Tuesday, July 31, 2007

i can blast without my clarinet.

i can blast without a clarinet.

just ask Fann, Amelia, Sylvia and Amilyn. they were present then ^^

heh. today showcased some of the talentED and the talentLESS. :D

seriously man, i just love blasting without my clarinet. (basically yelling out songs at the top of your voice)

ha. i seriously wonder why Amilyn would rather jingle the bells then play jingle bells with us. LOL.

and i'm rather thankful i had seniors around to play Last Ride of the Pony Express with me. thanks seniors! (Pei Wen, Pan E and Cheryl Ho) :D

AND I FINALLY GOT MY RUBBER BAND BACK!!! :D

haiz, wanted Sylvia to play her Sunrise and Safari solo again lah. it's like, the first solo i ever heard her play... and that's probably the last i'll be hearing for a long long time... sad :(

i don't know if i should look forward to handover. seriously, i want to join main band, but i don't want the sec 4s to leave either.

pity, there's nothing i can do. if i had a choice, i would want to join main band and sec 4s stay forever... but that's impossible.

...

enough about band! we did hip hop during PE today. rather interesting. did it with 4SY and 3GR. that's Sheryl Cheng and Rachel. it was rather fun ^^ went crazy, and we banged into each other rather often ^^

pity lah, next PE lesson is the same day as National Day, or i'd be doing with 4GR and 2SY. Marissa (Maria), Cheryl Ho and Pan E. pity ><

I MADE SUCH A NICE SHIRLEY TEMPLE. OF COURSE IT'S PRETTY, I MADE IT OKAY! :D

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i can't stand doing groupwork with you anymore. when you get so stressed, you just start blocking everyone else out and just become so selfish.

and please, please, please, don't ask me to make a choice between classmates and seniors. i love my seniors, i really do, okay. and a friend wouldn't put me in such a position. there's already that giant gaping hole, do me a favour, please don't enlarge it.

standing at crossroads, knowing full well you can't have both. it's terrible. and you wouldn't know how it feels like, cos you've never had that experience.

grow up.

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i hate making choices. i hate feeling the way i did during Home Econs.

here's a shoutout, people. don't EVER leave me alone with a sharp object when i fall as silent as i did during Home Econs.

BLOODY HELL WHY CAN'T I DO ANYTHING RIGHT?

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seniors... band music... band... it's just about the only thing that keeps me going to school. but seriously, i think our school is completely SPAZ lah. which is great :D
i love you guys.

Backstreet Boys - Never Gone

I really miss you, a song that I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back in me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are


Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone
No, no, no, no


I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
(Somehow) somehow you found a way
To see the good I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)
Never gone (gone from me)

If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)

(Never gone) Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close, always close), everyday (everyday, everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)
I know you would be forever in my life

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

SYLVIA, AMILYN, THIS IS THE SONG I WAS TALKING ABOUT TODAY.

later, toony

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8:14 PM

Monday, July 30, 2007

surprise surprise.

SURPRISE.

i SCREWED UP my math test. SURPRISE SURPRISE. and the 自渎 paper as well. and i wouldn't be surprised if i screwed my Chinese oral up either. SURPRISE SURPRISE.

sincerely speaking, i don't know what's wrong with me nowadays. i'm not practising my clarinet much, my piano's sliding back, and my grades are dropping like SIAO.

WHY AM I SO FREAKINGLY UNFOCUSED? WHY WHY WHY???!!!

NOTHING'S BEEN WRONG IN MY LIFE LATELY, ONLY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DAYS! WHAT'S SO WRONG WITH ME???

why am i so unbelievably distracted? WHY? i recently spoiled my calculator, i keep forgetting stuff, i'm neglecting my piano and clarinet, WHY? what have i been doing all this while? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!

...

recruits stayed back to do some practising today. can't believe handover's coming so soon. I CAN'T WAIT!!! :D

hmm, if i can take up another instrument, i want to play the saxaphone. it really seems so fun and so cool, how could Tanya possibly dislike it? it's so cool okay! :D

AND SERIOUSLY LAH. CHERYL HO I WANT MY HAIR TIE BACK.

AND ALYSSA POHthe senior who loves me so much ^^ and the senior who i love as much too ^^ STOP TAKING MY HAIR TIE SO OFTEN!!!

i'm actually rather surprised you could reach so high.

...

look. i'm not hiding from the sun. i'm not afraid of it.

i didn't need you to say anything to me. i'm fine, i'm perfectly fine. if someone is around, i can't cry. and i know crying would make everything feel alright.

so next time when you see me cry, please, leave me alone. thanks.

and please please please don't comment about this segment. thanks.

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Corrine May - Safe In A Crazy World

I try to smile my tears away,
I try to keep my cool.
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter,
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me.

It feels like nothing is for certain
And that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and
I'm sinking to my knees for you
You cradle me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's on a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world

'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
but are you willing to hold me?
later, toony

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7:55 PM

Sunday, July 29, 2007

lalala.

i'm not tired.

must be the two satchets of Lipton Milk Tea i had just now. hey, i wanted a whole mugful, and 1 satchet of Lipton Milk Tea only gave my half.

don't really know how anyone can be sad when there're so many miracles in life.

sure, you're waiting for one. but isn't it a miracle to know that a baby can develop by itself without anyone's help? that that small miniscule cell can develop into the pride and joy of so many young couples?

isn't it a miracle that plants know where the direction of the sun is, and grows that way?

isn't it a miracle that trees are able to provide us with a never ending supply of oxygen (until we chop them down, and contribute to global warming >:/)?

isn't it a total miracle that our earth can be so finely tuned that gravity isn't strong enough to crush us?

isn't it a miracle that the Creator of the whole planet, the whole galaxy, the whole universe, would love and care enough about us, that small tiny speck of dust on the surface of such a small planet? love us so much He was willing to die for us, to suffer for us?

yeah, life is short, don't spend your time lamenting and worrying about things you can't control. don't worry so much.

and everyone makes mistakes, heck, you probably wasn't the one who caused it, it wasn't your fault, you had no control over it, stop worrying and feeling guilty about it, alright?

cheer up, you two. i need you guys to be happy, or i'll feel guilty being happy ><

whenever you can, look up, and you'll realise the sun never stopped shining. the sun never leaves. the clouds merely cover it.

later, toony

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10:33 PM


VIVA LA BAND

I FINALLY GET TO USE THE COMPUTER!!!

sian, past few days was just SIAN. like, wake up at 6 in the morning and go back home at 6.30 the whole week (apart from Tuesday), then after shower and dinner about 7.30 liao. then have to go and chiong work. really very very sian. and i still had some overdue work ><

well, anyway, i could have got home in time for the ending of Ghost Whisperer if my sis hadn't skipped dinner. but i got a hot Milo. it was a really really cold day.

slept rather late, and woke up late as well. supposed to meet Fann, Amelia and Celestine at Velocity at 10.30, woke up at 9.45. okay, fine, whatever, might have gotten there on time, but then 700 took so long to come. after a while, got fed up and walked to SC bus stop to wait for 171 or 700. wow, as i walked round the corner 700 drove right past me.

