playing and playing and playing.

how i wish i could just sit in the comfort of the band room, playing piece after piece after piece on my clarinet.

the peace and shelter from the confusing outside world.

my sanctuary. yeah.

...

i don't know why lah, but i was so nervous when playing with Amilyn. was playing super super soft so that her saxaphone would cover up my clarinet sound. kept missing beats and all ><

and i can play Last Ride of the Pony Express! after 3 days! :D

rather fun, actually. band rocks ^^

piano lesson. played with the trump cards again, and played my C piece. was so super nervous, so i missed lots of notes, and didn't hold notes long enough either. darn.

was really very tired even though i slept at 10.30 the night before. don't know why. my body's going all weirdo on me.

...

had oral in the morning. was freaking out before the test. was hunting for a stress ball, which no one had. then i could only use my tissue, so my arm aches a lot now.

okay lah, it wasn't that difficult. but i forgot to mention a vital point in the picture lah! WTH!

okay, conversation topic wasn't my favourite. food also can. fashion trend also can. give me this sort of crap topic... don't know what to say lah. sensitive issue with me.

after that, rushed to Orchard to buy sweets. i walked up escalator, then heard very soft," Lee Wei, Lee Wei" then i turned around... wow. i saw so many french horn players. immediately called Fann to tell her her seniors were at Orchard too.

after that, rushed home, rushed through lunch, rushed to Barker Road.

WHY IS THE HOSTEL SO FREAKINGLY DIFFICULT TO FIND???!!!

had quite a bit of fun there. after the meeting, went to 7-11 with Alyssa and Georgina cos i really needed proper food. had been snacking on sweets the whole afternoon, not very healthy. bought a hot dog bun and i finished the sausage really really quickly ><

sad, why couldn't they go RTC bus stop? then can spend more time together... and take pictures... :(

WTH. i go make presents for seniors you not happy is it? just say lah. you think we can finish in 10 mins is it? what do you expect lah? not say i have a TON of work to do, just study for Lit and Geog test on Monday.

okay, fine whatever. switch on the computer, saw something super unpleasant.

hey, i'm not that upset over that okay. it's just... i was worrying that i would be misleading you and all. so it's long gone huh. why didn't you just say so? so you were leading me on after all. i hate being deceived, you know that? and i trust very very easily.

maybe i trust too much. maybe i trust the wrong people. but if what she said is true, then my image of you will be completely off. but i trust you. but if i were to believe you, that means she's lying. and i trust her too.

why are humans so selfish. if we could all be proper christians, the world would be so much easier, no one would be hurt, nothing would go wrong, it would be so peaceful.

but God doesn't give us peace without opposition... i can only trust that He will keep me and all my loved ones safe.
i submit us all into Your hands. heal the wounds, Father. there's so much deceit in this world. i'm afraid. i don't want to be hurt anymore.

Hilary Duff - Coming Clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

later, toony