

truth be told, i was really nervous as i walked in. really nervous as i started to set up. really nervous as we warmed up. really nervous as i played high concert Bb. really nervous as i play concert B on my clarinet. really nervous.

but really, it turned out alright ^^ still, i really don't like The Saints Go Marching Around The World. really really difficult ><

...

i can't buy my lunch this week. not anymore.

and i can't buy lunch next week either.

blew my allowance this week on presents. SIAN. never mind, can lose weight i don't really mind. i just hate being hungry ><

...

stayed back to do music project today. we managed to finish quite a bit today. YAY :D

seriously, i miss my clarinet kay. i want to play. SOON. REAL SOON. think i'll stay back tomorrow and practise The Saints Go Marching Around The World. it's a nice piece, just that i need to PRACTISE. and i seriously LOVE Parade of the Bumbling Wooden Soldiers. it's the cutest kay ^^ and i don't like the Song to a Wild Rose. so slow so soft. pfft. (whoa, look. ssss. LOL.)

DRATS. i haven't finished art yet. hate art man. HATE it. have to paint that darn picture. stupid picture. i'm not even finished with the wall yet lah. stupid. ><

never mind, i shall stay POSITIVE.

...

seriously, time passes too fast. and in SC, the years are really short.

can time just go back to January? i'd erase my mistakes, i'd appreciate my seniors, i'd practise harder. way harder.



i don't want to go up to sec 2. that'd be more seniors gone. and juniors can never take their place. i really don't want anyone to leave SC Band.

...

i feel. alienated.

i'm not supposed to be foreign. i'm supposed to be fitting in better than most of them.

yet maybe cos of that... i just can't fit in anymore.

...

i WON'T cry.

Corinne May - Free

I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be

You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate

You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe

I can be free
I can be free from this lace
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace

Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside

I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase

All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

I can be free
I can be free from this lace
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace

Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

Break these chains
Break these chains
Break these chains

i need to be free.

later, toony

i hate my haircut.

grow, fringe grow!

...

i don't know what's wrong with me...

it's those people who are closest to me who seem so unwilling to believe that i can excel.

maybe... i'm not cut out for that sort of position. maybe...

...

band prac on Monday. i'll officially be part of main band... okay, very mixed feelings now. i've always wanted to join main band. always.

but now...

...

it's a new day.

Bryan Adams - Here I Am

Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - so young and strong
Right here in the place where I belong

It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of a young heart
It's a new day - in a new land
And it's waiting for me
Here I am

It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of a young heart
It's a new day - in a new land
And it's waiting for me
Here I am

later, toony

i won't cry.

i can't cry.

...

i guess... talking about it helped. a little at least.

and... really, i'll try to cheer up.

maybe it's cos SC Band is really very very bonded. it just feels... SC Band without sec 4s 2007 just doesn't seem like SC Band anymore.

it only took a while for us to accept that SC Band is really a part of our lives.

but it's taking forever to accept that they have to go.

i should be happy. it's been my greatest wish to join main band. but now... i'd much rather stay a recruit for forever, if they would just stay.

...

it's time to move on.

thank you for making SC Band such an enjoyable CCA.

i'll never forget you guys.

...

AND DON'T YOU DARE FORGET ME EITHER.

i couldn't find the clarinet ensemble for this... but this is a purely instrumental version.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

i never really heard the whole section play this. hopefully i'll be able to listen to it next year.

later, toony

you won't understand.

i barely understand it myself.

i thought that i wasn't close enough to them to really mourn their leaving SC band.

how was i supposed to know that they were already a part of my life, a part of me. and now that they've left, it's empty, that part of me.

somehow, i can't cry. i feel... numb.

that isn't a good thing.

...

God gives me strength.

and yet... now...

i need help.

...

whoo. happy national day.

Avril Lavigne - Slipped Away

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same

Ooooh
Na na la la la na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same noo..

The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you

...

later, toony

i belong.

thank You Lord, for making the time i spend in school so balanced. it's great :)

...

