just talking to people can put me in a better mood.

went for the young pianist concert last night.

i think they're very cool. first few performers were the youngest (8-year-olds) and they're like. my grade.

i feel so inferior T_T

i think they'll grow up to be excellent performers.

and the only performers who are around my age have their masters already.

then Ms Evelyn wants me to compete against them.

-.-

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i think last night put me in a much better mood.

nice to be making friends...

albeit very irritating ones who focus on arguing with you.

*cough**JEREMY**cough*

okay lah, not like he'll read this.

but i think it's fascinating mixing with them.

oh wells, piano lesson just keeps getting fun man ^^

and how on earth did you get my number arh. stalk me arh -.-

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i don't like to play in front of anyone ><

i get superbly nervous.

and they want me to play for little kids...

oh man ><

Vanessa Anne Hudgens - Gotta Go My Own Way

I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us, doesn’t seem right… these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged

It’s so hard to say but I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here, I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way

Don’t wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it’s just too hard… to watch it all… slowly fade away

I’m leaving today cause I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here, I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday, but at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

TROY:What about us? What about everything we’ve been through?
GABRIELLA: what about trust?
TROY: You know I never wanted to hurt you.
GABRIELLA: What about me?
TROY: What am I supposed to do?
GABRIELLA: I gotta leave but I’ll miss you
TROY (ECHOING): …miss you.

So I’ve got to move on, and be who I am (Troy: why do you have to go)
I just don’t belong here,I hope you understand (Troy: trying to understand)
We might find a place in this world someday,
But at least for now, (Troy: I want you to stay)
I gotta go my own way

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am (Troy: what about us?)
I just don’t belong here,I hope you understand (Troy: try to understand)
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

yes, it's from HSM2, but this song is really nice!

later, toony

at this point... i really don't know what to say le.

i just know i'm retreating further into my shell.

isolation...

i think i'll be disappearing from MSN for a while.

till i get better, people.

till i get better.

later, toony

desperately needs band prac.

i learned a new duet today!

which i don't know if i should love or hate.

love cos i can play it rather well and it sounds rather nice.

hate cos it requires the two players to have their arms crossed. and that is awfully uncomfortable.

have to agree with Stuart, it's rather impossible to play at that speed ><

but it's rather fun too ^^

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i'm seriously seriously dreading it.

shouldn't have signed up. damn it.

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the impossible stress.

i don't think i can handle it.

can i back out now?

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listen to the duet i learnt today!

it's fun ^^

later, toony

oh my gosh!!!


i just realised that Kiroro really is a band!


it's Mirai E or something like that that we've been playing!

haiz...


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DOES ANYONE KNOW HOW BORING HOLIDAYS CAN GET??

I DON'T WANT TO DO HOMEWORK!

commonwealth essay first!

but they all look so difficult... T_T


and i don't know how to do the commonwealth question T_T

haiz... never mind ba.

NO MOTIVATION TO WORK!!!

die le ><

AHHHHH!!! I'M GOING NUTS!!!

boredom does such things to people.

T_T

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and i forgot everything about polygons!!!

zzz...

i think i better work hard. quickly. ><

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lazy post song today.

I LOVE MY SECTION ^^

later, toony

i'm changing.

i'm really really changing.

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that feeling... just seems to have *poofed* away.

i don't know why either. really i don't.

maybe it's cos of my increasingly sensitive guilty conscience?

maybe i'm growing numb-er and numb-er?

or is it because i've realised i don't need my 'other half' right now?

i think it's mainly the last one.

i really really belong somewhere now.

i know i'll leave in 3 more years... but for now... i don't want anyone to distract me from fully appreciating what i have right now.

i think i'm letting go of that bit... i think i'll just bury it until the time's right.

i've got good friends now... and i know they'll never leave me.

i've got great seniors who take really good care of me.

and i've got God.

...

no, i really don't need anything else right now.

and i am so glad i've made this decision.

it's a huge burden gone ^^

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i'm a good girl.

i've just checked my homework list!

applause please!

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by the way, i need to copy answers for that history worksheet.

yes, i forgot everything ><

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Avalon - Everything To Me

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free

I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary

But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same
Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history

He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be

I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see

Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history

He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything

And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history

You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me

Lord, you're everything to me

everything to me(:

later, toony

oh man...

i miss camp already T_T

and no band for a month... haiz...

shall work on homework in that month. jia you jia you!

