band prac yesterday... was magical.

if only band would stay that way for a long long time.

...

Mr Yap's the funniest ^^

"i should put a bunsen burner under your chair."

and Nicole also.

"Mr Yap, how do i make it warm?"

oh man, so retardedly cute ^^

and Parade of the Bumbling Wooden Soldiers ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS!

da da DAAA da da DAAA da da DAAAAAAA

da da dum *da daa* da da dum *da daa* da da dum *de* da *de* dadadada

er. okay. shan't be weird anymore.

PARADE OF THE BUMBLING WOODEN SOLDIERS IS SO FUN! :D

if only it would stay that way. everything would be so much better.

well, anyways, just want to say.

I LOVE SC BAND :D

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i'm going to bake brownies later.

wish me luck.

...

ooh, i didn't have breakfast today ^^

i woke up at 11!!! SO COOL RIGHT :D

kay anyways.



smiley chain i created with that ADORABLE Mellie ^^

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i can't live a day without You.


Sonicflood - Unconditional

Lord you found me
Lost in a desolate place
Now I feel your love around me
I'll follow you all of my days

I surrender
My spirit and mind Lord, to you
My heart is sold to your kingdom
Forever I want to be true, Lord to you

Your peace, it floods my soul
It's supernatural
And your amazing love is unconditional

Your joy, it overflows
It's supernatural
And your love for me is unconditional

Sweet assurance
Your grace will always endure
Whatever becomes of this vessel
Your will, will be done on earth

Lord I trust you
To move in miraculous ways
Now I feel your arms around me
And I'll worship you all of my days

And give you praise

Your peace, it floods my soul
It's supernatural
Your amazing love is unconditional

Your joy, it overflows
It's supernatural
And your amazing love unconditional

I feel your arms around me
I feel your peace inside me
Amazing love
I surrender

Peace it floods my soul
It's supernatural
Your amazing love is unconditional

Your joy, it overflows
It's supernatural
And your love for me is unconditional

Unconditional

I feel your arms aroumd me
I feel your peace inside me
Amazing love

later, toony

oh my gosh why on earth does my TV keep switching itself on.

haiz.

failure.

a stupid failure.

...

i hate this lah. seriously.

and like. i don't know what's wrong.

maybe not going to church is making me more vulnerable than ever.

maybe having to live in fear of everything being revealed is breaking me down.

but it's just... i'm so unbelievably open to attacks by Satan now.

it's getting difficult.

...

no, i don't think i want to talk about it.

cos i wouldn't know how to tell anyone about it.

maybe... on Thursday.

...

sorry, Father.

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Rebecca St. James - Forgive Me

For all the times I’ve failed You, Lord
Forgive me
For all the ways I’ve fallen short
Lord, forgive me now
God, I’m so in need of grace
I fall upon my face
Forgive me

You see the tears fall down my face
Forgive me
Take my fear, Lord, take my shame
Lord, forgive me now
Purify me, make me new
Like only You can do
Forgive me now

Lord, we come to honor You
We are forgiven
We bring our love and thanks to You
We are forgiven now
God we praise You for Your grace
Before You we are raised
Forgiven

God we praise You for Your grace
Before You we are raised
Forgiven
Forgiven

forgiven.

later, toony

i've got my brownie pan, and two bars of semisweet chocolate, PLUS two bars of bittersweet chocolate.

yay ^^

...

i just realised that although i try so hard to continue trusting people, i just can't. not anymore.

i'll never admit just how afraid i can be sometimes. i'll never admit how fragile i can get. i'll never admit it.

it's just... recently... i've lost touch of what is truly important to me. i'm so... lost. i'm just drifting through life now...

i need a reason... i need a reason to rebuild this screwed up thing i call my life.

...

i want to help people.

anyone knows where i can do CIP? an old folks' home, an orphanage, anywhere?

i'd like doing that... i think it'll be fun...

i might reconsider my ambitions. maybe being a humanitarian would be better?

hmm. truthfully, i'm not very sure. i still want to help pandas...

