well... during the first week of school holidays... i've been teaching my juniors math... okay... can anyone imagine my gigantic headache? i mean, my tutee took 2 hours to finish rounding off to the nearest thousand. my head can hurt, you know.

okay, i'll admit right now. i am not a patient person. it was so difficult to prove my point, seeing as i just can't tell her straight," your answer is wrong." i don't know why, but i just can't. and lately, i've taken to skiving. (haha... so lazy...) yesterday, i watched the peer support games with the water bombs. i'll be doing that next year! so cool...

anyways, fann and i were watching them play with the water bombs... then when the sec 3s threw the water bombs, fann and i erupted into laughter, and they actually stared at us lol. we must have looked like such idiots... haha... then... priscilla came and joined us... then ms koh came out to scold us... and told us to go back...

oh yeah... during their breaks, they give us biscuits... then everytime... i would take some and stuff it in my pocket... so now... i have a lot of uneaten biscuits in the kitchen... haha...

today... fann brought plastic bags... we filled them up(me, fann, priscilla, joanna, nat. sim)... and threw them somewhere in the school... outside the amphitheatre... and i got soil on me...

okay... sorry all... i'm going to be serious. to tell you the truth, i think that i'm going to go into isolated mode over this holiday... the problem is that when one gets into isolated mode, it's difficult to get that person out. what's more, i won't be getting out often either. i mean, i'm gonna spend 24/7 at home. i'm gonna try to sneak out to the petrol station someday... but i'm very scared... i'll ask my sis to help me...

to tell you the truth... i don't mind being alone anymore... seems like i function better alone... when i'm alone... now... physically... i really don't think that i mind it anymore... okay... this was taken from John 14:20... "on that day, you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and i am in you." sigh... great words...

but sincerely... i really think that i'm too shy... i mean... i'm scared of my teachers. i ask fann to help me message rixin. i can barely say a word to risheng when we're face to face. and i don't know why... maybe when rixin becomes a psycologist, i'll go consult her. but it is apparently very expensive... maybe...

sigh... to be able to talk to me... one will have to catch me on the days when i'm high... like at ms heng's farewell concert... otherwise i wouldn't have said hi to alyssa... sigh...

i'm bracing myself for unlimited boredom.

i wanna go to school.

later, toony