ARGH.

so i had to wait 15-25 mins for that DUMB bus. pfft.

anyway, we got our black t-shirt, i had my Hershey Sundae Pie, got chocolates for seniors, spent a LOT of money. almost wanted to buy a worship album from Trumpet Praise, but i was broke ><

after that we walked down to the bus stop after Newton MRT station. halfway through, stopped to look at Hakka... WOW. NO ONE TOLD ME HAKKA HAD SUCH A NICE NEW GATE AND NEW SIGN!!!

got rather excited. ran into the empty building and climbed all around. i think i must have been thinking about it too much, but it felt like i had been there just yesterday, and that church camp had been just yesterday... love that place ^^

after that, went to school. had to set up tables and chairs for lunch and get drinks and dessert. okay, fine, totally fine, just that string ensemble people were sitting in the far corner laughing away, and some people had put their bags on the table.

lunch was okay lah. i was a nice junior and helped Alyssa take food ^^ sat with sec 2 clarinets and well, it was far quieter than what i expected. far quieter. but i still find Cheryl Ho very very funny ^^

after that had we ran through the whole concert. okay, i still don't like L-O-V-E, cos i have to keep my hands up through the whole piece. it's really really tiring, kay.

after that we had our break... decided to go back to church and visit. realised that there were people in the Oikos room, didn't want to disturb so i went in quietly and sat down. strange, they didn't notice me. think it was Risheng, Rixin and Yixin ba. not sure. anyway, it was only until Faye, Jacqueline and Yilin walked in that they realised i was there. then Mr and Mrs Liew walked in. then Hui Shan and Hui Min walked in.

everyone looked the same... rather happy that they're all alright ^^ no wait. Hui Shan didn't look the same. couldn't recgonise her at all, with her rebonded hair. why is she constantly changing her hairstyle ><"

Faye, Jacqueline and Yilin decided to go out and get dinner, i decided to go back to school for free dinner. it was maddening that the band room was locked, so i had to carry my bag around. turns out my sec 2 seniors were handing out the food. have to admit i got quite *ahem* apprehensive. they were like," HAPPY BIRTHDAY," and," ENJOY YOUR MEAL"

then when Mrs Lee came by... "aiyah, you performing later right? eat more eat more!" then put a lot on her plate. and when Mr Tee came by... "aiyah, Mr Tee so skinny, eat more eat more!" then put even more on his plate. then when he said that it was really messy, Cheryl Ho said," aiyah, it's going into your stomach anyway." damn funny, no one else was as enthusiastic as them in giving out food. i stole some dessert before they were gone. they were small little balls with custard(?) inside. heh, tried giving them out but i dropped one. still managed to help ^^ Marissa stole some before they were all cleared out too.

then when i took my food... wow. seniors saw me, immediately," hey, this one must put a lot." then really piled the fried rice onto my plate. >< had to sit on the floor cos there wasn't enough chairs/ tables.

was rather glad Yilin could come for the concert ^^ eh, seriously wor, my seniors put a lot into it kay. recruits put a lot of effort into it as well. and Kedah band is really impressive. even from the back it was still too loud for me ><

anyway... after that it got rather upsetting lah. we recruits had to move tables and benches and chairs and stands and (?!) perc instruments while seniors went to send Kedah band off. well, i can't blow up at my seniors cause they went up to get instruments when they found out the recruits were moving them. note, it's clarinet seniors, okay? but got rather upset when i realised that the rest of our seniors were sitting in the band room talking to each other while we carried the percussion instruments.

and that IDIOT interrupted our perfect moment! Sylvia had something to say to us, and he interrupted!!! GRR. Kelly cried kay... it was so... awwww... second last time we'll see her cry. still have handover day. which is in 1 week plus... sian. haven't been practising much. hope i can play well enough by then ><

yeah, sure seniors did piss us off rather badly yesterday... but still... still love them lah.

...

rather sad, when you see someone cry and that person refuses to be consoled. and i really don't know what to do ><

盛晓玫 - 为何对我这么好

走过熙攘人群,
踏遍天海角涯,
找不到一份爱象耶稣。
他抚慰我心,
他怀抱我灵,
测不透的不求回报的爱情。

爱到为我降生,
爱到为我受死,
爱到体恤我一切软弱。
他柔声呼唤,
他耐心守侯,
永不停息无怨无悔的爱情

他为何对我这么好?
我虽然不好他却听我每个祈祷,
或在宁静清晨,
或在伤心夜里。

他为何对我这么好?
我虽然不配他还爱我如同珍宝,
此情山高海深,
主你为何对我这么的好?

no, we're not worth it, but He thinks we are, and so, we are.

later, toony

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11:01 AM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

EMO EMO EMO.

freaking EMO now.

DAMN LAH. why does Mr Ng have to leave so freaking SOON?

this is so CRAP lah. i don't want him to leave. and i don't want Ms Sie to come back.

AND ARH. WHY HE ONLY WRITE ONE NOTE? WRITE TWO PERSONALISED ONES LAH WTH.

and like. haven't talked to each other for about a month liao. now you're talking to me to ask me for a song?

I CAN'T STAND MS SIE LAH. SO FREAKING BIASED. I DON'T WANT TO DO HER WORK ANYMORE KAY.

and i didn't hand in the compre to Mr Ng!!! ARGH!!!

he looks forward to teaching us, we look forward to learning from him. we know a good teacher when we see one kay.

i can't stand it lah. seriously i can't stand it. i don't want him to leave for goodness's sake!

...

i seriously love Qingyi's clarinet kay! it's so smooth and the sound it produces is so perfect lah!

i still love my clarinet though. and i hope Klarissa will end up my junior. she seems nice enough ^^

no mood to put up my idiotic pictures today. have to rush that DUMB book.
i don't want to get too attached,.
Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

YES. THE WORST.

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7:41 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

>_<

BRING ON THE PRESSURE PEOPLE.

three days left to write the storybook, band concert in four... sian. this sort of arrangements can kill.

WHO WANTS TO COME BAND CONCERT!!! $10/15, Khoo Audi at SCGS, 28th July, 7.30. come kay! tell me if you want tickets ^^

sincerely feeling rather sad lately. that tendency to cry is coming so often again lah. yesterday during that math test... argh. why do i care so much about tests now... ><

and like. she doesn't care anymore lah. she doesn't care that i'm trying so hard to continue being friendly to her. she doesn't care that i'm still praying for her. she doesn't care that i'm so worried about her. she doesn't care that i really want her to be a better person.

should i stop caring? should i stop praying? argh... i need to talk to someone.

okay, enough emo talk. i've got pictures! :D BUT they'll come next entry. i'm too lazy to wait for them to upload, heh.

Blink 182 - What Went Wrong

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind
An over-sensitive guy that he's lost and alone, yeah

I hate our favorite restaurant, our favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high, and never answer the phone

I can't forgive, can't forget
Can't give in, what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

I'm sick of always hearing
Sappy love songs on the radio
This place, it's fucking cursed and it's plagued
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes

I can't forgive, can't forget
Can't give in, what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong

I'm kicking

later, toony

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3:42 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007

pissed.

SCREWED SCREWED SCREWED.

today was so screwed can. Monday blues NEVER had it this bad.

Math was so... ARGH. SERIOUSLY LAH. i totally blanked out halfway through kay. i was at question 8 and i only had 30 mins left can. and trying to rush it with your neck aching, eyes hurting, and *ahem* all over the place, it seriously isn't the best way to work kay!

BUT I STILL FINISHED QUESTION 11!!!

thank goodness for nice teachers like Ms Ku. :D

next screwed thing, the wet thermometer was BROKEN. and now, cos apparently it's SY and PE's turn to do it, THE WHOLE CLASS HAS TO COMPENSATE. like, seriously, WTH???!!!

thank goodness for nice friends like Mel :D

okay, third screwed thing. MS SIE TOOK US FOR LIT AND REFUSED TO LET US GO FOR CE. and like, i didn't even have recess kay. and her bias-ness is so super obvious can. ARGH.

thank goodness Mr Ng went to tell her it's CE :D

okay, we kinda got scolded by Mr Ng for making him look bad in front of Ms Sie ><

thank goodness he's a nice person :D

we had to be at the band room at 2.45, they released us at 2.40.

thank goodness we moved fast :D

Mr Yap is seriously so funny kay! winking at us, telling us to say no even though we could hear them so clearly LOL. ^^

watching the band perform... it made everything so... peaceful again. SC BAND ROCKS MAN :D

let's think of more ideas to spam Ms Leong with on Wednesday ^^

okay...

seriously damn screwed lah. like, WTH???!!! she's so... ARGH. what sort of self-respecting person would do such things lah, seriously. we carried the DRUM the BIG BIG DRUM and she didn't help at all.