...

i give up a lot.

i gave up on the TUNZA thing, i gave up on Hwa Chong camp, i gave up on Hwa Chong exchange, i gave up on the ACM exhibition etc.

seriously, i have no idea why. all these are opportunities which don't come often. they would really help me in future. they'll all look wonderful on my portfolio.

TUNZA... was cos i didn't think i had much of a chance. it's representing Singapore, SINGAPORE. no no, i wouldn't have made it.

Hwa Chong exchange = giving up 5 days of school. not when my studies were that bad.

ACM exhibition was cos it took too much time. i could use this time much more wisely.

Hwa Chong Camp. i really didn't want to give this up... but i'm not free to go for it ><

wonder what else i'll give up on... i don't want to keep this up ><

oh wells.

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ALL THE BEST TO ALL J2 STUDENTS OUT THERE WHO ARE ABOUT TO TAKE A LEVELS!

and also...

ALL THE BEST TO ALL SEC 4S OUT THERE WHO ARE ABOUT TO TAKE O LEVELS!

by the way, if any J2 student or sec 4 student is reading this, what on earth are you doing here? ;)

anyways, random song

周杰伦 - 轨迹

怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙
我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻
那想念的身影

如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻
那想念的身影

如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你会看不见

highlight, RANDOM song.

later, toony

watching emo shows and emo people makes me in an emo mood too.

sian-ed.

...

what for spend all your free time working for your ambitions?

she's a 15-year-old pianist who goes around the country performing. she practises 8 hours a day.

let's count. school should take about 5 hours, that's 13 hours of the day gone. let's add in 8 hours of sleep. that's 3 hours left for fun, socialising and study. and i believe she'd use that 3 hours to study.

so, that's fun and socialising gone.

you're so caught up with ensuring success, you end up neglecting the people who love and care about you. you're just going to end up alone.

when you're alone, you'll realise that success, glory, that status, it doesn't matter anymore. it's all meaningless.

and it's even more so if you neglect God, or if you don't listen to Him all through your life.

in the end, it's not your status or your wealth that people remember. it's what you've done for them that leaves the greatest impression on people. in the end, it's just between you and God.

if you choose to spend all your life working for yourself, you'll realise that it'll all just be meaningless in the end.

...

i'm a friend.
if you're numb, i can help you to get rid of it. a massage, a walk, whatever, i'm willing to help. if you're cold, i can lend you a quilt, and i can light a candle. if you're just too cool, i can help deflate egos. i'll do whatever i can to help, i promise.
i'll do anything to help. i promise.

...

there's just too much that time cannot erase.

...

it's good to have friends.

and it took me quite a long while to realise how great they are.

i love you guys ^^

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling 更离不开你

hmm. can't find the song ><

later, toony

i was wrong when i said i could look back and laugh about this in a few years.

i can do it now.

kinda dumb to allow a basketball match to ruin school spirit. and school spirit is exactly what i love about SC.

so, truce, peeps?

let's keep the SC spirit alive man! :D

...

i've never had anyone who actually knows me tagging unfriendly comments on my blog.

novel experience.

and calling me a bitch... that's something different too.

...

why am i so unaffected...

I'VE STOPPED CARING ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT PEOPLE HATE ME!

and it's a rather interesting thing too ^^

I'M SO WEIRD! :D

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last day of school.

never expected me to miss 1SY '07...

but i will.

i've never missed my previous classes... i don't miss 6SY '06, and i don't miss 4P '04.

but i really will miss 1SY '07...

i'm thinking about those times we went crazy together.

for instance, in the geog room where we tried to scare Ms Sie, but failed miserably, and we all ended up laughing with and at each other.

and also, the euphoria after we won the AOS competition. the teacher had said we were one of the worse classes, and we won.

not forgetting the party after the actual performance. although it had such a sour end, i'll never forget it. it's pretty much the only time where we actually had real fun with each other.

i'm not going for the gathering.

forgive me for that.

...

i hate this.

i want my _ _ _ _ _ _ _back.

sucks lah... everything's so different now...

as much as i hate it, i can't do anything to keep it from falling apart.

i'm too young, it isn't my place to say anything.