NDP celebrations today. seriously lah, we can go waaaaaaaay higher than that. hmm. must grow taller liao.

was rather fun actually. but seriously lah, why make us clean up the field? pfft. still, being in SC is really just GREAT :D

...

handover. it's rather odd, isn't it? you're looking forward to something, yet dreading it at the same time. seriously... it's excellent that we can finally join main band, but the fact that sec 4s are going... it's so saddening lah. and when they had to fall out... :(

saw so many people cry today. seriously... when people cry i get the wish to cry as well. no. i can't cry... it'll make sec 4s unwilling to leave... and that's bad ><

okay, did quite some bonding with my recruits and clarinet section today. okay, so it was mostly clarinet bonding, but still...

choing-ed through sec 4 presents today. it's quite gross, cos the alphabets have turned soggy already. and my hand was shaking as i hurried through Kelly's. still, i'm quite proud that i still managed to make the twirly whirly thing :D

when Sylvia gave her parting words to the recruits... her words were really...

okay, SYLVIA, WE LOVE YOU TOO. AND ARH. THIS HAD BETTER BE THE LAST TIME I SEE YOU CRY KAY!

and RECRUITS '07! WE HAVE BONDING TO DO!

thanks for all the presents, sec 4s! i really appreciate that you remembered me :D and Marissa's brownies ROCK lah.

hah, i like Lingli's impersonation of Marissa. LOL.

went off for clarinets stuff. gave them the milk bottles filled with candy. heex, it's very sweet *pointed out by Marissa, but i came up with the pun ;)*

showed them the videos and all... seriously... why go and show the NG part... and NO UPLOADING ONTO YOUTUBE OKAY.

saw Camilla cry. that's really really rare. Qingyi too. Cheryl Ho. Marissa. Huda. FIRST AND LAST TIME OKAY, PEOPLE!

to Camilla, Marissa and Sheryl, I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO! AND MUST VISIT AND VISIT AND VISIT AND TUTOR US OKAY! ALL THE BEST FOR O LEVELS! SHERYL, CAMILLA, MARISSA, YOU GUYS BETTER GET INTO A GREAT JC KAY!

we played panda bear, the modified version of polar bear (heex, my influence ^^) i'm a lousy panda bear ><

ALYSSA DIDN'T PLAY WITH US AT ALL! WE DIDN'T EVEN TAKE SECTION PICTURE! pfft.

we went Island Creamery after that. first time i've been there. so cool... the ice-cream is so sweet. i think i'll just stick to Gelato.

went off with Pan E and Cheryl. Cheryl went to a different bus stop, so took the bus with Pan E. talked a lot a lot a lot. seriously lah, you have a lot to talk about if you guys can discuss primary school. SERIOUSLY, I LOVE THE ZIPLINE KAY :D

ew, chocolate in my pocket. i've scrubbed my pocket rather thoroughly le. and i've wiped my phone, my keys and my pedometer. with soapy tissue, wet tissue and dry tissue, no less ^^

...

seriously... i'll miss the sec 4s like mad lah...

i'll practise really hard. have to bring SC back to the Gold standard, and maybe even past it.

JIAYOU SC BAND!

Bryan Adams - This Is Where I Belong

I hear the wind across the plain
A sound so strong - that calls my name
It's wild like the river - it's warm like the sun
Ya it's here - this is where I belong

Under the starry skies - where eagles have flown
This place is paradise - it's the place I call home
The moon on the mountains
The whisper through the trees
The waves on the water
Let nothing come between this and me

Cuz everything I want - is everything that's here
And when when we're all together - there's nothing to fear
And wherever I wander - the one thing I've learned
It's to here - I will always.... always return

...

no matter what, i know, for certain, i belong here. love you guys.

later, toony

okay, seriously, i CANNOT stand that WOMAN.

never mind. i'm so sad lah. if i had known i would have really tried to make up a story about question 3 lah. i got 8 from just question 1 and 2. if i really tried, i would have been second in class or something lah ><

OH MY GOSH!!! I BETTER DO WELL FOR GEOG LAH!!! IF NOT I'M JUST DEAD!!! ARGH.

...

rather fun, having so many seniors come to my house. i found it rather amusing that they were following me around, so i took them on a detour. :D

seriously, after i sent Qingyi off, the moment i stepped out of the lift, i heard one LOUD yell which sounded suspiciously like CHERYL HO.

EH SERIOUSLY, I DON'T WANT TO DO SOLO LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN. ><

heh. the video thing arh. i act cute without even realising lah. oops. habit liao ><

haha. my seniors are seriously the best lah! so amazingly funny and all. next year cannot spend recess with them liao... :(

so now must TREASURE all those moments :D

I LOVE YOU SENIORS :D

...

went to send Huda and Peiwen down, saw Fann, Amelia and Celestine there. they were asking us to hurry, so deliberately walk slowly :D

had quite a good diaphragm(?) exercise today. whoever knew blowing gel could be so difficult?

well, it was quite fun sticking stuff into those things. heex. still, i don't want to do this next year. MUST have something different kay, peeps. and i want the WHOLE level to be present. okay, Celestine and Amelia, ensure the WHOLE level comes kay? :D i don't have enough authority.

anyway, i want to do stuff for sec4s cannot arh? grr.

okay, tomorrow, wake up at 5.30, get to school at 6.30, work until 7.10, after that go quickly quickly change into band uniform.

tomorrow will be super tiring. and i don't want sec 4s to leave!

i love you seniors. *teary eyes*

...

