damn... that was seriously very kind small foot... you have no idea how much that message helped... oh gosh...

yeah... i'm smiling slightly more now... but... to feel really happy... that's a bit beyond me now...

i forgot what it was like to be naive...

how i wish i could be naive again...

but then again... i wouldn't have realised what good my blog is doing... it's letting people understand me... truly understand me... i guess... i'll never be that innocent girl anymore...

then again... do i want to be innocent? is it what i really want? no... i don't think so...

i want to feel real. to feel whole... to know who will comfort me when i cry... who will understand what i need... soup for my cold... coal in the winter...

now that i think about it... me feeling so depressed ain't all that bad... it really was a blessing from God... oh... thank you...

i truly feel very blessed... thank you...

i feel loved... appreciated... valued...

the place where i live may not be warm... but everything is a blessing...

is this wisdom? it's so... twisted...

nothing should be made clear to us... we won't know how to handle it... where's the fun in having answers supplied to you?

wow... as i look back now... i realise that all the horrible things that have happened to me are blessings... i should really praise God for it all...

i've ran out of words to type...

and thanks, small foot...