...

i'm sorry... i'm letting you guys down...

i just wish it would all go back to the days when i first joined you guys.

and i wish it would stay that way...

i miss you guys. please come back.

:(

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赞美之泉 - 愿为主闪亮

我只是浩瀚沙海中的一粒沙
渺小且缺乏
而主耶稣接纳我深深地疼爱我
领我入主爱之家

他温柔慈爱融解了我所有地忧伤
他奇妙双手细数过我每一根头发
我如此不配而主慈爱呼唤不曾停下
我一生一世愿为主闪亮

我只是浩瀚沙海中的一粒沙
渺小且缺乏
而主耶稣接纳我深深地疼爱我
领我入主爱之家

他温柔慈爱融解了我所有地忧伤
他奇妙双手细数过我每一根头发
我如此不配而主慈爱呼唤不曾停下
我一生一世愿为主闪亮

他温柔慈爱融解了我所有地忧伤
他奇妙双手细数过我每一根头发
我如此不配而主慈爱呼唤不曾停下
我一生一世愿为主闪亮

keep on.

later, toony

i'm totally in love with sudoku.

and i finally got my picture. thanks guys ^^

scrapbooking shall be finished over the holidays.

...

i'll need another lineless notebook.

haiz. pity, i'm so out of $$$

...

okay, let's get something straight...

people who weren't playing then, stay out of this cos you don't know what was going on in the game.

secondly, we're bitchy? who were the people cheering for SE when SY was playing against them? and it was after we beat you in the basketball match. morals? complaining about morals? WOW.

thirdly, although my impression of you guys are getting worse, i did vote for your class today. yes, it was really good, so thanks for that nice show.

fourthly, you guys aren't really such nice people after all, i never should have had such a good impression of you.

fifthly, didn't we promise to leave it all in that green court?

and, most importantly, i don't need anyone flaming SY anymore. and i will get everyone to stop flaming you guys too.

and yes, i'm really sorry it turned out like this.

...

yeah, Mel's right, getting pissed isn't going to help. so i won't get pissed. not anymore.

...

Thursday.

argh, DAMMIT!

...


i think the sec ones '07 are a really really unbonded batch.

PEACE, EVERYONE.

...

我好想好想飞逃离这个疯狂世界...

it's crazy.

五月天 - 晚安地球人 + 疯狂世界

紫皮肤大脑袋
血液不绿也不蓝
在我已经毁灭的星球
我比五月天还帅

那一年大逃难
爸爸把我丢上船
光的速度能比爱恨快
所以我也忘了哭

来到这里 一光年外

沉睡七年的蝉
换取七天的灿烂
生命穿过漫长年代
直到名为人类的灾难

诸葛亮赤壁战
万人一冢的豪迈
千年之后重回荧幕里
还是征战的舞台

难道会又重来
妈妈她说的混乱
谁能还清自己的卡债
谁能控制核子弹

谁能顿悟 轮回会来

大人在冷气房作战
小孩在太阳下逃难

石油田的干旱
华尔街卷起灾难
终于人们发射了飞弹
捍卫自己的晚餐

多害怕在未来
人类对一切习惯
拿着字典一页页的翻
始终找不到的字

是不是爱
是不是爱
是不是爱

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回

YES, THERE JUST ISN'T ENOUGH LOVE AMONG US MAN!!!

it's pissing.

later, toony

completely sian-ed of school.


i seriously seriously don't want to go to school tomorrow.



...



haiz, basketball match today...


totally sian lah. supposed to be having fun leh... but like... don't have to make it so ugly ba...


want to win so much, please do it fairly can? don't cheat, particularly if the referees can't see it.


and arh, don't treat us so unfairly, please. i get really upset, and if i get really upset, it's really not good for you.



and most importantly, don't like us then say lah. we beat your class in a match doesn't mean you have to be such ******* and cheer the other class on.


forget it. it's over, don't want to think about it anymore.


and i'm sorry for all the trouble caused ><

...



head spinning.

i don't want to play like that anymore.


