i'm just here to RANT and to SCREAM.

STUPID CRAPPY ENGLISH HOMEWORK WHICH TAKES UP SUCH A BIG PERCENTAGE OF MY LIT CA GRADE.

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AND WHY, OF ALL TIMES DOES WINDOWS EXPLORER CHOOSE TO HANG NOW???!!!

ARGH!!!

and like, there's so much stuff that's starting to worry me le lah!

and i have barely started on Grade 6 theory when my exam is just 5 months away!

and it's gonna clash with my year-ends!

and my clarinet playing still doesn't sound good enough!

and i still can't reach the high notes

and i still CAN'T think of what my proposal should be like

and i have to finish my book review and my stupid draft in like, A WEEK

or i'll FAIL Lit IMMEDIATELY.

ARGH! SO CRAP LAH!

and i have to talk to my parents about going to the English service of Hakka Methodist.

seriously, i can't lah!

i know i have to, but i just don't dare lah! fine lah, whoever's reading this can laugh lah, i don't care anymore.

i know i appear to be like, super daring and whatever.

i still don't get it lah. why on earth am i more afraid of my parents than people i've known for only a few months?

if i get put into 2 CO next year, i'll just LAUGH lah

it'll be so unbearably IRONIC.

i admit lah. i'm afraid.

i'm afraid of embarrassing SC band on stage.

afraid of getting bad results and embarrassing my mum as i ALWAYS do

afraid of being a bad friend

afraid of being a bad junior

afraid of being a bad sister

afraid of being a bad daughter.

that's just it. i'm AFRAID.

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go on. laugh. i don't care anymore.

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who am i kidding? of course i do.