i shall keep my mind away from the depressing stuff.

i shall focus my mind upon His greatness, His overwhelming grace and the love He has for me.

i shall focus on the cross, upon which Jesus suffered and died, so i could live.

i shall focus on God and God alone.

the sadness will leave me soon.

soon.

...

there is no hate without love.

maybe that's why there's this huge ball of hate and anger for school now.

...

i spent one hour plus trying to cook an egg.

and just as i was about to eat it, i dropped the bowl.

way smart man.

-.-

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oh my gosh about 30 recruits??

AWESOME!

Chris Tomlin - How Great Is Our God

The splendor of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God,and all will see
How great, how great
Is our God

Age to age he stands
And time is in His Hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End

The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great
Is our God

Name above all names
You are Worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
Is our God

Name above all names
You are Worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
Is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great
Is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great
Is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great
Is our God

later, toony

oh man.

i hate Lang Arts.

D:

i wonder if anyone has ever looked into the mirror and carefully scrutinised his/her looks and wonder which part lights up the whole face.

kay maybe i'm the only self-absorbed freak, but i realised that i don't look alive if i don't smile.

...

i've looked inside too, and i've realised i seem to have settled into a full-time sad mode.

so basically, i'm a sad person who's made to smile.

yay.

investiture today.

i still believe it was a waste of a precious afternoon.

what live telecast, rubbish lah -.-

...

went Waffletown for lunch, so i'm now officially broke.

Amanda Lim, just chill won't you... as long as i'm around, you'll never be late ^^

and coming SC, please tell me beforehand, don't scare me like that thanks.

but a pleasant surprise, nevertheless. nice to be seeing a friend :)

...

so long never see you le, how could you just leave like that...

next time i see you, you are going to die.

...

lol Teo.

"him? future boyfriend is it?"

"i have better taste than that lah."

"oh okay."

LOL!

...

82.

:(

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梁静茹 - 我还记得

十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离
沉默里千言万语

时光回到那年夏天
公车站前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你好吗

一句问候填满青春
别人的话都听不见
岁月凝结在你的视线

我还记得那年倾盆大雨
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街
握紧的双手
为爱的不顾一切

我还记得那年你的声音
耳边回荡那一句誓言
你吻我的脸
都是我心中收藏一生的快乐

渐渐我们都有新朋友
多久不再并肩走
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆
忘记了年轻的梦

好想回到那年夏天
教室门前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你别哭

考坏一次不是末日
未来还有很长的路
我们要一起去看世界

我还记得那年晴空万里
那一道飞机云的弧线
蜿蜒着思念
写下故事的总结

我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里
你不曾告别不曾走远

与你重逢前一个夜晚
往事在梦中上演
终要去体验
真实人生的残缺

我还记得那年晴空万里
那一道飞机云的弧线
蜿蜒着思念
写下故事的总结

我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里
你不曾告别不曾走远

later, toony

yucks i hate computer studies.

...

hmm...

BRANDO TAN...

is so funny lol.

just testing to see if the google thing really works ;)

...

school's been insane lately.

i don't want.

i don't like.

:(

...

my pandas are so adorable!!!!

many many MANY thanks to the many panda gifts i got from everyone :D

*hugs*

...

computer studies is so boring...

haiz haiz haiz.

...

I MUST PREVENT MY BLOG FROM DYING.

and i haven't been online in days.

*gasps in horror*

...

some horrific feelings just refuse to die away.

GO AWAY SATAN.

later, toony

it's getting insane.

the mountanious pile of work... the exhaustion... the VERY limited time...

grr -.-

...

i wanna join SYO!

must practise hard. really really hard.

jiayou jiayou...

...

it's overwhelming.

i don't want such a feeling...

:(

later, toony

not having a confidant around... it's odd.

seems like i'm surpressing so much more...

tsk. so unhealthy.

...

i generally don't want to, cos i'm super afraid of people rejecting it.

argh things are bad.

so clique-ish! TSK!

...

赞美之泉 - 最珍贵的角落

谢谢你灿烂笑容，
照亮我的天空
谢谢你分享心情，
把我放在你心中

夜里有时为寒冷，
你我生根同暖土
友情是最亮的星，
我的生命从此美丽

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣
我带春风使你舞其中
当你正走在坎坷路，
我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼，向白云招手
我们要一起笑一起哭
千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍贵的角落

谢谢你灿烂笑容，
照亮我的天空
谢谢你分享心情，
把我放在你心中

夜里有时为寒冷，
你我生根同暖土
友情是最亮的星，
我的生命从此美丽

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣
我带春风使你舞其中
当你正走在坎坷路，
我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼，向白云招手
我们要一起笑一起哭
千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍贵的角落

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣
我带春风使你舞其中
当你正走在坎坷路，
我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼，向白云招手
我们要一起笑一起哭
千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍贵的角落

千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍贵的角落

lovely song...

later, toony

don't the teachers know the meaning of the word exhaustion?

and it's only the third week of school -.-

...

it's an inexplicable surge of loneliness.

why am i so sad nowadays...

:(

...

argh math -.-

later, toony

赞美之泉 - 我要向高山举目

我要向高山举目，
我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。

我要向高山举目，
我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。
哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。

我要向高山举目， 我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。
我要向高山举目， 我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。
哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。

我要向高山举目， 我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。
我要向高山举目， 我的帮助从何来？
我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。
哈利路亚，哈利路亚，
哈利路亚，哈利路。

我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来。

NICE SONG!!!

...

i'll have to remember this really really well...

i want a 赞美之泉 album!!

never mind i shall save up.

jiayou jiayou!