...


i'm an extra person.




replica chapel.






the golden cross made from stolen things.





messages from the visitors to the replica of the chapel





the wooden board on one of the walls of the chapel





cranes from Japan...








the cross on the chapel.






Ford factory without the big big word FORD on the roof lol.





Kranji war memorial. this gives a better view of the structure that represents the navy. the background looks like a painting... just realised that this is actually quite a nice picture...





the many many MANY graves there. all rather neat... really pretty...




the view as you walk into the memorial...


Planetshakers - Rain Down


I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out Your name



Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace



Rain down on me rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me



I'm longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace

Rain down on me rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me


Rain down on me rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me



Sweet anointing wash me over
Sweet anointing wash me over
Sweet anointing wash me over
Sweet anointing wash me over

later, toony

Hwa Chong camp or band prac?


if only i could be in two places at once T_T


...


feel in a slack-ish mood.


and since I'M the teacher, all the 'weaklings' will have to follow ME.


BEWARE MAN :D


...


feeling rather sian-ed of school.


go school, waste time, get scolded... what's the point lah...


wake up at 6 + am just to go to school and play Uno or Speed or Stress. like, i can do much more USEFUL stuff at home, and i get to wake up late.


there isn't even any more band pracs in school lah. okay, maybe pon school today and tomorrow, go school on Friday for sectionals, done.


please, stop wasting my time -.-

...


ALL THE BEST TO SEC 4s FOR O LEVELS!!!


while you guys go school, rush some studying, we go school and slack.


then next week, when A levels start, we'll be holidaying and everyone will be having major exams.


^^

...


some random stuff...




amazon cake batter. it seemed rather nice ^^



slice of the amazon cake. looked rather nice, smelled equally good, but the taste of flour was overpowering. time to tweak the recipe...



LOL FANN! you dare to take, i dare to post. see if you dare to do it again. HA. HA. HA.



taken in the spooky toilet before AOS rehearsal after school. not bad ba! :D

F.I.R - 三个心愿

我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面想带你环游世界

我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑
脸在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边什么都很ok

第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~

为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句ok
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman

这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪

第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领

第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
下一个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领

later, toony

i'm back from Malaysia, i know you missed me, no need to pretend ^^

and yes, i missed you too ^^

...

my clarinet is so heavy T_T

carried it from school to Bukit Panjang Plaza to the LRT station to my piano teacher's house.

my arm was rather sore after that ><

and i shouldn't have spent $7 buying my dinner ><

and YES! i'm a helper WHOO!

...

weekend in Malaysia totally sucked.

i wanted to see my grandma again :(

sian lah... what if she accidentally cuts herself while cooking today? i won't have a grandmother anymore... :(

well... at least my grandfather is better. he's taking medicine now! praise God! :D

and i found THREE new mosquito bites today -.-

...

battlefield tour today.

Changi museum was quite cool. just wished we could stay longer. and i can't believe the lavatory was so small! their lives must have been so super gross ><

Ford factory... got some weirdo people wearing some white uniforms shouting OI to us today. and we walked up the driveway that the british commander walked up to surrender to the Japanese... rather cool ^^

the word Ford was gone lol.

Kranji war memorial... being flag bearer is rather fun ^^

and my gosh, the place is beautiful.

reading out the rememberance message part... ><

thank you, all you soldiers who died for us, who died so we could be free(:

...

NS IS IMPORTANT!!!