"i carried the table okay!" YEAH, THE TABLE IS REALLY HEAVY AS COMPARED TO THE DRUM. PLEASE LAH.

and her attitude yesterday... SEVERELY ARROGANT KAY. like, other people have enough conscience to move back, you just sit there and blame them for moving cos you can't SLEEP anymore??

at least if you intend to slack, do it the way i slack lah, like," COME WE CARRY THE BIG HEAVY STANDS" instead of," I CARRIED THE STANDS OKAY." at least we can laugh at the first statement. don't make it seem as if you're doing a lot when you're just slacking there, pretending to do work. IT'S SO IRRITATING OKAY.

and now that the four of us aren't exactly able to tolerate you, you're sticking to Tanya and Rachel? HAVE YOU NO SHAME AT ALL? what do you take us for?

get real okay. we're not cleaning up after you, we're not going to do anything for you, stop taking us for granted.

i don't normally get pissed with people. actually, you are the first person to get me so mad, okay. and if i get mad, just imagine everyone else. JUST IMAGINE EVERYONE ELSE.

i can't even make myself crack that standing sitting joke lah.

and i don't know how to help you anymore. but i doubt you even think you need to change.

when i'm pissed, i'm really really pissed.

band music ROCKS yo. we rule! :D

林俊杰 - 西界

阳光越过窗沿 我在阴影里面
才过正午13点 就漆黑一片
没有人看得见 我心深处的阴暗面

只能眺望东边 你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限 幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我 就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西界 只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面 却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边 只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘 给我一丝光线
让你能多看我一眼

只能眺望东边 你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限 幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我 就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西界 只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面 却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边 只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘 给我一丝光线
让你能多看我一眼

因为我活在西界 只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面 却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘 给我一丝光线
让你能多看我一眼

SO NICE KAY :D

later, toony

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8:07 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007

NJ concert

MY FEET HURT.

running around Orchard Rd, around Tahjong Pagar MRT station and around Singapore Conference Hall in shoes like mine have that sort of effect.

pfft. fried mars bars are really really sweet, really really unhealthy, and really really satisfying :D

band music rocks. and NJC had a stage band, which played 恋爱ing. ROCKED YO.

8 people in one neoprint booth. amazing, don't you think ^^ and Fann seriously takes too long to decorate neos.

yes, i'm slacking, should be feverishly studying for Math now, i know. sian. Math.

Shu Yi's wallet was in the dustbin. Sylvia looked so disgusted can >.<

and we finally managed to make Fann get her ears pierced. but the lady behind the counter was seriously pissed lah.

FANN YOU SERIOUSLY MAKE TOO MUCH NOISE. it's only two holes ---.---

and arh, seriously, next time, just stay up there, PLEASE don't ask anyone to move while wearing SCGS SCHOOL JACKET. we have to get rid of that stereotype that we're proud, and that is seriously not helping.

but the people up there are so nice kay! they moved two seats down for Fann and Amelia. the walk down is really very very scary >.<

i'm not sneezing anymore! :D

and i was a 乖 recruit and thrusted the flower into Sylvia's sister's face. just as Sylvia asked me to. :D

i tell you, seriously, the concert rocked kay. it was so fun lah! it's fun to watch people having fun, and watching trumpeters jump all over the place ^^

band music cured me so well kay! and sandwiches from Cheers are rather nice actually ^^
coldness... i really hope you'll become a really warm person someday :D
Phil Collins - You'll Be In My Heart

Come stop your crying it will be all right
Just take my hand hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here don't you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm
This bond between us can't be broken
I will be here don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand the way we feel
They just don't trust what they can't explain
I know we're different but, deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them 'cause what do they know
We need each other, to have, to hold
They'll see in time I know

When destiny calls you you must be strong
I may not be with you but you've got to hold on
They'll see in time I know we'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always

Always

later, toony

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9:06 PM

Saturday, July 21, 2007

no. not wrong.

i'm not wrong. just misunderstood.

i'm not dumb. just blinded.

i'm not a liar. just don't wish to stir up trouble.

i'm not rebellious. just hoping for some space.

i'm not obsessed. just that phase.

i'm not lazy. just distracted.

i'm not made to withstand scoldings. just stop.

i'm not strong. don't expect me to be.

and stop making remarks about the person who loves me the most in this world.

really. stop it.

i'm unwell enough as it is. don't make it worse.

i'm already hard enough on myself. stop making it worse.
odd, isn't it, how i can be more at home in school than with my family?

it was a mistake. now let it go.
the penknife looks darn tempting all of a sudden.
...

there's too much on my mind. i need to run, to feel the wind in my hair again.

...

6SY peeps, 1SY peeps, who wouldn't mind going to Escape or East Coast for a class outing? or reunion?
to be able to cry to you, that'd be great.
CRAP I HATE MATH LAH!!!

赞美之泉 - 一生爱你

亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐

一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你

亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐

一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你

一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你

一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你

一生奉献一生不回头
我爱你 跟随你

爱你是我的喜乐

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5:28 PM


sick. too.

feeling rather bad today.

as in, unhealthy bad.

slept at 12+... woke up at 9... and realised i fell asleep halfway through prayer. again. >.<

should make it earlier ><

then spent my whole morning setting up my new CD player. finish liao find out that the automatic door refuses to open. and there isn't any space for it to open. screwed.

not only that, had to pull out my bed frame to move my table lamp. then had to push it back. alone.

and i just found out my room is super dusty. sneezed like SIAO.

okay, i had instant laksa for lunch and i've officially decided that i really dislike laksa.

and laksa and chocolate gives a person a damn bad throat. and a terrible cough.

...

the weather isn't really helping either. damn cold now ><

maybe it's the realisation of my mountainous homework pile. sian.

FRIED MARS BARS. maybe it's inadvisable to have them tomorrow. grr.

...

i also don't know what to say about it anymore. from now on, i can only pray and hope it'll turn out okay...
they're not insults, nor needless critisicm. they're words spoken from the mouths of people who truly care. com'on girl.
sian. i can't believe i couldn't recgonise my own face.

haiz, can only think of Reflection now...

Christina Aguilera - Reflection

Look at me you may think you see who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day, is as if I play a part
Now I see if I wear a maskI can fool the world but I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world what’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don’t know?
Must I pretend that I’m someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

There’s a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal what we think how we feel
Must there be a secret me I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that I’m someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
praying... for things to be less complicated... to be easier to understand... and for everything to be alright again.?
later, toony

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1:50 PM


whee.

yesterday... was so finely balanced.

okay, good stuff. geog was so fun ^^ dam the bitch. LOL.

and it was really cool watching Mr Ng speak Jap. cos really, he is so super fluent.

and i didn't sleep in History. a miracle, don't you think ><

and when they showed the interview with Mr Ng... was seriously damn funny. :D

and i finally played with the recruits yesterday! looooooong time since that happened. :D

we actually had fun during drills ^^

i love my clarinet. and i can reach the highest note! :D

it is a big deal, people. Rhasody in blue has a VERY difficult clarinet solo in front. it goes waay high, then goes waay low, then high again. fingers must move damn fast.

it's a jazz piece... thought that part would be for the saxaphone, but a clarinet solo works just fine for me ^^

oh oh oh. can't believe i almost forgot.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LYEANN YOU LITTLE GUIDE :D

and Cheryl Ho arh.