...

i've only just realised something really really important...

without you, i'm lonely. but without God, i know i will die.

i've been feeling rather empty for quite long...
sorry Lord...
...


His grace and His love overwhelms me.

later, toony

must you do this to me...

i don't want anyone to leave...

i seriously think i'll cry.

...

haiz no new mouthpiece :(

the stocks better come soon! don't break my heart please.

...

tsk sectionals again.

then after section sectionals had woodwind, brass and percussion sectionals.

personally, i do feel that's way more fun than section sectionals.

and we played Phantom today!

it's way less difficult than i imagined.

lol Qingyi...

"if you don't know how to play, just pretend to mouth and finger it."

and oh my, Mrs Low heard her LOL.

but seriously, i was going into panic about it lah...

and it's such a nice piece!

...

yesterday...

lunch at 3.30 and dinner at 9.30.

tsk tsk tsk.

i never knew that instant noodles could last me for 6 hours.

and i saw the stars last night!

and oh my gosh they're absolutely gorgeous...

wish i could see them more often... somehow, the stars fill me up with that desperate need to see you.
...

don't know why i've been so tired lately.

old song, but believe it or not, i only discovered it today.

F.I.R - Lydia

Lydia
迷离的眼眶
为何流浪
心碎的海洋

受了伤
连微笑都彷徨
Gypsy 女郎
为谁而唱

你会看见雾看见云看见太阳
纪念和大地重复着悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔

Lydia
幸福不在远方
开一扇窗
许下愿望

你会感受爱感受恨感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔

彩虹泪光

later, toony

damn it...

just remembered i got piano lesson tomorrow.

and i haven't practised!!! argh!!!

and means i can't go out tomorrow le. paiseh :(

...

auditions today.

so tiring haiz...

then still got to do homework and practise piano...

what the...

i just wanna curl up and sleep lah...

...

i feel so darn sad...

:(

...

peeps. i'm going into my no-lifer phrase.

i'm just too tired...

later, toony

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please feedback, thank you ^^

...

hmm my most regular tagger is no longer available for long messages on my tagboard.

haiz...

a bit late to say anything else, so i won't...

...

tiring day in school today.

haiz Valentine's Day...

...

my head feels as though it's full of cotton wool.

but i love James Swearingen.


just about all the songs i've heard that's by him have really nice clarinet parts.

whoo! :D

...

i'm sad.

like real sad...

or maybe it's emptiness i'm feeling.

haiz... i'm so dumb.

:(

...

i left so much unsaid...

...

downloaded a FEW band pieces yesterday.

and know what? Blue Ridge Saga is really gorgeous.

if anyone has In All Its Glory, please send me!

thanks, and love! :D

later, toony

suddenly.

i just feel like crying.

guess i just miss everyone too much.

haiz...

screwed up to know that i only get one rest day before continuing with a long week.

and even though it's only been four days of school, i already have to research on so much haiz.

i need a proper weekend lah!!

...

zzz...

i don't have a duet partner anymore.

don't know if i'll be able to get used to it...

haiz...

must there be so many people leaving all in one go!!

:(

...

anyway, yesterday's band prac wasn't that bad...

apart from the long sectionals where we were just practising 5 minutes a day for like one hour.

-.-

Mr Tan doesn't seem too bad...

i do hope SC Band gets more opportunities. i seriously think we deserve as much.

released rather early yesterday.

...

video calling's fun!

but it drains battery really really quickly.

AND NO BULLYING WENDY!!!

poor little panda...

...

cut my finger while chopping carrots.

ouch.

...

Casting Crowns - Love Them Like Jesus

The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

later, toony

hoping.

still hoping.

...

orientation yesterday was rather fun.

i LOVE it when i get to play with the band.

the feeling you get is... magical. seriously magical.

but quite sian, i was squeaking like crazy :(

and certain comments distracted me.

haiz...

orientation today was better...

>100 people signed up :D

...

damn headaches.

ouch.

...

dog tired.

grr...

Jonatha Brooke - I'll Try

I am not a child now
I can take care of myself
I mustn't let them down now
Mustn't let them see me cry
I'm fine I'm fine

I'm to tired to listen
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as faith,
And trust, and pixie dust

I try, but its to hard to believe
I try, but I can't see where you see
I try I try
I try

My whole world is changing
I don't know where to turn
I can't leave you waiting
But I cant stay and watch the city burn
Watch it burn

'Cause I try, but its so hard to believe
I try but I can't see where you see
I try I try

I try and try to understand
The distance in between
The love I feel, the things i fear
And every single dream

I can finally see it
Now I have to believe
All those precious stories
All the world is made of faith
And trust and pixie dust

So I'll try,'cause I finally believe
I'll try, 'cause I see where you see
I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll try to fly

from Peter Pan: Return to Neverland

later, toony

it's a new year.

time to redo my resolutions!

...

1. focus on God.

2. be a better daughter (for God and for my parents)

3. be more motivated to do stuff

4. study hard!

5. practise my piano and my clarinet much much more.

6. do well for Grade 7 practical and theory

7. get straight A1s

8. give my parents more than enough reason to let me go back for Saltshakers

9. get my own clarinet.

10. be a better person.

...

think this is possible?

jiayou jiayou.

...

haiz school starting tomorrow.

long day tomorrow, better sleep early tonight.

and i better finish Chinese!

jiayou jiayou!

...

a new year, a fresh start.

the new year's going to change. a lot.

i'm going to change. and i do hope it's for the better.

2007 has been a meaningful year. i've grown a lot in 2007.

through the tears... i will miss being 13.

time to embrace the future as it comes.

dearest 2008.

i'm ready.

...

happy new year y'all.

later, toony