...

i don't want to cry anymore.

i'm still hoping.

please. do something. anything. convince me that you really cared.

please.

...

aw man. the penknife looks welcoming again.

and my hands haven't shaken this badly for ages.
it's the April period all over again.

...

i hope i did something right.

jiayou, dear friend, jiayou!

persevere!

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我不想当笨蛋...

Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right
It just ain’t right

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I’m longing for love and the logical
But he’s only happy hysterical
I’m searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
Waiting so long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

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my eyes are really tired.

you and i. we both need to focus. major exams coming really soon.

later, toony