Sunday, June 10, 2007

lonely. isolation. shit.

loneliness reaching it's peak...

sometimes... i really wish i could be part of the movies you watch on Disney Channel.

you see people who are willing to break free from all expectations, willing to stand for what they believe.

you see a friend, who's always there. always comforting, always supportive.

you see a family. a real, complete, open family, who supports whatever decision you make.

you see that they always follow their hearts.

...

why aren't we allowed to do that in reality?

why can't we break free?

why can't we have THAT friend, who never leaves you, understands you truly, and who is always by your side?

why is it that in this community, such families are so rare?

why can't we follow our hearts? why can't we reach for the stars?

...

because that's what reality is. reality is about being practical. it's about doing what people expects from us. about doing what is traditional.

in the movies, they make it seem as if such friends are everywhere.

but reality, it's so different. you could spend your whole life looking for such a friend, but that friend might never appear.

thank you for being such a great friend. for dying for us all.

...

if i could live in my own fantasy... i would erase all my mistakes... i would make myself just about flawless... i would erase all the sins i've felt the effect of.

but that wouldn't be a life.

it'd be a lie.

...

this loneliness is really taking a toll on me...

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