STOP STEALING MY CLARINET.

...

okay, bad stuff...

got back Chinese test. don't really wish to elaborate.

drills were damn tiring. march on the spot for don't know how long lah, please. i would actually have preferred using that time to play.

and erm... saw Ms Leong angry yesterday. rather scary.

live without regrets. it'll turn out good. be patient.
i still don't understand. why was i so happy last night, after you talked to me. do you mean that much to me now? damn.
...

okay, a very very nice song. anyone who has it, please be kind enough to upload onto imeem.com for me, thanks ><

赞美之泉 - 陪我走

我不用再逃避,我不用再难过
在这世上我并不孤单

我不用再担心,我不用再忧郁
因为我要将全部交给你
求主现在就来到我心中

医治我,释放我
拿走我的伤痛
让我笑,让我哭
我渴望自由

我渴慕你,我需要你
你是我力量
牵我手,陪我走
这人生的路

seriously... a very nice song kay... please, a kind soul, upload it for me ><

later, toony

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10:05 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

something.

EMO DAY.

why everyone emo-ing? cheer up lah, people.

...

walking to school before the sun is up... one really sees a lot of beauty all around.

thank the LORD for such beauty. never noticed it till today. i've been rushing to school for so long, such beauty... just gets overlooked.

dew dripping off leaves... the scent from those trees during that particular season... streetlights lighting our path... really, very beautiful.

thank You Lord :D

...

i LOVE paper planes kay! but should use both sides before folding them into paper planes. :D

go paper planes! continue annoying Wen Hui and filling our classroom with so much laughter!

we were making them zoom around the room during Art of Speech. damn funny! paper planes rule :D
is... something wrong? i somehow get the feeling... that you're avoiding me...

and Cheryl Ho kidnapped the one with all the his, yo, hello, hey one! pfft.

and Cheryl Ho made me fall T_T but Fann tripped me T_T and my books flew so far...

but i couldn't stop laughing ^^

WHATEVER LAH CHERYL HO.
i won't hide it anymore.
阿沁 - 我不懂

我静静站在转角
看玻璃透亮了街道
眼泪往下掉
你曾经对着我微笑

夜景美丽的喧闹
在我眼中巳不重要
打湿了外套
这感觉谁又会知道

我是你的影子
随时都可能消失
你说了太多藉口
我不懂

看来我不懂不懂你的冷默
我不懂不懂怎么承受
为什么现在听你每句话
怎么都会有点心痛

如果你要走带走所有的痛
你要走那就放我自由
我沉默只是因为我不要
看到你在他怀中

我静静站在转角
看玻璃透亮了街道
眼泪往下掉
你曾经对着我微笑

我是你的影子
随时都可能消失
你说了太多藉口
我不懂

看来我不懂不懂你的冷默
我不懂不懂怎么承受
为什么现在听你每句话
怎么都会有点心痛

如果你要走带走所有的痛
你要走那就放我自由
我沉默只是因为我不要
看到你在他怀中

我听不懂 我看不懂 我猜不透你的心

看来我不懂不懂你的冷默
我不懂不懂怎么承受
为什么现在听你每句话
怎么都会有点心痛

如果你要走带走所有的痛
你要走那就放我自由
我沉默只是因为我不要
看到你在他怀中
i'm so dumb.
later, toony

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3:24 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

paper airplanes :D

PICK ON WENHUI DAY :D

thanks to Celestine who decided to fold a paper airplane.

and thanks to Mr Teo for making it so successful :D

had to draw a volcano. problem is i was laughing so hard i could barely think properly.

so i ended up drawing some weird volcano thing. COMPLETE with lava and smoke ^^

Mr Teo said it was a masterpiece! so beautiful he couldn't bare to look at it anymore! i'm so proud of myself :D

had so much fun making the airplane fly to Wen Hui. LOL. i like the idea of paper airplanes flying all over the room.

anyone knows how to fold? it's damn fun can! LOL.

Celestine and i were hoping so badly that Mr Ng would come to school today. cos if he doesn't, means that Ms Sie would be teaching. and i haven't given him skittles yet.

school's so fun nowadays. SC rules. :D

I WILL BE A NICE SENIOR KAY.

金莎 - 笨蛋

冰箱结霜 咖啡滚烫
煮不好最简单的早餐
我的生活是一团混乱
维持单身感觉茫然

喜不喜欢习不习惯
我总是说不出个答案
一个人来又一个人往
怎么让他流连忘返

我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

每个早上 都想赖床
没有梦是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛盯着天花板
也跑不出任何对象

我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然

可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

纵然是了解眼光也是温暖
just. forget it.
later, toony

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3:22 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

THANK YOU FATHER :D

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FATHER!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! I FOUND IT I FOUND IT!!! :D

AND THANK YOU BOOKSHOP AUNTIE! I'M BUYING TWO MORE PENCILS FROM YOU :D

...

i can't believe Ms Sie's coming back so soon. i don't want can... even the lady in the simulator wished us good luck can >.<

skittles. whee.

...

Science centre was fun... we went on the simulator. the lady in it used to be from SC can! :D

think she was taught by Ms Sie once >.<

and we collected five stamps! and we got a badge too ^^

but sad case, i want to try the cafe in there... never mind, next time ^^

Yuhan is damn funny can! :D "anyone in favour of the idea, breathe"

~stunned silence... broken by me laughing ^^

she's such a nice mortal. rocks having a mortal like her :D
i really don't know what to say anymore. i hate this utter confusion. i really don't know what to do anymore.
...

pfft. don't like band right? no problem. next SYF we'll just get GWH.

we'll show you.

...

孙燕姿 - 我怀念的

我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍
我还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空最紧的右手最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空最紧的右手最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌最美的烟火最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空最紧的右手最暖的胸口

我放手 我让座
假洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以我
没有哭 没有说

later, toony

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5:31 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007

ARGH CRAP!!!

oh my gosh... what sort of an idiot does this lah!!!! and so often can!!! and seriously seriously... OH MY GOSH I'M SO FRIGGIN' DUMB CAN!!!!!

please, please, please let me be able to find it... i seriously don't want to lose it... :(

...

anyways, i burnt my middle finger yesterday... my right hand seems to like getting burnt. for Mother's day celebrations, it was my index finger and thumb... last week it was just below my wrist... what the. so unlucky >.<

kay lah, whatever. it's all healing/healed anyway.

THANKS WENHUI FOR THE UBER UBER CUTE PANDA EARRINGS MAN :D

AND ALL THE BEST TO WEN HUI, DEBBIE, PAN E, SHEN-NEN FOR THE PREFECT THING :D

GET WELL SOON YU YING AND YUHAN. :D

WELCOME BACK RIXIN AND OPHELEIA. :D

ALL THE BEST TO SENIORS FOR THE CONCERT!!! :D

and first clarinet and third clarinet seniors, enjoy the pencils ^^ now don't have to share the short wooden pencil among ten people liao. lol.

kay lah, maybe i'll get for second clarinet as well. OH YES.

CHERYL HO THIS IS THE FLAMMATION I TOLD YOU TO GET PREPARED FOR.

TRIED TO STEAL MY CLARINET RIGHT. PFFT. SO EVIL SIA.

BUT my clarinet likes me, and she doesn't like you. so she decided to follow me instead ^^

seriously, the first clarinet part for El Bimbo is so super high can >.<

Mr Yap rocks my socks ^^

...

seriously... feeling so bad lah... shouldn't have gotten those for her... sorry... :(

and apparently i've been pissing seniors off... :(

and i can't believe i can't find it lah... oh my gosh... i'm seriously so sorry...
have i really gone that far? has the **** i feel for him gone that deep already? oh my gosh... i can't do this again...
...