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haiz, very tired. my body's starting to ache.

and i've got a date with God in a week plus two days.

and i can't wait! cool man ^^

and OH MY GOSH HOW COME EVERYONE KNOW LE T_T

no surprise le... T_T

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yes i'm a very surprising girl ^^

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I MISS BAND CAMP!!!

MARCH HOLIDAYS! COME QUICKLY!

and no more lettuce ball, please?

DAMN I REALLY MISS BAND CAMP!!!

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anyone wants to go watch Ms Leong perform?

and anyone wants to watch Enchanted with me?

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wait. i'm online to check homework.

zzz...

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i've got a big cut on my toe.

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S.H.E. - 老婆

从昨天到今天还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边
爱的心痛的心等待的心
因为你们的拥抱我很放心

当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有些茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

从昨天到今天还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边
爱的心痛的心等待的心
因为你们的拥抱我很放心

当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有些茫然迷惑
朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

请记得约定的旅程到永久

OH MAN I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU GUYS ^^

later, toony

my 300th post ^^

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band camp was a blast man.

only there really was a LOT of time in between...

and oh my gosh! i miss camp already...

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hmm. i shall make an attempt at detailing camp.

when i first reached school, i went to the band room to look for seniors and all that. after attendance-taking, we went to clear up the Spice Rooms and claim territory! VERY EXCITING ONE HOR. lol.

after that, we went off for band prac. and and and CHERYL HO MADE ME PLAY FIRST ALONE T_T for Green Day, at least. and Maria came! oh and Sheryl came too! so i didn't have to play third part alone that much after all ^^

lunch was an okay affair... main thing was the games after we watched Hairspray. oh and they provided us with popcorn and treats during the movie, SO COOL RIGHT!

anyway, they were trying to tell us that if we work together, nothing is impossible. then we had to walk across paper plates in under 5 minutes. at first, we had 4 groups. then we merged to become 2 groups. still, it wasn't possible to get us all there, so how?

we worked together as one whole band, and we got the job done(:

anyway, while we were jumping across the plates, it was rather smooth sailing cos it was nicely spaced out and all that. so, jump jump jump very quickly, so cool :D

then i came one paper plate which was super super super far away, so i stopped lor. then everyone behind me all put on 'emergency brake' and Cheryl Ho banged into Pan-E. OH MY GOSH THAT WAS SO FUNNY ^^

anyway, next was 'walk of faith' (by the way, i didn't get my sweet T_T) which involved loads of water! so fun ^^ crawled around on grass, people splashed us with water, we splash the majors with water, jumped into big rafts with water, splash people with that water and moved from high chair to low chair to high chair.

it's during games like this where everything gets so dangerous that you're thankful for a familiar voice. so it was all cool when i heard Lynn's and Yia Kuan's voice as they guided me through the dangerous maze of chairs (although i still got quite an unpleasant bump ><)

anyway, we walked off for barbeque and all after that. then we had to walk through the sec 3s holding water bombs! (i found an unused one and i managed to splash Lynn with it ^^) so, bottom line is, we all got really really REALLY wet ^^

barbeque was not bad, and i met Jasmine! ^^

i think i ate more marshmallows than anything. melted marshmallows taste quite like meringues. really really tasty ^^

had our shower and supper after that. oh man, i actually didn't expect you guys to wait for me leh! and yet you guys did... yay ^^

OH MY GOSH THE GREEN BEADS ARE SO DIFFICULT TO FIND! IT'S DARK CAN! i hate the dark ><

anyway, before lights out... what's this? we got a new doctor? and oh my gosh, my heartbeat's irregular? CPR?? OH MY GOSH NO!! *rolls to the side* oh my gosh the doctor's pushing my back. so lame sia.

and who's the doctor? haven't you guessed? it's.... CHERYL HO!

lights out... eh, lights out why everyone prank calling seniors arh? TSK ARH!

didn't get much sleep at night. got some noisy people talking a lot. sigh... then in the morning, i gave up on trying to go back to sleep at about 7. so... pack sleeping bag and go look for people to brush teeth with! ^^

had milo dissolved in cold water! (it's like... odd that it was possible ><) and prata as well! but no eggs T_T

section bonding was so cool lol. spraying each other while looking for ping pong balls lol ^^

sliding across benches and really colliding with people is so fun too! it's like...

SLLLLLLLLLLIIIIIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEE

BANG!

OWWWWWWWWWWWW!

oh my gosh so fun ^^ and i kept banging into Huda and Lynn ^^

and we now have an official section game ^^

foot drills was just.... sian. i HATE marching on the spot man i HATE it. i hate drills lah T_T

after that... lettuce ball. GROSS LAH ><

and cos of all that very very strenous exercise, i totally didn't want to eat. at all. haiz ><

oh well, i think Yia Kuan should eat more. and i can't believe they took my ice-cream suggestion seriously ><

band prac was okay, and i wasn't alone again! cos Sheryl came and played with me! ^^

oh my gosh Superman is one weird piece ><

we packed up after that and voted for our T-shirt design. CELESTINE NG YOU LIAR. you design one then SAY LAH pfft -.-

hmm... now, some thank yous...

THANK YOU Lynn, for the chocolate and the sweets, and for being our nice SL and for guiding me through the maze! ^^

THANK YOU Georgina, for being in my group, and for helping us find so many beads! ^^

THANK YOU Yia Kuan, for leading me through the maze (call me panda, so cute ^^)

THANK YOU Cheryl Ho, for teaching us the official clarinets game, and for being so funny throughout camp and making us all laugh, and also for waiting with me after you finished your shower ^^

THANK YOU Pan-E, for being in my group, and for telling me not to be afraid of the dark, and waiting for me after showering ^^

THANK YOU Huda, for being enthu during the three cheers part, it's so cool! and of course, waiting for me after showering ^^

THANK YOU Peiwen, for being so quiet and all, and allowing me to sleep next to you, and for waiting for me after showering ^^

THANK YOU Alyssa, for calling, but sorry i didn't pick up... but thank you ^^

THANK YOU Celestine, for being our lovely level rep and for the real cool T-shirt design, and accompanying me in our group ^^

THANK YOU Amelia, for lending me your green shirt, and for being so cool lol ^^

THANK YOU Emily, for being so cute and everything! LOL ^^

THANK YOU Fann, for being there if i got bored, and DO NOT TAKE HALF GEOG KAY? ^^

THANK YOU Tanya, for bringing your saxaphone home, and for taking pictures with me! cool man ^^

THANK YOU Ms Leong, for being so patient with us and coaching us every band prac!

and..................

THANK YOU to the committee members, for organising this camp.

and lastly, but definitely not least,

I LOVE YOU GUYS :D

and i'll never stop loving you guys :)

later, toony

*note to my seniors, thanks for taking such good care of me through this year. i doubt i'd be able to get used to band if you guys weren't around. thank you :)

i don't want to wake up and realise that all i have is worthless after all.

lalala ^^

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many many many thanks to Yilin for helping me download Greatest Story Ever Told!

oh man i love that song ^^

and i baked brownies again!

which refused to solidify until they went into the freezer.

and i'm never listening to my dad about food. ever again.

*shudder*

but anyway, they turned out rather well! ^^

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band camp tomorrow!

NO I AM NOT READY.

haiz...

and seriously, American Idiot is so NOT a nice song. Green Day MUST have better songs. pfft.

anyway, i find this a rather random post.

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hmm...

"If any of the Bible writers could have written for Our Journey, I think King Solomon might have been the best candidate.

I quote the King, "Meaningless! Meaningless! Utterly meaningless. Everything is meaningless." I'm sure he was talking about the Elements of Research class i had in graduate school. the one for which we had to go to the library and find out what refrigerators and gas pumps looked like in the 1950s.

If you take time to read through the book of Eccelesiastes, the one in which Solomon wailed on about meaninglessness, you'll see that David's son had some issues. He was the wisest man in the world, but he found wisdom to be meaningless. he was richer than Bill Gates, but he said wealth was meaningless. He built more big buildings than Donald Trump, but in the end, he decided it was all... you know... meaningless.

On and on Solomon complained - detailing enough meaningless items to make anyone miserable.