F.I.R - 你的微笑

喜欢用我的音调 唱出你的味道
这一秒有种感觉甜蜜的发酵
一百种言语知道 爱有一个声道
才明了是你眼神传来的暗号

太多的幸福报到 拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑投入你怀里然后撒娇
不需要别人来教 把爱紧紧抓牢
这一秒决定拥抱你给的美好

爱情是你独特的味道
在我的心中围绕
别人都不了只有你知道
因为你世界不再单调
我的微笑你明白就很好

你就像月亮绕着轨道
拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑编织了每一个奇妙

太多的幸福报到 拼凑爱的美妙
笑一笑投入你怀里然后撒娇
不需要别人来教 把爱紧紧抓牢
这一秒决定拥抱你给的美好

爱情是你独特的味道
在我的心中围绕
别人都不了只有你知道
因为你世界不再单调
我的微笑你明白就很好

你就像月亮绕着轨道
拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑编织了每一个奇妙

爱情是你独特的味道
在我的心中围绕
别人都不了只有你知道
因为你世界不再单调
我的微笑你明白就很好

你就像月亮绕着轨道
拥抱着地球闪耀
在我的星球写下惊叹号
有了你世界神魂颠倒
你的微笑编织了每一个奇妙

later, toony

SO DARN SLEEPY.

after dozing off for one minute, i was awoken by Perfect by Simple Plan. and i was lots more energised after that ^^

whoo ^^

...

school was boring. as usual. totally expected. haiz.

EQ thing was okay ba... almost fell asleep in it haiz.

*yawns*

Fann's so slow in speed -.-

then when i get the smaller pile she make so much noise.


TSK.

...

haiz... it's good to be able to unload stuff.


puts people in a better mood...

the grey refuses to turn colourful.

and i will CHEER UP.

cos there's nothing that will make Jesus stop loving me.

absolutely NOTHING.


so Satan, GO AWAY!

...

i'm beautiful in His eyes.

:)

...


went Toa Payoh today.

THANKS SO MUCH TO LAO SHI WHO'S TREATING US TO THE BOSTON CHOCOLATE CAKE WHICH COSTS $38! :D

it wasn't as difficult to bring home as i expected ^^

...

STUPID SBS TRANSIT BUS DRIVER!!!

I'M IN MY SCHOOL UNIFORM AND THAT DOESN'T PROVE I'M A STUDENT???

WHAT'S THAT LAH!

...

today's movies were kinda cool, kinda boring, kinda scary.

I DON'T WANT TO GO LABRADOR PARK T_T

...

kay, anyway, here's a SUPER nice song Yilin sent me ^^


Avalon - You Were There

I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight

'Cause You were there, You were there
In the midst of danger's snare
You were there, You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, You brought a lamb

'Cause You were there,You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, you were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So haven't I learned that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You
There You were

Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there, You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there, You were there always

You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands

You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

You're always there... :)

next album i'm going to buy will definitely be by Avalon.

either that, or you can buy that for me ;)

later, toony

i'm gonna get bruises -.-

don't hit so hard lah!

...

recess today was funny. like. real funny.

good to have wacky seniors like ****** ***.

name censored to save her from eternal shame LOL.

...

the hardest part of love... it really is to listen.

so... thanks for listening... it's enough... not everyone can do that...

i'll learn... in time... i'll learn to look at myself the way God does...

maybe... by doing that... i might learn to stop hating... me.

...

help...

the burden... it's weighing me down...

i can't keep this facade up anymore.

i can't pretend to laugh and be crazy when there's just too much...

...

i'm so tired.

yes... maybe i'm the one getting the most hurt. but it would be much better if no one else got hurt... i'm willing to carry everything... i'd do anything... to take it all back...

i'm sorry... i never wanted anyone getting hurt...

i'm sorry Father...

...

it's so heavy.

...

Noel Richards - You Laid Aside Your Majesty

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands of those You have created

You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You my God
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever I will love You

You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to you in adoration

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands of those
You have created

You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign in heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You my God
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever I will love You

You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to you in adoration

I really want to worship You my God
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever I will love You

You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to you in adoration

i love You, Father.

later, toony

i don't want to go out with her anymore. she makes me feel so inferior.


don't ask me why i never talk to you. i tried, okay. and how did you respond?


"don't waste my time."


fine, whatever. i just wanted you to listen, it was too difficult, fine.


