NEW BLOGGER'S FORMAT IS IRRITATING ME TO BITTTSSSSS.
irritating >:(
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adventure camp...
was a total blast(:
Shannon and Dee are the best man!
much much much MUCH love :D
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icebreakers. and we didn't get to break ice.
but we made two new friends.
Shannon and Dee :D
and i became officially known as Nancy Cheng LOL.
totally okay mans. totally okay.
we did water activities there, kayaking and dragon boating.
i was in the non-giving birth group for dragon boating lol.
water activities were really rather fun (mainly cos we were splashing each other with seawater and failing to splash the instructors)
totally conked out that night, so, unlike many many MANY others, i slept really really well.
day two was hot. like hot.
should have put on sunblock haiz...
now i'm sunburnt :(
oh wells, cooking maggi mee was rather fun :D
and delicious :D
and i'm glad that Dee got well, cos no one else would bully Shannon with us ;)
rock wall was not bad, just that i started freaking out the moment i felt the rope lifting me higher and higher.
but i made it :)
the general stations were for building teamwork, and i think it succeeded :D
the high elements, we only did the challenge pole. that's where you climb up this super super super high pole and then jump to catch the bar.
i stayed up there hesitating for a super super long time, until Jacq Chua and Jac Fong promised to shut the PTA down for me if i jumped.
and the best part? i caught that pole.
tsk wasted so much time :/
abseiling wasn't too bad. I WANNA DO THE ZIPLINE :(
odd. i wasn't freaked out by abseiling in P5, but i was kinda freaked out while standing up there. odd.
instructor Mark's from SJI! can you believe it!
and instructor Sky is so funny.
and of course, it's difficult to forget Shannon pole dancing LOL.
"... and all was bright and gay!"
"like me!"
campfire... was fun stuff.
zzz keep forgetting the lines :/
WE LOVE YOU INSTRUCTORS.
debrief was sad stuff.
Shannon and Dee, thank you for breaking the rules so that you could talk to us more :)
a lot of stuff... i really really want to say.
but words could never express the deep gratitude and love 2SY has for you guys.
you guys wanted us to leave happy.
the smile was for you guys.
remember it :)
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what happens if you really want to cry, but you really really can't?
later, toony
Panda loves !
2:28 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
maybe.
played Pirates yesterday.
one of my favourite pieces. it's the first piece i played under Mr Yap. it's one of the only pieces i played under him.
i really would like to play Parade of the Bumbling Wooden Soldiers again.
those most beautiful memories :)
it's time to move on.
i shall be fuelled by my love for band, that desperate desire to bring the spirit of SC Band back, that deep reliance on music.
it's another chapter of my life closed. those times shall take that precious corner in my heart.
my happiest happiest memories.
i'll miss those times no doubt. but i'm ready to embrace the future.
and i'll do as much as i can to help others embrace it too.
thank you Mr Yap. SC Band loves and misses you loads and loads.
hope you're happy now.
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I SAW THESE ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL PANDA SHIRTS AT PULL AND BEAR TODAY.
but i couldn't buy it.
it's like $23.90!
someone buy it for me please...
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最珍贵的角落 IS A VERY NICE ALBUM!!!
all Chinese christians reading this i STRONGLY encourage you to buy it if you don't already have it.
IT'S SO NICE!!!
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oh my gosh Ceremonial's horrible.
which genius suggested we play it -.-
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retail therapy really works!
i really want those shoes from Topshop...
if only it wasn't so darn ex.
:(
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God's the best.
and by His great love i shall stop crying and i shall smile.
because He gave me a lovely smile.
thank You Father :)
赞美之泉 - 哀哭变为跳舞
耶和华,我的神啊, 我定意尊崇你; 你医治我,提拔我, 使我为有福的。
一宿虽有哭泣,早晨必欢呼, 因为耶和华的恩典乃是一生之久。
你已将我的哀哭变为跳舞, 脱去麻衣,披上喜乐。 我的灵不住声地歌颂赞美, 我的心永远称谢。
耶和华,我的神啊,
我定意尊崇你;
你医治我,提拔我,
使我为有福的。
一宿虽有哭泣,早晨必欢呼,
因为耶和华的恩典乃是一生之久。
你已将我的哀哭变为跳舞,
脱去麻衣,披上喜乐。
我的灵不住声地歌颂赞美,
我的心永远称谢。
people, if you can't appreciate this song it's your problem.
you don't know what you're missing out on.
Panda loves !
6:08 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
no love here.
SIMPLE PLAN'S LATEST ALBUM IS SUPER SUPER NICE.
for those of you who won't get affected by the ultra sad songs, i do suggest you go and buy the album now.
they're really really REALLY good.
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i smile.
cos i know i can't cry.
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I NEED RETAIL THERAPY!!!!!
someone please go out with me...