So, what's the point? If everything is so meaningless, where is the value of life?

Have you ever talked to someone who is well-educated but unhappy? Rich but sad? Talented but depressed? Beautiful but dejected?

What makes people this way? They have discovered the truth Solomon is describing: Life without God - no matter how seemingly valuable - leads to emptiness.

Flip over to the end of Ecclesiastes, where you read this hopeful verse, "Remember your Creator in the days of your youth" (12:1), and this one, "Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man" (v.13).

Without God at the center, life indeed lacks meaning. With Him there, it has purpose. Let's give meaning to every day, every class, every relationship by letting God be right in the middle of them all."

- Dave Branon

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i agree.

keep on.

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Oliver James - Greatest Story Ever Told

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could've prayed for
There you are

If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad, I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.

But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine

Its the way we touch that sends me
Its a way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile you know I'd die for
Oh baby, you're all I need

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day

But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you
Just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day

But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you
Just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

later, toony

i have to go out and shop man.

i've been told that retail therapy is helpful.

and now my dad's cooking instant noodles which is my lunch.

and seriously. i'm really really REALLY nervous.

haiz...

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my life has meaning.

i know what i'm living for.

now question is...

do you?

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don't hold me back.

and i felt euphoria when i realised i can't be held back.

my devo guide's right...

"Trust that if you're a follower of Jesus Christ, you can finish your work well. And when you arrive in heaven, you'll have the satisfaction of the Saviour's good pleasure. You will realise the hope of living in His glory forever.

And no one will hold you back."

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OH MY GOSH THE NOODLES ARE ALRIGHT! I'M NOT POISONED!

PRAISE GOD!

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kay, i think it's just the happy spurts ^^

Various Artists - Let Everything That Has Breath

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Praise you in the morning
Praise you in the evening
Praise every when I'm young and when I'm old

Praise you when I'm laughing
Praise you when I'm grieveing
Praise you every season of the soul

If we could see how much you're worth
Your power, your might, your endless love
Then surely we would never cease to praise you

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Praise you in the heavens
Joining with the angels
Praising you forever and a day

Praise you on the earth now
Joining with creation
Calling all the nations to your praise

If we could see how much you're worth
Your power, your might, your endless love
Then surely we would never cease to praise you
Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

Let everything that,
Let everything that,
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

later, toony

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY PANG YOU WEIRD LITTLE TROMBONE PLAYER WHO'S SO FUNNY AND ADORABLE ^^

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class barbeque yesterday.


haiz, the only bus that goes to East Coast Park only operates on Saturdays, Sundays and public holidays. so, no choice, cab there alone.

zzz...

first thing i ate, roasted marshmallows!

crispy on the outside, nice and soft and gooey inside. yummmmmmmmm ^^

haiz, had to carry my skates all the way over there. very heavy can ><

but it's worth it, cos i skated all over the place ^^


and Priscilla lent me the bike she rented! thank you!

didn't eat much. just ate a sausage, two seaweed chickens, a chicken wing and marshmallows ^^

pretty much skated my time away. which is really quite fun too!

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just looking at the sea... just feels you up with so much calmness.

and you finally can believe that real peace can exist in you :)

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i should cycle more. it's a lovely way of venting.

and and and OH MY GOSH I DIDN'T GAIN THAT MUCH WEIGHT!!! :D

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think of all the joy you find, when you leave the world behind...

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was reading through a friend's archives just now when i came upon this sentence...

"These 2 songs are about how at times of distress, at times of trouble, when there seems to be no way, God will make a way."

how on earth could i have forgotten...

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isn't she adorable? ^^

Bryan Adams - Nothing I've Ever Known

Right now I feel just like a leaf on a breeze
Who knows where it's blowin'
Who knows where it's goin'


I find myself somewhere I never thought I'd be
Going round in circles
Thinking about you and me


How do I explain it when I don't know what to say
What do I do now so much has changed

Nothing I have ever known has made me feel this way
Nothing I have ever seen has made me want to stay
But here I am ready for you
I'm tornin', I'm fallin' I hear my home callin'

Hey I've never felt somethin's so strong oh no
It's like nothing I've ever known


Now you're the one I'm looking for
You're the one I need
You're the one that gives me a reason to believe
Following a star has lead to where you are
It feels so strong now this can't be wrong now


Nothing I have ever known has made me feel this way
Nothing I have ever seen has made me want to stay
But here I am ready for you
I'm tornin', I'm fallin' I hear my home callin'

Hey I've never felt somethin's so strong oh no
It's like nothing I've ever known

later, toony

OH MY GOSH!!!