...

the loneliness hasn't faded.


i hate this... :(


...


i finally got my converse shoes ^^

the super narrow box with my shoes inside.

my super thin shoes inside the box.



my pink shoes outside the box ^^.

yes, it's pink -.-





big floating water bottle lol.



hey Tigger. your top is made of rubber, your bottom is made of springs. you're bouncy, flouncy, trouncy, pouncy, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun!

you're a wonderful thing, Tigger :)

...

hurts to know...

never mind, forget it.

a wonderful figment of my imagination. the most perfect facade ever.

周杰伦 - 枫

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

it's...

later, toony

just to start the post off... SO CUTE RIGHT!!!

*yawn*

today was a complete waste of my time.

COMPLETE.

and there was some super irritating buzzing today. wouldn't stop for an hour. so irritating.

feeling rather sian-ed right now. and like, please lah. my lesson plan is non-exsistant ._.

...

random pictures...




how i just love to dominate the camera ^^



that is called a burn. it's like... swelling. *shudder*

...

what's that lah -.-

*sleepy person alert, sleepy person alert*

i keep falling asleep ><

杨丞琳 - 可爱

咖啡已经温热不再
静静在一旁发呆
连风也停留窗外
等待

电话也已经喧闹不再
静静在一旁无奈
时钟也不知怎么
停下来

期待突然醒来
有你温暖依赖
只是爱与不爱
在徘徊 摇摆

我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并
没有那么可爱

我想你明白这并不是爱
我想你忘了什么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱

电话也已经喧闹不再
静静在一旁无奈
时钟也不知怎么
停下来

期待突然醒来
有爱可以依赖
只是爱与不爱
在徘徊 摇摆

我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并
没有那么可爱

我想你明白这并不是爱
我想你忘了什么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱

我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并
没有那么可爱

我想你明白这并不是爱
我想你忘了什么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱

later, toony

*yawns*

i miss Forever Love T_T

...

got back all my marks. finally.

it's over... finally finally over.

freedom(:

...

so... a whole year of education is over.

just like that. poof.

was the journey enjoyable?

...

caught in a rat race to emerge the top, being forced to spend nights on homework and days on learning, being unable to sleep due to that unsolvable math problem.

enjoyable? NOT.

now, there isn't a sense of satisfaction, no relief, nothing.

just a tired, exhausted brain.

...

*yawns*

should i go for that ACM thing?

aww... >< ... you'll never know exhaustion until you get to secondary school. either that, or it's
just my school ><

holidays... come quickly ><

...



just to show that miracles do happen ^^

and this is a REAL miracle. seriously. i never dreamt i'd be able to beat YILIN.

oh yes, and Yilin used his bomb and got 1 mine LOL.

I will never be the same
I have found the love
No heart could frame

I will never be alone
I have found a peace
That stills my soul

Oh I believe
The King of heaven
Died for me

Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me
And this I know
Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me

I'll forever sing Your song
Blessed be the Lord Almighty God
And I will never be so moved
Knowing I am held
And raised with You

Oh I believe
The King of heaven
Died for me

Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me
And this I know
Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me

If I speak in tongues of angels
If I gained the riches of this world
If understand Your mystery
But have not love
What have I got?

Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me
And this I know
Jesus loves me
Jesus loves me

later, toony

marking days rock.

the rest after the stress, whoo ^^

...

strange, still can't seem to eat without getting the urge to throw up.

well, i'll just have to eat less ba... and see how it is after theory exam.

...

haiz, got so much to vent, but i really don't know if i should vent here.

...

i don't want anyone toworry about me i don't want anyone to be upset because of my problems i don't want anyone to be down because of me i don't want to know it's cos of me and i seriously seriously hate this which means that i seriously seriously hate my lack of courage. look, i'm trying really really hard to love this creation of God but it just keeps getting harder and harder with each day, and i'm really really sorry for all this so just ignore this section won't you?