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!
you're one of the lucky people whom i wish happy birthday to on my blog :D
but it's not like you're going to read it anyway -.-
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it looks so bleak now.
it hurts. it really hurts.
do i have a strong treshold of pain?
cos i have absolutely no idea. screw those irritating mosquitos. ...
after i ran today, my stomach hurt like MAD.
is it cos i didn't have breakfast?
and after running i just felt so super sick.
haiz i'm unfit :(
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there's only hate, there's only tears. there's only pain, there is no love here.
maybe that's why everything feels so wrong now.
Simple Plan - No Love
Staring out into the world across the street You hate the way your life turned out to be He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say You're always gonna be afraid
There's only hate There's only tears There's only pain There is no love here
Oh, so what will you do?
There's only lies There's only fears There's only pain There is no love here
Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile If these walls could talk they would have so much to say Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal But they're never gonna go away
There's only hate There's only tears There's only pain There is no love here
Oh, so what will you do?
There's only lies There's only fears There's only pain There is no love here
So what will you do?
You're falling You're screaming You're stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying You're crying There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over Get me out of here
Woaooh Kick the door
There's only hate There's only tears There's only pain There is no love here
Oh, so what will you do?
There's only lies There's only fears There's only pain There is no love here
Tell me what will you do?
There's only hate There's only tears There's only pain There is no love here
later, toony
Panda loves !
7:59 PM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
i'm not alone.
it's nice to know... i'm not the only one who misses it so much.
it's nice to know... i'm not the only one going through it.
it's nice to know... i'm not the only one who still wants that spirit back.
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SYF last year was magical.
heck care that silver. the music was wonderful to me.
guarding the instruments with Fann was something special too lol.
i remember doing that "security guard thing", walking in opposite directions in front of the instruments.
the bus back was great. really great. it was the first time i've ever seen seniors making so much noise despite the obvious disappointment.
it was the first time i've ever seen any CCA so bonded.
Sports Day was just a repitition of that. they started singing/yelling out SYF pieces at the top of their voices.
things after that went so smooth. we had lovely conductors, lovely seniors, whatever the rest of the school felt about our silver just didn't help in destroying that faith and that... passion?
i never loved music when i was a kid. music was just... for fun. just a bunch of notes on paper. i strived to do well because i just liked doing well.
it was band that changed that mentality.
music became my refuge. when i played, everything else just faded away. tears, pain, stress, whatever... i just forgot it.
SC Band, thank you for all you've done for me.
but you're changing now.
and i miss the old SC Band. i miss her very much.
but there's no way... no way to get her back.
later, toony
Panda loves !
4:04 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
OH MY GOSH ****
oh mans...
life's so stressful now.
emotional overspill.
times when becoming better was an enjoyable process is now over.
we're entering times when we have to become good, whether we like it or not.
but adults always, ALWAYS forget one thing.
the more they ask a teenager to do something, the less that teenager will want to do it.
so what's the point? what's the point of topping the whole nation when you didn't enjoy it?
it's not the destination that matters, it's the journey that counts.
so if we hate the journey, the destination would just be pure hypocrisy. hate and anger fused together beneath it's superficial beauty. tears, sacrifices, heartbreaks.
what's the point?
it's not worth it. and i think that's something Ms Heng understood and appreciated.
五月天 - 抓狂
我要飞而你却像 埋葬梦想的高墙 我要跳而你却像 地心引力那么强
很不爽我很不爽 不要让我更不爽 快抓狂我快抓狂 不要搞不清状况
我要飞而你却像 埋葬梦想的高墙 我要跳而你却像 地心引力那么强
是你让大气圈缺氧 是你把天堂弄脏 是你把地球变成 我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)
是火药装满心脏 是血管装满岩浆 呼吸也不能呼吸 呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
恨是火愤怒是钢 我是沸腾的胆量 为什么要生存在 天使坠落的地方
很不爽我很不爽 不要让我更不爽 快抓狂我快抓狂 不要搞不清状况
是你让大气圈缺氧 是你把天堂弄脏 是你把地球变成 我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)
是火药装满心脏 是血管装满岩浆 呼吸也不能呼吸 呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
是你让大气圈缺氧 是你把天堂弄脏 是你把地球变成 我的战场(快抓狂快抓狂)
是火药装满心脏 是血管装满岩浆 呼吸也不能呼吸 呼吸呼吸(快抓狂快抓狂)
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂
要怎样不然你想要怎样 要怎样我们现在就明讲 谁怕谁看谁先让谁投降 谁怕谁谁叫你要让我抓狂 抓狂
later, toony
Panda loves !
4:15 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
absolutely nothing at all.
there's nothing left for me.
nothing.
Panda loves !
11:08 PM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
free (rare) afternoons
so unused to free afternoons.
they're for catching up on stuff apart from school stuff, eg chores, piano etc.
and yucks why's that darn proposal due so quickly!!
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ah Valentine's Day. it's finally here. and it's finally O-V-E-R.
no more Valentine's Day comm. less stress, less responsibility, more free time.
but it's been a meaningful while :)
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ah i've been getting up so early lately! (6.15!!!)
i need more sleep.
zzz
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REALLY NICE SONG!!