I DON'T WANT TO BE THE ONLY 3rd CLARINETTIST DURING BAND CAMP!!!

want me to die issit ._.

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band prac today was cool ^^

Marissa came! oh man :)

played Kiroro ^^

oh my gosh i LOVE that song! KIRORO!!!

and HAPPY WANDERER! both rock man.

and we nodded our head to American Idiot while we were resting. ha, so fun ^^

marcato, my special note ^^

i tried out the vanilla frappe at Mccafe today!

it's really nice. but..........................

really nice = really ex = $4.50.

haiz ><

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Kelly Clarkson is one powerful singer.

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i hope she'll be okay..............................


it's... time to move on.

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marcato ILLUSTRATED!





lalala. SPECIAL NOTE! :D


NICE SONG!


Westlife - That's Where You Find Love

In your eyes, I found the greatest price
You and I could not be closer
And in your arms, is everything I want
Now I know my search is over


And I don't know where you take me
But it's exactly where I wanna be


It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home


It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love



People pass, and listen to us laugh
Wishing that they had the same thing
And our friends they ask, how we made it last
I just smile and say the same thing


I'm not sure how we got here
Baby I'm just glad that we got here


It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home


It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love
That's where you find love


It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in the place and everything that feels like home


It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been this sure, that's where you find love


Find love
That's where you find love


later, toony


P.S. notice this post seems to highlight me in a particularly bouncy hyper mood. i believe it's owing to the tea i had in the morning with a lot of sugar and the blended coffee i had just now.

kiroro kiroro kiroro kiroro kiroro!

OH MY GOSH I'M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH KIRORO!

and OH MAN WHY AM I PLAYING FIRST FOR GREENDAY!!! T_T

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saying goodbye wouldn't hurt.
i'm getting better with Kiroro ^^
waiting for me wouldn't hurt.
i can keep up with all the semiquavers and stuff like that :D
walking out to the entrance with me wouldn't hurt.
which is awesome, cos i never really could do it ^^
ohana means family. family means nobody gets left behind.
and my rhythm with it isn't all that screwed now! :D
i was left behind. but never mind. maybe it's just me.
oh man band prac rocks ^^
maybe it'll be better if you guys weren't still at the bus stop when i left.
hmm. class gathering on Thursday.
thought you guys should know. i don't like surpressing.
odd. came much faster than expected ><

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If the population of the Earth was reduced to a small town of 100 people, it would look something like this:

57% Asians
21% Europeans
14% Americans (Northern and Southern)
8% Africans

52% women
48% men

70% coloured-skin
30% caucasians

89% hetrosexual
11% homosexuals

6 people would own 59% of the whole world wealth and all of them will be from the United States of America.

80% would have bad living conditions.

70% would be uneducated.

50% underfed.

1 would die,

2 would be born.

1 would have a computer,

1 (only one) will have higher education.

When you look at the world from this point of view, you can see there is a real need for solidarity, understanding, patience and education.

Also think about the following -

This morning, if you woke up healthy, then you are happier than the 1 million people that will not survive next week.

If you never suffered a war,

the loneliness of the jail cell,

the agony of torture,

or hunger,

you are happier than 500 million people in the world.

If you can enter into a place of worship without fear of jail or death, you are happier then 3 million people in the world.

If there is a food in your fridge,

you have shoes and clothes,

you have bed and a roof,

you are richer then 75% of the people in the world.


If you have a bank account, money in your wallet and some coins in the money-box,

you belong to the 8% of the people of the world who are well-to-do.

If you read this, you are three times blessed because:

1. somebody just thought of you.
2 . you don't belong to the 200 million people who cannot read.
3 . and... you have a computer!

As somebody once said:
' - Work as if you don't need money,
- Love as if you've never been hurt,
- Dance, as if nobody can see you,
- Sing, as if no one can hear,
- Live, as if the Earth was a heaven.'