:D

LMNT - Hey Juliet

Hey I've been watching you
Every little thing you do
Every time I see you pass
In my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast

I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make it real
But your lips are sealed, that ain't no big deal

Cause I know that you want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So what you trying to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

[Hey Juliet]
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Girl you got me on my knees
Beggin please, baby please
Got my best DJ on the radiowaves saying...
Hey Juliet why do you do him this way

Too far to turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme just a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance

Cause I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

You don't have to say forever
For us to hang together
So - hear - me - when I - say
Hey hey hey
JULIET
Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet..

I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe, someday
You and me can run away
I just want ya to know
I wanna be your romeo
Hey Juliet.

later, toony

i can decide some other time.

still, i cannot accept that any one of you guys would actually be so... ready to backstab others. i really can't.

well. whatever.

...


joined main band today. rather sad that i can't play with Marissa, Camilla or Sheryl ><><

still, it was rather fun playing with main band. we played... erm. Pack of Bumbling Soldiers or something like that. well, it was so cute lah! :D

still arh. band ended rather late today. sian. this is how band life is going to be from now on? well, actually, that time passed much faster than expected.

played Captain's Ball today. i'm very proud to say that team 2 from 1SY won all their matches :D team 2 rules ^^ then we went to help team 3. should have flattened the other class lah ><

we took really really weird pictures today. of course, the clarinets 2007 are the best lah! rather weird, when we took the one with all the clarinets spelling out CLARINET 2007, i was E, and i was the only one who made the letter BIG :D took pictures with recruits after that.

...

haiz. Math test. so screwed up lah. and must have signature before the marks can get keyed in. what is this lah!

and i could have gotten higher lor! Ms Ku told me the wrong thing can!

...

on the bright side, i don't have to buy textbooks next year. thanks seniors! :D

Bryan Adams - You Can't Take Me

You can't take me
Yeah

Got to fight another fight,
I gotta run another night
Get it out, check it out
I'm on my way and I don't feel right

I gotta get me back
I can't be beat and that's a fact
It's OK, I'll find a way
You ain't gonna take me down no way

Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me, I'll fight it
Never gonna give in, never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in, never gonna give it up no
You can't take me
I'm free

Why did it all go wrong?
I wanna know what's going on
And what's this holding me?
I'm not where I supposed to be

I gotta fight another fight
I gotta fight with all my might
I'm getting out, so check it out
You're in my way
Yeah, you better watch out

Ooh Come on

Don't judge a thing, until you know what's inside it
Don't push me, I'll fight it
Never gonna give in, never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in, never gonna give it up no
You can't take me
I'm free

Oh Yeah I'm Free

few things here. i'm not giving up.

just damn sad that one of my closest friend doesn't think i can ever be a good leader.

later, toony

playing and playing and playing.

how i wish i could just sit in the comfort of the band room, playing piece after piece after piece on my clarinet.

the peace and shelter from the confusing outside world.

my sanctuary. yeah.

...

i don't know why lah, but i was so nervous when playing with Amilyn. was playing super super soft so that her saxaphone would cover up my clarinet sound. kept missing beats and all ><

and i can play Last Ride of the Pony Express! after 3 days! :D

rather fun, actually. band rocks ^^

piano lesson. played with the trump cards again, and played my C piece. was so super nervous, so i missed lots of notes, and didn't hold notes long enough either. darn.

was really very tired even though i slept at 10.30 the night before. don't know why. my body's going all weirdo on me.

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had oral in the morning. was freaking out before the test. was hunting for a stress ball, which no one had. then i could only use my tissue, so my arm aches a lot now.

okay lah, it wasn't that difficult. but i forgot to mention a vital point in the picture lah! WTH!

okay, conversation topic wasn't my favourite. food also can. fashion trend also can. give me this sort of crap topic... don't know what to say lah. sensitive issue with me.

after that, rushed to Orchard to buy sweets. i walked up escalator, then heard very soft," Lee Wei, Lee Wei" then i turned around... wow. i saw so many french horn players. immediately called Fann to tell her her seniors were at Orchard too.

after that, rushed home, rushed through lunch, rushed to Barker Road.