张栋梁 - 王子

灰色的天空落下了悲伤
伪装了兵荒马乱遍地伤
沉默的月光惆怅着过往
泛黄了江山红妆没激扬

一步一步踏着腐败
一口一口吸进尘埃
独自一人孤军奋战 模糊的未来

我是孤傲的王子 作我的故事
没落稀势的王室 渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子 优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式 尽情放肆

灰色的天空落下了悲伤
伪装了兵荒马乱遍地伤
沉默的月光惆怅着过往
泛黄了江山红妆没激扬

一步一步踏着腐败
一口一口吸进尘埃
独自一人孤军奋战 模糊的未来

我是孤傲的王子 作我的故事
没落稀势的王室 渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子 优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式 尽情放肆

独自一步一步一步一步地踏著腐败
一口一口一口一口地吸进尘埃
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待

独自一步一步一步一步地踏著失败
一口一口一口一口地拒绝伤害
过去现在明天未来我是否还在
我不我不我不我不敢期待

我是孤傲的王子 作我的故事
没落稀势的王室 渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子 优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式 尽情放肆
用我倔强的方式 尽情放肆

I WANT THIS ALBUM!!! ANYONE HAS CAN LEND ME???!!!

later, toony

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7:11 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

what the...

feels rather nice patching things up with an old foe. yeah, it doesn't feel bad at all.

we're all still human... and i can guess she is rather lonely... i would be too. i can't stand being lonely either. yup. i'll be a good friend and sister and love her ^^

i feel so inspired now :D

i've always wanted to apologise and all... guess i really lacked the courage... and i couldn't find that tolerance in me, to forgive and to accept her faults.

but now i have, and i feel a lot stronger than before :D

thanks man! it's a really AWESOME feeling. :)

just feel like yelling," PRAISE YOU LORD!" pity, i'm at home right now.

i really really want to worship again. guess i'll have to go to Lighthouse... so far...

feeling very very inspired. very... at peace. and i love this feeling :D

really. thank you very very much. be strong kay. keep your chin up. and cry to God whenever you need it. He'll wipe your tears for you if you let Him.

LOVE YOU GIRL. :D

undescribable, this feeling. truly, truly, undescribable. HALLELUJAH.

...

yes, i know this is very slow, but i have a sudden obsession with Planetshakers. a month after the concert ---.---

Planetshakers - Reflector

Since i've found your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way you do

Everyday i want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer

I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with your glory
I want to let the whole world know that
You're living in me

I want to burn with your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know that
Jesus lives in me

later, toony

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1:29 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

blogthings.

i'm a classic slacker.

i haven't even started studying for Chinese yet. what are we supposed to study anyway?

but, on the bright side, i finished Phantom of the Opera. at long last. rather sad story... poor opera ghost. haiz... so in love for what... poor guy.

i think this is the first time someone has actually asked me to vote them to be a prefect. most people would conceal their desperate want for being a prefect.

BUT, this is a DEMOCRATIC country, and this is a democratic school. i vote only for people who deserve my vote ^^

i'm itching to bake something >< bought some dark chocolate yesterday to bake cookies for Isabel.
*oh, by the way, you owe me a present, but you didn't read that ^^*

BAND CONCERT IN 2 WEEKS PEOPLE :D i'm so sure they'll play much better than ACS(I) for that concert. SC HAS A GREAT BAND PEOPLE :D

lol. jiayou seniors! you'll play SO SUPER well kay.
on a side note, i LOVE you guys ^^

I WILL JIAYOU AND GET A D FOR MY GRADE 6 THEORY EXAM. AND GRADE 7 TOO. AND GRADE 8. lol. :D

strange, i'm still sleepy... zzz

陈奕迅 - 淘汰

我说了所有的谎 你全都相信
简单的我爱你 你却老不信
你书里的剧情 我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾

我试过完美放弃 的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了 你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵 就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了 你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

我试过完美放弃 的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了 你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵 就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了 你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

只能说我输了也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了 你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
you can't control me.
later, toony

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7:43 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

sleepy. tired. exhausted.

i've just realised i must have been extremely stressed lately.

should just take a whole day off. off from homework, my piano, my clarinet, and just focus on the three letter word which hasn't crossed my mind for ages. F-U-N.

what sort of a machine has school made me? why is it that i can only think of the Lit book right now? why am i so obsessed with doing well in Band? shouldn't i be thinking of just playing well? why am i so obsessed with perfecting my piano playing? shouldn't it be fun?

seriously, i don't know what's came over me. since when have i cared for faring so well in things? how on earth did i become so obsessed with showing the world i'm good for something?

well, i'm hoping windsurfing would help. seriously hoping i can unwind sometime soon. cos for sure, i know September will be spent preparing for year ends. i really hope December will be fun enough.

okay! i shall start marking down play days for December hols. maybe we could have a class outing at East Coast, or a chalet. that'd be fun.

maybe we could have a 6SY '06 outing or chalet too.

and i wanna go Orchard. and have fried mars bars.

and i wanna go for Festival of Praise too. (this one... quite impossible >.<) problem is... will i be able to survive till then? i'm really very very exhausted... and it's taking a toll on my mood... i can put my head down on the table and just fall asleep.

dear Father, i pray that You will give us all strength and energy to pass this year fruitfully. Amen.

...

does Kelly really have my blog URL???!!!

*if the mentioned person above is reading this, just ignore this segment ;)*

...

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...
i'll be free one day.

later, toony

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3:14 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007

emo-ing?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABEL MY BIG BEAR-LIKE NICE AND WARM CLASS REP :D


i wanted to sing you happy birthday during assembly ^^ then the whole school will know :D

music was fun. i like Disney songs kay! :D but arh. why was i the only one singing You'll Bring Honour To Us All? got people who know and didn't sing arh! *shakes head*

and... YES MS SIE'S NOT COMING BACK ANYTIME SOON.


but well. can't help getting worried sia. apparently, she's quite weak >.<

oh. speaking of that. CONGRATS TO DEBBIE, WENHUI AND PAN E ON GETTING NOMINTATED FOR PREFECTORIAL BOARD. AND SHEN-NEN TOO.

i'll be voting for you guys ^^
...

there's a reason why i choose not to show emotion. you wouldn't want to see it.

i don't know why either. i should be happy. really really happy. the friendship is still strong, draft handed in, tomorrow's a free day, Ms Sie's not coming back soon.

i guess... i wanted it too badly. i won't ever admit it, but i really wanted it...

and well... argh. shan't say anymore.

darn. am i emo-ing again?
...


i'm just glad you guys are okay. i'm just glad for that :)

THANK YOU FATHER :D

rock on man ^^

...

my burn doesn't seem to be healing. and i really did touch the part where the heat comes from. darn.
but you don't care, do you?
...

i wanted to leave a Disney song, but disney doesn't support playing the full version of imeem. so...

i shan't leave a song today. and anyway, i don't know what song to put up >.<

later, toony

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3:13 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Hwa Chong band concert.