Hayden Panettiere - I Still Believe
oh mans i want to watch the movie!!
but have to discuss OM tonight.
haiz...
later, toony
Panda loves !
4:18 PM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
mercy saw me
Beautiful That's how mercy saw me Though I was broken and so lost Mercy looked past all my faults
Justice of God saw what I had done But mercy saw me through the Son Not what I was, but what I could be, That's how mercy saw me
Not what I was, but what I could be That's how Jesus saw me
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beautiful song(:
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YES Valentine's Day is almost over. after that, i shall have other things to stress/ freak out over.
but at least the biggest most major thing will be over.
maybe next time i'll handle stress better. *nods*
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OM!!
hmm...
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crying really is good for you.
don't be afraid to let it all out.
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seriously, what's wrong with me nowadays.
haiz...
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oh man. what am i doing online.
later, toony
Panda loves !
6:21 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
MR YAP!!!
at least let me say goodbye.
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WTH I WANNA GO FOR THAT SSO PERFORMANCE ON FRIDAY!!!
but i have piano lesson...
oh man... i've never wanted to go for a concert so badly...
:(
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yes people, i think i'm dangerously close to insanity.
help... please?
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wth you really expect me to do it on my own?
omgosh... what one earth was it that made me cry... was it stress or did i miss him too too much. how odd... ...
later, toony
Panda loves !
7:08 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
think happy.
think happy my dear.
think happy (:
Panda loves !
9:35 PM
Saturday, February 09, 2008
THANK GOD!!!
OH MANS THANK GOD!!!
that's like a HUGE burden gone!
THANK YOU!!! :D
Panda loves !
1:30 PM
yuck homework.
shall keep studying at one side. and focus on *GRR* homework.
totally screwed that we have a huge pile of homework during CNY!!! like, WTH!!!!
and sian lah Valentines... i think we're running exceptionally low on time.
time to stop depending on the sec 4s.
help.
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CNY is for gaining weight.
but i lost :D
and it's quite a quick drop from last week can! :D
how i envy those people who worry more about gaining weight than losing it.
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Malaysia was... quite unfriendly for shopping.
but i still got a very nice blouse ^^
the food was not bad... only i couldn't eat any of it -.-
never mind, i'm almost healed. when i am, i'll go feast on a Hershey sundae pie x)
so sian missed reunion dinner >:(
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i have spending power!
and i got S$ in Malaysia!
many MANY thanks :D
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going to work my brain out now.
shall go work on Science and Math and whatever homework i have today.
and Art D: tomorrow
so i have the rest of the week till Thursday to fret about Valentines.
Hey Dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think about the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'll never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said And nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you But you don't understand
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
later, toony
Panda loves !
3:27 PM
Saturday, February 02, 2008
blown away.
Panda loves !
2:37 PM
Friday, February 01, 2008
can i have it back?
ever had that feeling that you just wish and wish that a miracle could happen and you could go back in time and just freeze it there?
i wanna go back to the very first time i played with the main band. we were learning how to play pirates, and we were under Mr Yap's baton
it just really doesn't feel the same anymore. and i really miss those times.
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i don't like it when people focus more on the award winning, the medals and looking good.
i don't like it when people just wish for everything materialistic.
i don't want to achieve something big if it means having to abandon everything important to me just so that i can achieve it.
i don't want to feel this unbearable emptiness behind that shiny gold award.
and even though i wished for it really really badly last year... i'd rather do without it if i have to sacrifice what we're sacrificing.
but it's all too late now isn't it?
later, toony
Panda loves !
3:26 PM
PROFILE
Child of God
SHE'S a real person, but she shall just be known as toonyweeny here(:
she loves Sophie(her B flat clarinet) and Sophia(the alto clarinet).
she loves Percy(her piano) just as much too(:
she really hopes you remember May 16 as it is an important day to her.
she loves SC and SC Band, and really hopes that things will go back to normal.
she's still waiting and hoping, but don't treat her like a fool(:
she is really really sincere, having been in it for four years.
lastly, she really hopes you have a nice time here :D
33/25/3001
SOUNDS
SITE RULES
RULES PLACED HERE .
- be nice(:
- please don't flame pandas here(:
- or clarinets
- or pianos.
- leave a tag!
- smile! Jesus loves you!:D
WHAT I WANT
WISHLIST
- music stand
- my own clarinet
- Skin Food nail polish! :D
- nice blank notebooks
- albums of band songs
- Whenever You Remember, You Raise Me Up and nice piano scores
- Christian literature
- ice-cream maker
- Topshop stuff!
- panda stuff
- WORLD PEACE!
RESOLUTIONS
- focus on GOD
- be a better daughter
- be more motivated to do stuff
- study hard!
- practise my piano and my clarinet much much more
- do well for grade 7 practical and theory
- get straight A1s
- give my parents more than enough reason to let me go back to church
- get my own clarinet
- be a better person