WHY IS THE HOSTEL SO FREAKINGLY DIFFICULT TO FIND???!!!

had quite a bit of fun there. after the meeting, went to 7-11 with Alyssa and Georgina cos i really needed proper food. had been snacking on sweets the whole afternoon, not very healthy. bought a hot dog bun and i finished the sausage really really quickly ><

sad, why couldn't they go RTC bus stop? then can spend more time together... and take pictures... :(

WTH. i go make presents for seniors you not happy is it? just say lah. you think we can finish in 10 mins is it? what do you expect lah? not say i have a TON of work to do, just study for Lit and Geog test on Monday.

okay, fine whatever. switch on the computer, saw something super unpleasant.

hey, i'm not that upset over that okay. it's just... i was worrying that i would be misleading you and all. so it's long gone huh. why didn't you just say so? so you were leading me on after all. i hate being deceived, you know that? and i trust very very easily.

maybe i trust too much. maybe i trust the wrong people. but if what she said is true, then my image of you will be completely off. but i trust you. but if i were to believe you, that means she's lying. and i trust her too.

why are humans so selfish. if we could all be proper christians, the world would be so much easier, no one would be hurt, nothing would go wrong, it would be so peaceful.

but God doesn't give us peace without opposition... i can only trust that He will keep me and all my loved ones safe.
i submit us all into Your hands. heal the wounds, Father. there's so much deceit in this world. i'm afraid. i don't want to be hurt anymore.

Hilary Duff - Coming Clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

later, toony

I HATE MAKING CHOICES.

okay, that was caps out in a sudden surge in stress level.

seriously lah, i cannot stand people who just REFUSE to cooperate okay. for goodness's sake, just do it. unless you guys can come up with a better idea, then just do it, okay?

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i wanna bake vanilla cupcakes! they looked so nice can!

i want a milkshake! a vanilla mosshake! it rocks kay! or a chocolate one. i haven't tried their chocolate ones. i want i want i want!

rather impressive, i have seniors practising with me every day. today, it's Lynn and Georgina! thanks seniors :D

i'm getting more fluent le! YES!!! my only problem now is semiquavers. yup. i feel so accomplished! :D

damn sad, i can't go inline-skating tomorrow cos i forgot to get the form AGAIN. and i forgot to buy gao zhi, so i can't do Chinese homework AGAIN. ARGH. stupid me ><

ahem. so maybe sec threes aren't that mean after all ^^

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i will be STRONG.

and if i can't.

i know You'll be there to catch me as i fall.

i don't need anyone. just YOU.

i love You, Father :D

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can i ask you to go away? and can you please just go away?

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seriously, everything else fades away when i play. all that unhappiness, the anger, that hate, it all fades away once i step into the band room, once i start to play.

i love my music.

Avril Lavigne - Tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok
Yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today,

(I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
yeah, it's a different day,
tomorrow,

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around, it's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
Just don't

Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
tomorrow its a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
maybe tomorrow
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow... it may change
Tomorrow... it may change
Tomorrow... it may change
Tomorrow... it may change

later, toony

the igneous rock versus Mr Teo!

who will win in this ridiculous battle of wits? who will emerge the victor? stay tuned to the next Geography lesson!

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LOL!!! whale speak. that's how you should speak when giving answers to the igneous rock (Wen Hui). credits to Mr Teo for thinking of such a good method ^^

he said 'yo' to me outside the staff room today. totally unexpected. so just 'yo'ed back. then the teacher behind him was laughing ><

i don't see what's wrong with shooting paper planes at Wen Hui during lessons, particularly when you're WAITING for the projector to start.

and ALYSSA POH YOU BETTER STICK TO YOUR WORD AND STOP SNATCHING MY RUBBER BAND AWAY!

for today, thanks to Georgina for staying back to practise with me ^^ i finished the piece! yay! at long long long last! :D

Amilyn's rather like Sylvia. why are band seniors all so funny? and Claire as well. damn funny ^^ band rules man. :D

WHO HAS GEORGINA'S PHONE NUMBER? OR LYNN'S? OR YIAKUAN'S?

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i'm rather convinced that everything i've done has been nothing but mistakes.

look, you don't have to hate me, i can do that for you. i'm really sorry. really very sorry.
that penknife.
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PEOPLE, WHAT'RE YOUR FAVOURITE FRUITS???

Corrinne May - Journey

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

later, toony