Hwa Chong.

actually rather dumb sia >.<

i can't believe they don't pump as much as us lah! 30 is their max? UNFAIR MUCH.

and they dropped their instrument parts just like that? wow. waaaaaay impressive.

but really, they're really not that bad. but i can't believe they destroyed so many clarinets! ARGH.

anyway. i've got the weirdest seniors. ever.

they screamed so loudly when they turned the corner can! the whole auditorium was looking in their direction!

but they're damn funny lah. CHERYL HO WAS IN A SKIRT MAN. haha. she'll kill me when she sees this. LIKE I CARE.

such nice lovely seniors lol. weirdest ever. they rock ^^

they played pirates! HAHAHA! we were cheering so happily! :D

but i prefer the SC version ^^

................................................................................

it's not going to fail. it's really a wonderful friendship.

i can tell neither of you want it to fail. and it's not going to, unless you want it to.

seriously! i can tell both of you are greatly affected by this cold war. really greatly affected.

i want you to post really happy for once.

and i want you to crack your lame jokes once more.

i need both of you to be happy. really, peacefully happy.

please. please. just stop all this nonsense and be the good friends that you really are, alright?

i'm sure both of you would like that.

just tolerate alright? point out what's wrong and tolerate, alright?

the world would be a much happier place this way.

i know both of you are lonelier now. i know neither of you want to continue feeling this way.

so just be friends again alright? you're in each other's life for a reason, and could you please keep that person there?

it's not going to fail. it's so obvious it's not going to fail. it's worth salvaging, it really is.

please... just stop this.

......................................................................

i'm getting very distracted now.
...

be strong girl. be strong.

i really want an MC.

...

i need to know you can laugh again.

SHAKE THIS GIRL. SHAKE THIS.

later, toony

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2:56 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

exhausted.

yes, i'm slacking again... haw haw haw.

GET WELL SOON CELESTINE YOU TUBA PLAYER.

okay, whatever, i'm so random ^^
i don't know what to say anymore.
Fann's coming over later... better get my draft done soon... 1250 words! JIAYOU!
i really don't know how to help...
Mr Teo's the weirdest teacher ever. but this weirdness makes him popular. and he said he's not gay... lol.
what can i do? this is a meaningful relationship... are you really prepared to give it up?
Marissa has agreed to lent me her social studies textbook! THANKS ZOOKEEPER YOU LIFESAVER.
it's getting complicated...
we were observing seniors again. and i realised that just about all the sec 2s are like... crazy >.<>
i won't stop praying. that's all i can do now...
JASON LEONG. LOL.
i hate this helplessness.
Qingyi's damn funny can ^^
hope it'll turn out okay.
of course! she's a clarinet player! :D
as of now, i can only hope in the Lord, and that something good comes out of this.
hmm. is my cheerfulness sometimes pissifying? LOL.

and you arh... cheer up can? if you're so sad and stuff... i'll be super sian in school too... cannot concentrate either... so cheer up lah, seriously. smile kay! if you're still feeling bad, go sleep some more. it really does help. or look at pandas. YEAH pandas would help :D and SMILE :D

I'M GOING HWA CHONG BAND CONCERT LATER! WHOO!

At The Foot Of The Cross

At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received
And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death you bore for me
And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross

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2:37 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

burnt out.

burnt out.

really burnt out.

wasted 5 hours helping Fann bake cupcakes yesterday.

okay, so maybe it was a good bonding session ^^

ruined by me getting burnt by the stupid oven. it's like... purple-ish black now. hope it isn't serious >.< but i'm fine ^^ first form of burnt out. my clumsiness seems to be escalating.

but cos of that think i'm not going to do well in the latest geog test. totally blanked out can >.<

and i stayed up way late to redo the Geog current affairs journal. was so tired already. 6 hours of sleep.

yes, that's the second form of burnt out. heh ^^

really very very tired. then plus so much classical music... sian >.<

and Mr Yap really was performing! HE SO UBER PRO CAN! :D

should have gotten an autograph lah! :( BUT HE'S SO UBER PRO.

and i fell asleep for the first time in assembly today! see lah! i'm so tired!

SAW EUGENIA TODAY! haiz, not much time to play with her, with school so sian and all >.< sad case.

and i have to do at least 500 words of my draft today... and the poem thing... sian >.<

seriously! i need to sleep ><

i'm not even getting enough on weekends!

but band is so pro. seniors play SO WELL KAY! i love pirates of the carribean curse of the black pearl ^^ LOVE BAND :D

chatted with Yu Ying over MSN yesterday. she's so funny ^^ nice person too! PANDAS RULE MAN. :D
grr. com'on girl... you've got to shake this... you can't do anything like this again... shake it!

Give Thanks

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son

And now let the weak say, 'I am strong
'Let the poor say, 'I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us'

And now let the weak say, 'I am strong
'Let the poor say, 'I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us'

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son

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8:40 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

yay.

A LeeWei. Shaken, not stirred.

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shaken. not stirred. whee.

I have always depended on the kindness of LeeWei.

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awwwwwwwwwww.

Madness? This is LeeWei!

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LOL! yep! madness = ME.

I'll be LeeWei.

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yep. i'll just be ME. :D

I find your lack of LeeWei disturbing.

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HAHAHA. don't be like me will be disturbing! LOL.

LeeWei, for lack of a better word, is good.

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yay ^^

Why don't you come up sometime and see LeeWei?

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YEAH! come see me! :D

林宇中 - 猫头鹰

白羽毛在风中 舞着一种风俗
捍卫弱肉强食的残酷
眼一贬就勾魂 嘴一扬就征服

你比猫的性格难预估
爱撒娇容易喜新厌旧
就像猫头鹰无心的抓破幸福

做你最甘心的猎物
到垂死还不觉痛楚
玩弄被当作爱护
我迷了路爱是丛林深处的树
枯萎在你疯狂的报复

爱你爱上这不归路
你伤痛望我能平抚
谁能让猫头鹰泪流
我愿背负你 深夜的孤独

你比猫的性格难预估
爱撒娇容易喜新厌旧
就像猫头鹰无心的抓破幸福


做你最甘心的猎物
到垂死还不觉痛楚
玩弄被当作爱护
我迷了路爱是丛林深处的树
枯萎在你疯狂的报复

爱你爱上这不归路
你伤痛望我能平抚
谁能让猫头鹰泪流
我愿背负你 深夜的孤独


做你最甘心的猎物
到垂死还不觉痛楚
玩弄被当作爱护
我迷了路爱是丛林深处的树
枯萎在你疯狂的报复

爱你爱上这不归路
你伤痛望我能平抚
谁能让猫头鹰泪流
我愿背负你 深夜的孤独

只是有一种失血的麻木

er... note to all others... i hate spams. so no spamming please ><

later, toony

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11:11 AM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

YAY.

yay ^^

this world is so hopelessly realistic.

of course, he's right lah. friendships do erode with time. even with MSN and phones.

but hey, He is the only constant in this world. and He is the only one i dare to hope in. the only one i can be sure will never leave.

simply because i dare not hope that i will constantly become a better person. i dare not hope that the person i become in the future will still be worthy of the friends i have now.

but i only know that He'll love me no matter what. so... it's not that i don't believe in anyone... it's that i don't believe... in me ><

don't worry, i'm not emo-ing. just sudden urge to say this.

i wanted to post a different song... but they don't have on imeem... haiz.

so...

林宇中 - 主题曲

回忆的声音 播在夜里
像是一首旋律 多么美丽
那时我很肯定 你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就各分东西

再说我爱你 泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜 让伤心被允许
说过的话语 做过的事情
像歌曲 陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

回忆的声音 播在夜里
像是一首旋律 多么美丽
那时我很肯定 你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就各分东西

再说我爱你 泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜 让伤心被允许
说过的话语 做过的事情
像歌曲 陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

时间早已忘记 分手时候的无情
你给的美好回忆 让我有怀念的勇气

再说我爱你 泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜 让伤心被允许
说过的话语 做过的事情
像歌曲 陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

纪念着我和你相爱这主题

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3:14 PM


SSO

yesterday was fun~



band prac... darn, drills again. BUT, no pumps, and we did it in the shade! :D



anyway, my reed was bent, but not chipped. think i better ask Amilyn for new ones.



