i've got my brownie pan, and two bars of semisweet chocolate, PLUS two bars of bittersweet chocolate.
yay ^^
...
i just realised that although i try so hard to continue trusting people, i just can't. not anymore.
i'll never admit just how afraid i can be sometimes. i'll never admit how fragile i can get. i'll never admit it.
it's just... recently... i've lost touch of what is truly important to me. i'm so... lost. i'm just drifting through life now...
i need a reason... i need a reason to rebuild this screwed up thing i call my life.
...
i want to help people.
anyone knows where i can do CIP? an old folks' home, an orphanage, anywhere?
i'd like doing that... i think it'll be fun...
i might reconsider my ambitions. maybe being a humanitarian would be better?
hmm. truthfully, i'm not very sure. i still want to help pandas...
...
i give up a lot.
i gave up on the TUNZA thing, i gave up on Hwa Chong camp, i gave up on Hwa Chong exchange, i gave up on the ACM exhibition etc.
seriously, i have no idea why. all these are opportunities which don't come often. they would really help me in future. they'll all look wonderful on my portfolio.
TUNZA... was cos i didn't think i had much of a chance. it's representing Singapore, SINGAPORE. no no, i wouldn't have made it.
Hwa Chong exchange = giving up 5 days of school. not when my studies were that bad.
ACM exhibition was cos it took too much time. i could use this time much more wisely.
Hwa Chong Camp. i really didn't want to give this up... but i'm not free to go for it ><
wonder what else i'll give up on... i don't want to keep this up ><
oh wells.
...
ALL THE BEST TO ALL J2 STUDENTS OUT THERE WHO ARE ABOUT TO TAKE A LEVELS!
and also...
ALL THE BEST TO ALL SEC 4S OUT THERE WHO ARE ABOUT TO TAKE O LEVELS!
by the way, if any J2 student or sec 4 student is reading this, what on earth are you doing here? ;)
anyways, random song
周杰伦 - 轨迹
怎么隐藏我的悲伤 失去你的地方 你的发香散的匆忙 我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见 你离去的痕迹 在月光下一直找寻 那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点 那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍 想要对你说的不敢说的爱 会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼 想着那一天会有人代替 让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑 接着紧紧闭上眼 回想那一年你温柔的脸 在我忘记之前
闭上眼睛还能看见 你离去的痕迹 在月光下一直找寻 那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点 那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍 想要对你说的不敢说的爱 会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼 想着那一天会有人代替 让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼 想着那一天会有人代替 让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑 接着紧紧闭上眼 回想那一年你温柔的脸 在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪 模糊了视线 你会看不见
highlight, RANDOM song.
later, toony
Panda loves !
1:12 PM
PROFILE
Child of God
SHE'S a real person, but she shall just be known as toonyweeny here(:
she loves Sophie(her B flat clarinet) and Sophia(the alto clarinet).
she loves Percy(her piano) just as much too(:
she really hopes you remember May 16 as it is an important day to her.
she loves SC and SC Band, and really hopes that things will go back to normal.
she's still waiting and hoping, but don't treat her like a fool(:
she is really really sincere, having been in it for four years.
lastly, she really hopes you have a nice time here :D
33/25/3001
SOUNDS
SITE RULES
RULES PLACED HERE .
- be nice(:
- please don't flame pandas here(:
- or clarinets
- or pianos.
- leave a tag!
- smile! Jesus loves you!:D
WHAT I WANT
WISHLIST
- music stand
- my own clarinet
- Skin Food nail polish! :D
- nice blank notebooks
- albums of band songs
- Whenever You Remember, You Raise Me Up and nice piano scores
- Christian literature
- ice-cream maker
- Topshop stuff!
- panda stuff
- WORLD PEACE!
RESOLUTIONS
- focus on GOD
- be a better daughter
- be more motivated to do stuff
- study hard!
- practise my piano and my clarinet much much more
- do well for grade 7 practical and theory
- get straight A1s
- give my parents more than enough reason to let me go back to church
- get my own clarinet
- be a better person
