i know. i know it's hurting you a lot, and i'm sorry. really, i am.
but please, just let me be.
...
i didn't want to do this today. but this emotion just came over me so overwhelmingly, and i really really can't help it.
i never knew i'd come to need them so much.
when Fann, Amelia and i went out of the band room to self prac, i chose that particular area for a reason. that's where the seniors had helped me out with Last Ride of the Pony Express.
when i walked back there from the band room, i stopped by the tap place, where the sec fours had made us line up to get splashed during FUNdamentals last year.
and that's where i found the spare water bomb and splashed Lynn with it.
i looked over the field and the track, cos that's where we had that MAJOR water fight during band camp. it's when we were chasing Beatrice and Wen Hui around, and we accidentally hit Beatrice's forehead with the pail.
that area outside that dance studio's where we would pump and have our long talks, that spiral staircase was where the sec 4s (sec 3s then) managed to cheat the juniors into sitting in front of them, when they really wanted to fire water guns at us.
honestly, i thought i'd be okay with it. i thought i'd be able to handle it. i thought i'd be able to hang on, to not cry, to be able to say "goodbye, i wish you all the best in everything you do."
and i thought wrong.
i've got a lump in my throat, and it refuses to budge. i felt it all the way through dinner, and i'm still feeling it.
i never liked saying goodbye.
i wish i could be a spoilt brat. i wish i could whine and cry and kick and scream until you guys give in and stay on just to keep me quiet.
but i'm not going to be selfish.
so... tomorrow's going to be goodbye.
and thank you.
and maybe tomorrow, i won't cry.
...
and i've lost all mood and appetite for everything.
王羚柔 - 当我们同在一起
如果云是天空的呼吸 风是我慌张的叹息 回忆是爱的延续 只因为你和我已经不在一起
当我们同在一起 在一起在一起
空气里有午后的暖意 我听着沙沙收音机 突然间下起了雨 雨让我好想好想你想抱着你
当我们同在一起 在一起在一起在一起 在一起其快乐无比
你是我曾经的甜蜜 我是你爱情的过去 那一段美好的记忆 我们都不能够忘记
因为我很爱很爱你 所以能微笑着离去 虽然我不会再见你 幸福是我们曾经在一起
你是我曾经的甜蜜 我是你爱情的过去 那一段美好的记忆 我们都不能够忘记
因为我很爱很爱你 所以能微笑着离去 虽然我不会再见你 幸福是我们曾经在一起
空气里有午后的暖意 我听着沙沙收音机 唱什么听不清晰 因为我傻傻的笑着想起了你
当我们同在一起 在一起在一起 在一起在一起
later, toony
Panda loves !
8:25 PM
PROFILE
Child of God
SHE'S a real person, but she shall just be known as toonyweeny here(:
she loves Sophie(her B flat clarinet) and Sophia(the alto clarinet).
she loves Percy(her piano) just as much too(:
she really hopes you remember May 16 as it is an important day to her.
she loves SC and SC Band, and really hopes that things will go back to normal.
she's still waiting and hoping, but don't treat her like a fool(:
she is really really sincere, having been in it for four years.
lastly, she really hopes you have a nice time here :D
33/25/3001
SOUNDS
SITE RULES
RULES PLACED HERE .
- be nice(:
- please don't flame pandas here(:
- or clarinets
- or pianos.
- leave a tag!
- smile! Jesus loves you!:D
WHAT I WANT
WISHLIST
- music stand
- my own clarinet
- Skin Food nail polish! :D
- nice blank notebooks
- albums of band songs
- Whenever You Remember, You Raise Me Up and nice piano scores
- Christian literature
- ice-cream maker
- Topshop stuff!
- panda stuff
- WORLD PEACE!
RESOLUTIONS
- focus on GOD
- be a better daughter
- be more motivated to do stuff
- study hard!
- practise my piano and my clarinet much much more
- do well for grade 7 practical and theory
- get straight A1s
- give my parents more than enough reason to let me go back to church
- get my own clarinet
- be a better person