Kelly and Camilla took the recruits for practise yesterday. was rather fun during the clapping session ^^

Fann and i were yelling out the counts, but burst into laughter halfway through. ^^

then we replaced it with fruits. then with recruits' names, then with Kelly and Camilla ^^

i'm going so nuts nowadays can.

i'm happy. i can reach all the notes except for the highest one! :D

and i can remember fingerings too! :)

now have to jiayou for piano!

anyway, i left band prac at 4, then rushed home to get changed and all. my mum sent me to the Esplanade, cos it was getting very late. when i got there, i realised that i didn't see my teacher. she arrived later than me =.=

we had a tour of the place... and i guess i destroyed the cake ><" paiseh paiseh...

we celebrated two people's birthdays yesterday. and er... today's... Jeremy's birthday. happy birthday ^^ even though he won't read this.

the concert was great can! they all play so... 入神. and the trumpets really sound like just one trumpet! pity, couldn't hear the clarinets or the oboes. and i could only see string players from where i was seated.

the pianist... she's really super pro. my age some more... Hai Qing's classmate can! she played Piano Concerto in A minor. she also another one, play very very 入神. was rather great watching her play. her fingers were running all over the piano.

someday, i'll play like her. jiayou.

but she's from RG. grr.

and i saw Mr. Yap! but i didn't get to talk to him >< Mr Yap was performing after all! he's pro ^^

林宇中 - 淋雨中

风吹乱的头发 在我眼前挣扎
把想你剪成几段 沙沙的彷徨
雨有一点急躁 在我脸上涂鸦
把心情画得乱七八糟 滴答滴答响

我手上没有伞 分手的信有一张
我没有哭是雨水渗透 写你爱他那一行

我在淋雨中 看你步上彩虹
我分不了轻重 你幸福我该否祝福
我在淋雨中 背着你走不动
我还有一个梦 被雨水带离我的天空
我的笑容会很酷 若和你们巧碰
放心我会收起我的痛

我手上没有伞 分手的信有一张
我没有哭是雨水渗透 写你爱他那一行

我在淋雨中 背着你走不动
我还有一个梦 被雨水带离我的天空
我的笑容会很酷 若和你们巧碰
放心我会收起我的痛

我在淋雨中 看你步上彩虹
我分不了轻重 你幸福我该否祝福
我在淋雨中 背着你走不动
我还有一个梦 被雨水带离我的天空
我的笑容会很酷 若和你们巧碰
放心我会收起我的痛

停雨之后我不会再哭

淋雨中 the album rocks! love it like mad man... :D

i have a new album obsession ^^

later, toony

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10:14 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

ignore. ignore. IGNORE.

ignore the previous post. ty.

GET WELL SOON MS QUAH. and Ms Tan called you a loser ^^

had so much fun greeting seniors during recess. but arh...

why on earth does Cheryl Ho look at me as if i'm crazy?! she's the crazier one can! :D

and Constance and Lingli are funny too. lol.

and i finally know who's Chris and who's Shu Xin. :D

Huda is nice lah! she offered us free sugared cornflakes when ours flew away when the wind blew it.

so i bought earrings from them ^^

lalala. amazing how the one thing that brings my blood pressure skyrocketing can make me smile too.

school's starting to rock.

pandas roll.

lol. that was random ^^

randomness rocks. :D

lalala. i found Mr Ng's friendster :D actually, Isabel found his friendster.

shall add him when Ms Sie comes back. will be weird having your teacher as a friend on friendster.

and MSN too :D

so we can all haunt him even after he leaves.

yup. i'm evil ^^
just. worried.
hmm. Yu Ying told me to stay happy... even though i've never met her before...

there are so many nice old-er people in this world! i'm blessed :)

thanks ^^

林宇中 - 对调

疲倦划不过桌前一座山
滑鼠滑不出我困扰
爱不是档案一按就删掉
苦着对空气瞎微笑

每天来报到灵魂却闪掉
一颗空荡荡的大脑
难过就涂鸦流泪就睡觉
打卡就打掉分手那一秒

na~
烦恼下了班
薪水也泡汤
na~
又痛又快的爱一场

过热的电脑就得关掉
记忆会跟着糊掉
把自已剪下贴对方身上
交换身体看是否会疯掉

越吵问题越大
聪明的懂得装傻
偶尔把心情对调
把烦恼都放掉
因为能体谅
所以能原谅
无奈笑过就好

later, toony

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2:54 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i really want to cry.

i want to cry.

i really do.

i know.

i'm a terrible friend.

i'm sorry for not being able to show you the love that should be present between friends.

...

all my life, i've been disappointed by other people.

but now i know, truly.

the only person who disappoints me, is me.

and i really hate that girl.

yes. i hate her.

i've been trying to change her.

trying to make her a better person.

and when all that failed, i tried to surpress that side of her.

tried to keep her hidden deep inside of me.

i'm sorry that i failed.

sorry i couldn't change her.

sorry i couldn't make her adequate.

sorry i couldn't make her happy.

sorry i couldn't make her smile.

sorry i couldn't stop hating her.

and i'm sorry

really sorry.

yes. i'm really starting to hate Lee Wei.

all.

over.

again.

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7:37 PM


confusion. it's written all over me.

i bought earrings from Qingyi at a ridiculously high price! better thank me kay! :D

but they're quite nice too. :D

i wanted to buy their cookies. but $1.50 leh... no money liao ><

and i've just realised that i may well be the most responsive person during Lit lessons. grr.

i was choing-ing geog file during Science and recess today. then Qingyi came over shaking her head. SY person doesn't mean we don't slack kay. we're still normal ordinary students. :D

heh, i know i sound hyper, but i'm not as hyper as yesterday. still hyper :D

hmm. i've noticed that almost all my paragraphs end with a :D. that's a good change. i'm hyper-er than i imagine :D

i'm still rather startled that my name has been appearing in two blog entries so far. heh. didn't know i could actually be paiseh. thought being in clarinets would have made me sufficently thick-skinned liao ^^

YES. i'm mad, i'm crazy, WHATEVER MAN. i'm just happy to be this hyper, this high, this happy :D

that sounded weird o.O ah wells. who cares man...
我不想再想了.
i'm confused enough as it is. i know what they're like. and i know they're nice to me but not to her. and really, i know i should say something. but i'm still waiting for her to change before i do anything rash.
please... i don't need another thing to be thinking about. i have to act hyper for another week or so. just... spare me, alright. thanks.
there. happydaysforme.blogspot.com is becoming really really happy now.

i'm proud of myself ^^

林宇中 - 空秋千

荡秋千 来回终究要停在原点
望太远 眼前幸福却忽略
半圈 圆不了爱恋
高一遍 低一遍 风就吹散了永远

还想为你摇秋千 对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
还想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪整夜

荡秋千 来回终究要停在原点
望太远 眼前幸福却忽略
晃半圈 圆不了爱恋
高一遍 低一遍 风就吹散了永远

还想为你摇秋千 对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
还想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪整夜

秋千和我失眠 在你影子身边
这公园太想念 你无邪的笑脸

Ho~ 还想为你摇秋千 对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
还想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪整夜

还想为你摇秋千 对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
还想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪整夜

(荡秋千 望太远 晃半圈
高一遍 低一遍 圆不了爱恋
风就吹散了永远
来回终究停在原点)

later, toony

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2:50 PM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

SCENTA.

this morning was super amusing kay.

at flag-raising when i saw Mr Ng, or as i knew him the, Paul (LOL), i said to Isabel that his hair looks like Tank. then we were laughing like siao.

go to class, Julia suggested that when he enter we all clap. okay, laugh even more.

then when he really entered, no claps at all, don't know why, still laughing.

yes, i'm weird.

then when he asked for Wen Hui's name, Celestine was yelling out Wen Hui. the way she yelled out was super cute, so i was laughing again >< then he was like," okay, so, that's not really your name right?"

