haiz, spent the whole afternoon working on my math worksheet yesterday, then last night my cup of water was knocked over by my mum and spilled all over my worksheet. she didn't know, so okay, fine.

then she started scolding me for putting my cup in my room. seriously... like, wth lah. apologise and i'll just go sleep peacefully, do you really need dad to apologise on your behalf? what crap lah...

okay, fine, that's over le.

got quite a nice message in the morning. heh... thanks... ^^

in school... okay, it's still okay, didn't get booked for messy hair.

then got back Geog current affairs journal...

ungraded >.< so now i have to redo.

and when Ms Ku said she wanted to speak to me, i almost died lah...

and she spoke to me last... so i was watching her raise her voice at Nat. Saw... really freaked me out

but luckily, she didn't scold me ^^ so now i have more work to do. ah wells.

SEE SEE SEE ISABEL??? HE DID HELP YOU DIDN'T HE!!!

heh.

and Mr Sim refuses to explain what dissassociation constant means. haiz... i can absorb it lah...

so, okay, fine whatever...

Ms Chia came in for English and CE... CE topic was about forgiveness...

think i was the only one who really thought about it... forgiveness...

Forgive that you may be forgiven.

i don't think anyone else quite understands the significance of this quote. it is true, after all. when we pray, we go "forgive us our debts, as we have forgiven our debtors" or something like that... and like... i don't know why people scoff at this lesson.

forgiveness... it really isn't simple... really isn't... and the person scoffing the most was the person who would bear a grudge the most.

God put all of our sins on Jesus, and punished him. i remember some antichrist flamer on someone's blog said," if God really loves everyone like that, He would just forgive them. He wouldn't have let Jesus die."

well, God isn't just our Father... He's our King, Lord over everything. and a good King is just. and a good King is exactly what God is. he can't just forgive our sins like that without someone being punished...

the flamer probably wouldn't read this... but it's something i've been thinking about for a long while...

and i know i'm at fault. and i'm sorry i didn't inform her earlier.

but can i just ask why you didn't inform her either? you're sitting the closest to her after all. why is it that when you heard that she didn't know, you immediately turned around and gave me that look? you have to note that the rest of the group looks up to you as the leader. and being the leader is about being responsible for everything. so we're all at fault really, please think about the situation before you blame others.

forgiveness really isn't that easy... and i'm not angry with anyone right now... just... disappointed.

...

forgive that you may be forgiven...

and a song...

Mandy Moore - Cry

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon

You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure

You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you I wanted to make your everything, all right...

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...

In places no one would find
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

whoo, looong entry today.

later, toony