...

did anyone know that ants are attracted to blood? i had so many crawling around my bloodstained tissue.

okay, in case you're wondering, it was a nosebleed, nothing more, so no worries ^^

...

should i make my pictures bigger? yes i should.

random pictures...



during teachers' day, just fooling around in class lol. MELLIE'S SO CUTE RIGHT!



cheesy lava pizza from Priscilla's birthday gathering. i forgot to take the picture when it first came out, and that's all that was left when i remembered ><



in More Than Words while waiting for Linda and Priscilla. Winnie the Pooh and i go so well together ^^ oh man my fringe is so ugly ><



rainbow on my face :)



the table in the Nokia bus where i could study.



that indifferent look. haiz.



random picture lol.



still indifferent -_-



Qingyi and me at Somerset MRT station on the way to Planetshakers ^^ quite old, yes, i know.



LOVE! :D should have drawn the missing people in : Zhu En, Tian En, Clement...

whee ^^

...

ow, just knocked my head against the wall.

...

random, i know ^^

五月天 - 倔强

当我和世界不一样
那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说
就是以刚克刚

我如果对自己妥协
如果对自己说谎
即使别人原谅
我也不能原谅

最美的愿望
一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神
在我活的地方

我和我最后的倔强
握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强
我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂
就这一次我和我的倔强

对爱我的人别紧张
我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏
眼神越是发光

你不在乎我的过往
看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过
才能出现凤凰

逆风的方向
更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡
只怕自己投降

我和我最后的倔强
握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强
我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂
就这一次我和我的倔强

我和我最后的倔强
握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强
我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂
就这一次我和我的倔强

就这一次让我大声唱
lalalala...
就算失望不能绝望
lalalalala...
就这一次我和我的倔强

whee ^^

later, toony

i want to hibernate.

sian lah. haven't been sleeping enough.

so, thank God tomorrow and Tuesday are marking days! NO NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL! shall RECHARGE.

whee ^^

...

no, forgiving isn't easy.

i want to accomplish that.

and i was wrong when i said no one taught me how to forgive.

Jesus died so God would forgive us...

and i shall learn from Him. yeah.

...

有些事要流过泪才看的到...

i agree.

...

random pictures...



oh gosh SO EMO.



during Hwa Chong band concert. all my spastic sec 2 seniors being spastic. haiz.



the empty hall of Hakka Methodist. it's really pretty.



us loving our instruments in BK lol.



I CAN HOLD THE POPPER! WHOO!




he's actually holding his pen. applause please!



so hardworking. unlike me ^^"

okay okay, shall stop fooling around with pictures ^^

it appears that i'm in a slight Linkin Park obsession phase. but there's no doubt that their songs are much more meaningful than any other band's lyrics have been.

Linkin Park - Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling I can't seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming,confusing what is real
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling, confusing what is real

whee ^^

later, toony

no matter how many people highly doubt i can do it, i won't give up.

i'm still aiming high on the exco board. i don't care how many people don't think i can do it, i'll show them. i'll prove them wrong.

i'm fuelled by LOVE.

and if i don't get it, i won't fall out with anyone, CONFIRM.

...

i have to thank Lynn. like... really thank Lynn.

Lynn... may seem like the *scary, stern* sort, but really, she's not lah.

talking to me about band... really really motivated me to do all that i can for band.

"the most important thing at the end of the day is giving back to band what she has given you"

i will. thanks Lynn :)

...

whoo another 4 hour long piano lesson.

tried out my teacher's sister's flute today. i was the only one present who could make a sound ^^

i like the flute. it produces quite a lovely sound. but still, it doesn't beat the clarinet.

was asked to bring my clarinet for the next lesson, set it up and show them how to play it. a bit nervous, cos i haven't practised in ages and i'm wasn't really good to start with ><

and you know what? MY TEACHER COOKED! AMAZING RIGHT!

...

if you're not happy, don't vent it on me please.
ah crap. did he see me cry?

...

i love music. i really really love music.

cheers people up from the bottom of your soul. so cool ^^

hide me in the world of music. it wouldn't hurt as much.

...

Come And See

Come and see, come and see
Come and see the King of love
See the purple robe and crown of thorns
He wears

Soldiers mock, rulers sneer
As He lifts the cruel cross
Lone and friendless now He climbs towards
The hill

We worship at Your feet
Where wrath and mercy meet
And a guilty world is washed
By love's pure stream

For us He was made sin
Oh, help me take it in
Deep wounds of love cry out
'Father, forgive'

I worship, I worship
The Lamb who was slain.