So start living & stop worrying, You don't know how lucky you are!

~many thanks to Yilin for sending this to me ^^

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i'll stop complaining too. i'm okay ^^

周杰伦&Lara - 珊瑚海

海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱(给的爱)差异一直存在(回不来)
风中尘埃(等待)竟累积成伤害

转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都)不够成熟坦白(不应该)
热情不再(你的)笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏什么期待
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来

转身离开分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱(给的爱)差异一直存在(回不来)
风中尘埃(等待)竟累积成伤害

转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都)不够成熟坦白(不应该)
热情不再(你的)笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

later, toony

as promised before i forget...

was wondering what to blog when i saw this quiz on Emily Pang's blog.

1. Do you know what's love?
God!

2. Have you been in love?
band and pandas x) and some people whom i shall not name here.

3. Who do you like now?
all my good friends ^^

4. What's on your wish right now?
for everything to go back to last year.

5. List 10 people who are top 10 to you.
darn, this isn't a very nice thing to do, is it?
but well...
(in no order whatsoever)
Fann, Celestine, Amelia, Yilin, Alyssa, Cheryl Ho, Qingyi, Emily Pang, Isabel, Melissa

6. Is 6 (Cheryl Ho) pretty/handsome?
well. everyone's beautiful, cos we're all creations of God ^^

7. How does 3 (Amelia) treat you?
really nicely :)

8. The most memorable thing 10 (Mellie) has done for you?
being the most adorably cheerful person i know ^^

9. The most memorable thing 8 (Qingyi) has said to you?
er... "join clarinets. we get to sit in the front." (first thing she said to me ma...)

10. Are you close to 2 (Celestine)?
GFFs!

11. Who is 1 (Fann)?
er. Fann?

12. Who is 9 (Isabel) to you?
THAT BIG GENTLE GIANT :)

13. What kind of person is 5 (Alyssa)?
really funny and really nice ^^

14. What is your relationship with 4 (Yilin)
hmm... church camp groupmates, cell group groupmates, children of God and my good friend ^^

15. Is 7 (Cheryl Ho) a kind person?
yeah, rather ^^

16. Name 10 people to do this quiz.
zzz
Yilin
Fann
Celestine
Isabel
Debbie
Dione
Cheryl Ho
Qingyi
Abigail
Eugenia

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why do i feel so forgotten...

...

put a plaster on that wound and let it heal.

and then we can all move on :)

...

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. "I wowed 'em," he later told his father, Bruce. "It's a killer. It's the best thing I ever wrote." It also was the last.

Brian's parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while cleaning out the teenager's locker at Teary Valley High School. Brian had been dead only hours, but his parents desperately wanted every piece of his life near them-notes from classmates and teachers, his homework.

Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven. "It makes such an impact that people want to share it. You feel like you are there." Mr. Moore said.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. "I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it," Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. "I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him."

Brian's Essay: The Room...

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings.

As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked "TV Shows I have watched", I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast wasted time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card.. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it.. The title was "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished." I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

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i liked it.

i got it from an e-mail Linda sent me, anyone who reads this, if you want the e-mail so you can pass it on, leave a tag won't you?

thanks!

random song ^^

张栋梁 - 那一年

不想出门的阴天
适合听什么音乐
流行的还是经典
只怕都跟你有些关联

说穿了无非怀念
现在与过去之间
那片段还很新鲜
所有美好记忆焦点
都集中在纷乱的那一年

只差那么一点点就不会断了线
当时我们不了解爱情里的磨练
总是要兜了一圈才发现
在之前我们太会埋怨

也许只差一点点故事就要改写
我们回不去昨天删除某些情节
等到伤口都复原才怀念
那一年那一天那世界完美无缺

说穿了无非怀念
现在与过去之间
那片段还很新鲜
所有美好记忆焦点
都集中在纷乱的那一年

只差那么一点点就不会断了线
当时我们不了解爱情里的磨练
总是要兜了一圈才发现
在之前我们太会埋怨

也许只差一点点故事就要改写
我们回不去昨天删除某些情节
等到伤口都复原才怀念
那一年那一天那世界完美无缺

只差那么一点点就不会断了线
当时我们不了解爱情里的磨练
总是要兜了一圈才发现
在之前我们太会埋怨

也许只差一点点故事就要改写
我们回不去昨天删除某些情节
等到伤口都复原才怀念
那一年那一天那世界完美无缺

later, toony

i have a golden clarinet.


which is totally off, cos clarinets aren't gold. neither are they silver. hey, they're not even made of metal ._.


and i have aching feet too.


sian-ed.