LOL. we were laughing like mad lah! LOL.

SJI TRUMPETER LEH! at least he knows what CCA to join. good choice ^^ t

hat SCENTA thing arh... Qingyi was threatening to poke me with the skewer ><

was super funny, competing against band seniors to sell the stuff. they're all FUNNY lah! :D

love my seniors ^^ and Peiwen, Alyssa and Qingyi bought marshmallows from me! at such a ridiculously high price too! :D they rule :)

was rather fun snacking in class. heh ^^

i don't want to sell stuff le... super sian leh...

then after school... turned my head right... and saw QINGYI AND FANN STANDING TOGETHER! i was totally stunned can! didn't expect them to ever get along so well sia.

at the bus-stop... Fann and i were super bimbo can. we saw two drops of HCl. damn funny. two DROPS. :D

and we were talking about ACS(B) guys as well, cos three of them were hanging very near us. talking about how they were so different, but had one thing in common...

shan't say what it is, you wanna know, talk to us on MSN ^^ can only tell you we were laughing super hard. so bimbo can! :D

must be Qingyi lah. LOL.

and to YOU arh... don't emo le! i've been at that stage, i've passed it, seriously! it's better passing that stage!

I MUST NOT BE BIMBO. I MUST NOT BE CRITICAL. I MUST NOT BE COWARDLY. I MUST NOT SLACK.

jiayou! :D

i'm seriously so happy now! must be all the sugar i consumed today! :D

五月天 - 快乐很伟大

想要天下天空就会在脚下
如果雨下梦想很快就发芽

如果有梦
woo be cool woo woo be cool
就要爆发

越玩越high 越玩越大
快乐无限 梦无价
天都不怕 地也不怕
大声的唱 快乐很伟大

贝多芬是十八世纪的怪咖
相信自己明天你就会称霸

如果有梦
woo be cool woo woo be cool
就要爆发

越玩越high 越玩越大
快乐无限 梦无价
天都不怕 地也不怕
大声的唱 快乐很伟大

越玩越high 越玩越大
快乐无限 梦无价
天都不怕 地也不怕
大声的唱 快乐很伟大

快乐很伟大... heh. true true ^^

later, toony

Panda loves !
3:56 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

16.20.

went out just now.

we first went out to Velocity. super ma fan lah, getting there. and mum, my sis and i were hunting up and down for the food court.

after that, no choice have to get my sis's birthday present. took MRT to orchard, then went taka to go gift a name.

my pocket money for this week is $25, plus the amount i had left from last week, $35.

and my sis's gift costs $16.20.

haiz, should have just gotten her a worship album of some sort. OH that reminds me! Wen Hui still hasn't returned me my album yet! haiz.

kay lah, whatever, bottom line is that i spent a lot today ><

haiz... i noticed that a lot of my friends... have very different responses to things than what i have...

erm, like the song... the rap... they can laugh at it and i'm just stunned...

and... i don't know lah... maybe... Mrs Low isn't all that bad after all... after seeing what the flamers on her friendster say... i mean... she's just doing what she thinks is best for the school...

...

and i have insufficent courage to say this to their faces.

grrrrr.

孙燕姿 - 飘着

空气中
呼吸都凝着
我让思考放空
看你转身上楼

我知道
这就是答案了
还能怎么感受
那残余的温柔

当黑夜清晰过白昼
当快乐赔上了所有
当理智熬不过放纵
你的神色什么都淡了
我还守着爱飘着

da la la la...

你回头
就像往常笑着
好像在原谅我
绑住你的自由

当黑夜清晰过白昼
当快乐赔上了所有
当理智熬不过放纵
我的神色什么都算了
却还守着爱飘着

错在明知是错
快乐该怎么选择
我爱错我只能选择沉默
不该嘶吼

当盲目的黑夜清晰过白昼
当奢侈的快乐赔上了所有
当假装的理智熬不过放纵
每个路口怎么转都错
我进退不得谁救我

飞不进你梦中偷一点感受
飞不回原来我冰冷的躯壳
就这样漂浮着悲伤的穿梭
感觉掏空灵魂不在了
爱情突然失重在飘着

da la la la...

later, toony

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4:15 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

死心的理由

just here to post a song...

F.I.R - 死心的理由

离开我
再没有决裂的时候
就让灵魂彻底的堕落
喔喔

放逐过
还逃不出你的左右
怪只怪我把爱当寄托
一时迷惑一路犯错

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀愁
怕看见温柔眼眸
怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你时而热情时而
冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛

放逐过
还逃不出你的左右
怪只怪我把爱当寄托
一时迷惑一路犯错

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀愁
怕看见温柔眼眸
怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你时而热情时而
冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛心痛喔.....

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀愁
怕看见温柔眼眸
怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你时而热情时而
冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛心痛喔.....

been wanting to post this song for ages... keep forgetting ><"

it's really nice lahs... another song...

quite true, 不要车多人多钱多楼多爱太少, so, kick back, and relax! we only live once, after all ^^

林宇中 - 捉迷藏

亮发妆行李箱
你先暂时不要管
机车引擎发动
等你跳上来

风很凉路很宽
甩掉穷追的烦恼
沙滩海洋铺好
我们去赖床

脚步太快
太吵闹太污染太乱
喔带着你落跑
跟城市躲猫猫

盖着蓝天窝窝 让压迫感找不到
海风吻吻肩膀 摇一摇就不痛了
不想要焦躁失眠忧郁血糖高
更不要车多人多钱多楼多爱太少

亲爱的别为了柴米油盐穷慌张
天塌下来有我在第一线为你扛
让轻松从紧蹦的世界活过来
像玩捉迷藏一样
躲着让现实生活
捉不到
捉不到

不安在云中央
在飞鸟的口中叼
你眼神笑开来
满格的讯号
快乐的回家

heh ^^ happy song for a change ^^

later, toony

Panda loves !
3:49 PM


crap feeling.

feeling rather crappy right now.

anyway, to all Saltshaker peers, hope you guys had fun yesterday! :D and if y'all ever go back to East Coast Park, please get wet lah! :D

...

anyway... i really really hope saxaphone players won't die out lah... and i don't want to change sections... i love my clarinet. *hugs*

i need more sweet stuff! mentos contains insufficent sugar for me to remain high...

haiz...
you still haven't replied... did i do something wrong?
i was trying to recall the Lee Wei from P6.

and... i think i have a problem...

i really can't remember who she is. i only remember she didn't want to quite choir... didn't want to leave SC... didn't want to be upset... but i really can't remember who she is...

have i really changed that much? i mean... i'm not sure if it's for the better... and i'm not sure if it was for worst... cos i don't really like the me i am now...

...

going through a serious identity crisis here...
i told you about the one thing that still bothers me, and you laughed. are my problems amusing?
be yourself... be yourself... how do i know who i am? i mean... this girl... typing this... she's really confused... she doesn't know what else she can do except ask for help...

be yourself? wonder how many of us actually do that.

argh. whatever. i'll just try to be the girl God would like me to be.

徐怀钰 - 心中的遗憾

喜欢对着天空发呆
想着你的笑容出现在人海
你总是能让我开怀
忍耐我的坏
只是这一切将烟消云散

也许遇见你是个错
错在我们身处不同的时空
两颗心交会的时候
一分钟就足够
够我一辈子想念很久

我会选择离开
微笑告别伤害
我知道你心中的那份遗憾
当你为她戴上幸福的头盖
我含泪祝福你
有美的未来

想飞到千里外
期待一切重来
想洗去你对你的所有依赖
但谢谢你让我体会了真爱
我永远记得你心中的遗憾

nice song... that's all.

and don't worry about me... i'm still happy ^^

later, toony

Panda loves !
2:15 PM
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