Come and weep, come and mourn
For your sin that pierced him there
So much deeper than the wounds of thorn
And nail

All our pride, all our greed
All our fallenness and shame
And the Lord has laid the punishment
On Him

We worship at Your feet
Where wrath and mercy meet
And a guilty world is washed
By love's pure stream

For us He was made sin
Oh, help me take it in
Deep wounds of love cry out
'Father, forgive'

I worship, I worship
The Lamb who was slain.

Man of heaven, born to earth
To restore us to your heaven
Here we bow in awe beneath
Your searching eyes

From your tears comes our joy
From your death our life shall spring
By your resurrection power we shall rise

We worship at Your feet
Where wrath and mercy meet
And a guilty world is washed
By love's pure stream

For us He was made sin
Oh, help me take it in
Deep wounds of love cry out
'Father, forgive'

I worship, I worship
The Lamb who was slain.
I worship, I worship
The Lamb who was slain.

oh mans, such a nice song.

aiyah, i'm lazy to post pictures.

and i cut my hair! it's like, so light now. so nice right ^^

later, toony

it's over. finally over.

all that i've been studying for this year, it was over at 12 28 hrs 05/10/07. finally, finally over.

okay, before i get serious, shall talk about what i started.

at about 12 25 hrs, i turned back to stare at the clock as it went to 12 26. people who saw me laughed, then turned back themselves. soon, i had 3/4 of the class staring at the clock.

12 27. last 50 seconds. 50, 49, 48, 47, 46 .................................

last 10 seconds. surprisingly excited. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

"pens, down, i'm coming to collect your papers now."

muffled "YAY!"

after collection...

"okay, i shall give you one minute to cheer now."

OH YEAH! WHOO!

it's over. yes, it's over. one long, tiring week. finally, finally over.

went Orchard. i think it's cos i was super tired already, so didn't really get very hyper in Orchard.

quite sian-dening, felt super sick after lunch. haiz. think there's something wrong with my body. almost threw up after breakfast today ><>< ... hmm... pictures from my cousin's cousin's wedding.



first dish of the day! prawns, duck, eggs and something... chicken and jellyfish. jellyfish actually doesn't taste that bad. hmm.



popping champagne. my cousin's cousin is the bride, by the way (no need to say which one is the bride right... -_- and those shiny thingys are BUBBLES! SO PRETTY RIGHT!



clearest shot i had of the bride in her wedding gown. so pretty right! the extra female is her sister (from NCC arh) and the other extra figure is their brother (ACS independent guy attempting to speak Chinese = RIDICULOUS.)



the cake and the lovely background. the small lights all around it are from candles. i found it really pretty, and the concept is excellent (only one of the branches caught fire halfway through dinner O.O)



aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand... THE CAKE! SO PRETTY RIGHT! pity, it's fake -.- sickening lah, i wanted to eat one of the flowers. it even has dust OH MY GOSH.

hmm. not enough pictures. shall go hunt for some more.

random collection.



taken in ACS Oldham Hall dining area. not bad, it's a huge place, but very sticky ><



can't believe a boarding house has such a thing. so pretty...



flowers from Viva La Band! see the vase? that's my trophy from Forever Love ^^



the super pro 13-year-old RG girl. she'd be really cool if she wasn't from RG. PFFT.



the cake which i helped slant ><



the bell on the bus back home from NJ concert. okay okay, this is the first time, repeat, the FIRST time i've seen a bell so high up. whole bus was staring at me as i took this picture ><

Linkin Park - Papercut

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left

I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head

It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall

(And watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse

I don't know what set me off first but
I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can

Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall

(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

The face inside is right beneath your skin
The face inside is right beneath your skin
The face inside is right beneath your skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me (Repeat until end)

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin (Repeat until end)

...

i've never wanted to do well in something so badly. i really really want it... but it's not just her who thinks i can't make it...

i hate this sort of crap lah.

...

later, toony