...


i can't believe i forgot about the Amazing Race!!!

only remembered at 1 am last night. haiz.


and i saw the storybook exhibition! not bad not bad ^^


i saw Joanne's trademark monkey!


...


kay, anyway, MUSIC tRACE.


WE WENT FROM 9th TO 2nd!!!


okay, actually we were first, but that stupid monkey wasn't the correct one -.-


HAIZ. oh wells, good job anyways ^^


I GOT A GOLDEN CLARINET!!!

and i had to pay $8.50 for that entrance fee. !@#$%


kay, never mind, golden clarinet x)


kay, PICTURES :D




all the participants...



a shot of the people who are too old to participate...



pretty river :D



the Mcdonalds near Raffles Place. really pretty place.



the GIGANTIC Laselle Music Academy

okay, i upload more next time ^^

lazy to post song... WHEE :D

later, toony

it's official.

my holidays are screwed.

...

i'll go brain dead soon lah, seriously.

i can't even use the computer often now. wth.

and i'm out of butter, meaning i can't bake ANYTHING.

and i don't have any books, meaning i can't study or do homework etc.

and i'm not going out. at all.

i need a life man T_T

...

haiz. my life is screwed screwed screwed...

sian.

zzz.

...

don't be so mean to me lah ><
i don't care, if you dare to go before i do, i'll kill you okay. STAY ALIVE MAN.
LIVE WITH IT MAN.

...

Mr Yap just had to use my clarinet ><

oh my gosh i was so stunned can ><

and I LOVE KIRORO!!!

and i still hate Green Day -.-

...

why am i getting that feeling everyone close to me is drifting further and further away?

never mind. maybe it's my fault.

damn mood swings ._.

...

damn. $9.80 for two badges. so nuts ._.

oh yeah, thanks man -.-

F.I.R - Forever Green

Forever green
有本事毁得彻底
不留下一丝空气
至少我相信 green

黑暗中我祈求奇迹
有爱的人不放弃
这荒凉大地
看见一片绿地

初升太阳刺痛我眼睛
在一片叶子看见森林
在这焦土之中绽放新的美丽

拥抱生命的呼吸前进的氧气
一定有希望藏在某个角落里等你
拥抱生命的灰烬挣脱的勇气
爱像一颗沙砾化作永恒的green

有本事毁得彻底
不留下一丝空气
至少我相信 green

黑暗中我祈求奇迹
有爱的人不放弃
这荒凉大地
看见一片绿地

初升太阳刺痛我眼睛
在一片叶子看见森林
在这焦土之中绽放新的美丽

拥抱生命的呼吸前进的氧气
一定有希望藏在某个角落里等你
拥抱生命的灰烬挣脱的勇气
爱像一颗沙砾化作永恒的green

爱像一颗沙砾感动心中的种子
恐惧渐渐的在漩涡之中快消失(渐渐消失)
握住极光的影子我会在不远的地平线之上
我的爱等着你

拥抱生命的呼吸前进的氧气
一定有希望藏在某个角落里等你
拥抱生命的灰烬挣脱的勇气
爱像一颗沙砾

拥抱生命的呼吸前进的氧气
一定有希望藏在某个角落里等你
拥抱生命的灰烬挣脱的勇气
爱像一颗沙砾化作永恒的green

Forever green
Forever green
Forever green

WHOO NICE SONG!!!

later, toony

whoo!

my life is boring me out.

i want to go out more.

i'm running out of pink nail polish T_T

...

made brownies yesterday.

odd, i can make evil brownies, and yesterday's were camwhore brownies and disappearing brownies.

and i forgot to add two tablespoonfuls of sugar. haiz ><

kay, pictures...





after melting chocolate with butter and dutch-processed cocoa powder...





batter in the pan just before it went into the oven (i almost put it in the oven before taking out and thinking, TAKE PICTURE TAKE PICTURE!)





my rather feeble attempt at a brownie pyramid. i think they turned out quite good.





and another picture! haiz, so camwhore-ish. tsk.


oh wells, i only have one square of brownie left. finished in less than 24 hours. so scary... my brownies are good at disappearing...


