i've just realised i must have been extremely stressed lately.

should just take a whole day off. off from homework, my piano, my clarinet, and just focus on the three letter word which hasn't crossed my mind for ages. F-U-N.

what sort of a machine has school made me? why is it that i can only think of the Lit book right now? why am i so obsessed with doing well in Band? shouldn't i be thinking of just playing well? why am i so obsessed with perfecting my piano playing? shouldn't it be fun?

seriously, i don't know what's came over me. since when have i cared for faring so well in things? how on earth did i become so obsessed with showing the world i'm good for something?

well, i'm hoping windsurfing would help. seriously hoping i can unwind sometime soon. cos for sure, i know September will be spent preparing for year ends. i really hope December will be fun enough.

okay! i shall start marking down play days for December hols. maybe we could have a class outing at East Coast, or a chalet. that'd be fun.

maybe we could have a 6SY '06 outing or chalet too.

and i wanna go Orchard. and have fried mars bars.

and i wanna go for Festival of Praise too. (this one... quite impossible >.<) problem is... will i be able to survive till then? i'm really very very exhausted... and it's taking a toll on my mood... i can put my head down on the table and just fall asleep.

dear Father, i pray that You will give us all strength and energy to pass this year fruitfully. Amen.

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does Kelly really have my blog URL???!!!

*if the mentioned person above is reading this, just ignore this segment ;)*

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Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da
Da da da'd da da da da

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...
i'll be free one day.

later, toony