...


band prac today was quite cool.


we're playing Happy Wanderer for orientation! WHOO!


and DAMN WE'RE PLAYING GREEN DAY! i hate that piece -.-


I WANNA PLAY KIRORO!


oh wells, we had many different versions of "HA" today.


there's the thrill "HA"


HaAaAaAaAa


and the mordent "HA"


HAaA


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so spastic.


typical of Cheryl Ho -.-


kay, to end of the post before the song...




MY NAME IN CHOCOLATE SAUCE :D


五月天 - 私奔到月球


其实你是个心狠又手辣的小偷
我的心我的呼吸和名字都偷走
你才是绑架我的凶手
机车后座的我吹着风逃离了平庸


这星球天天有五十亿人在错
过多幸运有你一起看星星在争宠
这一刻不再问为什麽
不再去猜测人和人心和心有什麽不同


一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动


当你说太聪明往往还是会寂寞
我笑着倾听孤单终结后的静寞
看月亮像夜空的瞳孔
静静凝视你我和我们闹嚷的星球


靠近你怎麽突然两个人都词穷
让心跳像是野火燎原般的汹涌
这一刻让命运也沉默
让脚尖划过天和天地和地缘分的宇宙


一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动


一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动


一二三牵着手四五六抬起头
七八九我们私奔到月球
让双脚去腾空让我们去感受
那无忧的真空那月色纯真的感动


later, toony

i've drastically lost sight of what is really important.

i'll remember.

...

Grade 6 theory exam yesterday.

everything was PERFECT, until question 3.

like, seriously, it's a B flat and a C natural AND a C sharp IN THE SAME BAR! how do you expect me to get it man.

crap lah. i really wanted a Distinction T_T

and OH MAN! YIN TING!!!

...

Jolenda's party yesterday was just me being the same weird crazy me.

which was actually quite okay, really. it was nice being able to be crazy and just letting loose.

i was really able to forget all that i've been worrying about... which was really really cool...

pity, my phone died, i couldn't take any pictures whatsoever ><

well, anyways, many thanks to the lovely yellow balloon which got me the $10 Cedele Depot gift voucher!

and... my red balloon buddy is still with me ^^

Adele's blue balloon buddy was kidnapped and it flew away in an attempt to escape!

aww, Adele, never mind, i'm sure blue will miss you ^^

...

kay, some random stuff...

ever wondered what Terri would look like if she was pink?

well, now you know! :D

...

odd. it's the holidays, i should be getting more and more energised by the day. but i'm just getting sian-ed-er and sian-ed-er by the minute.

maybe i need to go out for fresh air. like... cycle a bit and all...

East Coast, anyone?

in fact, West Coast is okay with me too.

...

i miss the sea.

reminds me of my paternal cousins.

the only cousins who are just like friends...

haven't met them in years... wonder how much they've changed...

...

I wanna live my life like I hold the meaning
Deep inside my soul I hear the music screaming
Eyes wide open I'm awake and dreaming, too
I wanna be with You

oh man, i love this song...

Avalon lyrics are so full of oxymorons.

as in, how can you be awake AND dreaming? it's so... impossible.

but not when God's around :)

Jesus Christ (Once Again)

Jesus Christ, I think upon your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times, I've wondered at your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

Now you are, exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at this saving grace
I'm full of praise once again
I'm full of praise once again

And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

remember Job.

later, toony

life suddenly feels damn screwed.

oh, the grr-ish-ness of it all.

...

never mind, 15 cents, 15 cents.

...

today's pieces were so screwed up lah. totally couldn't keep up at all.

STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!

i so suck at this. i shall keep practising to become better.

watch out world.

...

was it just me, or did your voice become really gentle over the phone last night? i don't need an answer to everything.

and... thanks Alyssa(:

...

HOW TO SAVE A LIFE IS SO SUPER NICE.

but really emo. which makes me go nuts too.

oh grr T_T

...

The Fray - How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

later, toony